Here’s what I found:It’s too late for me. I turned 36 this year and finally ended up with a prescription I should have chased down long ago, but here we are. Was on 25mg spiro and 2mg estradiol daily. Started on Xmas eve, no reason in particular, just thought it’d be easy to remember. Drop four hits of acid today and come to a realization that I am doing so well for myself as a cis guy that this seems like a road I don’t need to go down. I feel like I have a lot of other things in life I should take care of first. I am not even close to where I should be financially. And I get enough unsolicited attention from women that I feel like I’m attractive. So no “male loneliness cope” here either. Idk, I just kinda realized this isn’t as cute or hot as I imagined it to be. I think about sex a lot less and my chest feels tingly. The same videos jerked off too weeks ago don’t even hit right anymore, so I don’t even get the distraction of “everything goes away once I cum” I feel unfulfilled, and I get why women seem like they are never satisfied. I dabbled for a week but I think it’s not for me. The physical aspects I want are too unobtainable at this point without surgeries. And they don’t even turn me on after it becomes who I am, so what’s the point?
>>42180692No you're the first person in history to have this experience
>>42180692That prescription would have done nothing for you at 1 week.
>>42180781I understand. But it was enough for me to at least know it was working. My nipples are really sensitive the past week and I feel “tightness” in my chest I never felt before.
i will never understand why people get upset when they lose their sex drive
>>42180927Yeah I see where you are coming from. There’s no “post nut clarity” it’s just “clarity” I get it. Girls like you need to be protected.
It sounds like you had a feminization fetish that went too hard. Don't look back. Its hard being a tranny, a near daily struggle.
>>42181093Yeah I think that’s true. I wasn’t trying to mock or offend or anything, all signs were pointing to “this is what you want”. But I may have misunderstood something along the way…
Can understand your position. At 36 it is unlikely to pass, even if you may it will take until your 40s and expensive surgeries. Just curious what your body height and underbust is?
>>42181011That's... an accurate way to explain my mind now, but yeah even I do think that this might've just been a fetish on your part and some would call this ageist or whatever but only to do this at 36? I um, don't really get how someone can go through basically half their life (if that) and only start now when there were a lot of options available
>>42181167I’m 5’10As far as underbust? I know I wear a 38B bra comfortably. I forgot to mention I had slight gynecomastia my whole life. Even when I was at like 135lbs I still had reasonable “A cups”
>>42181214I am currently like 185lbs
see you again at 50
>>42181116Maybe so. Its not for everyone, typically if this is your path its with you from a VERY young age. I used to go to bed every night wondering what my day would be like if I was a girl at 8 and wore dresses when I was 5 or 6
>>42181198Well a number of reasons. 1. I didn’t really do any research. 2. I just figured I liked jerking off to sissy porn and would never go further. 3. I stupidly let other people kinda get in the way. I was just like any other blurry faced, nobody in the crowd. And then like 2019 I started getting all this attention from women. I had grew my hair out cuz I liked it and started dressing kind of “louder” than usual. I was getting approached and didn’t know how to handle it at first, even my female roommate of ten years, sorta like “confessed” her love to me. I didn’t like her back, but I felt like she was just trying to “reclaim” me since I was getting all this new attention. I ended up with a new gf who was into all the kinks I was in to and everything. We talked about a future and kids and stuff that never happened cuz the relationship eventually went no where. And then I got into another thing like that almost right after. Except this time, the girl was like 100 times hotter (the last girl was really overweight and hated herself, but never did anything about it) so I kinda spent a lot of time being kinda “performative” just to show the last bitch I didn’t need her 20 times over. And now that that came and went, I still liked the sissy stuff, so I figured this is what I needed
>>42181278Yeah I used to wear my moms and sisters clothes all the time. I often wished I could wear panties as my everyday underwear cuz I liked them more. I think I just came of age too late. I mostly just want someone to spend my life with, and being openly trans seems to significantly cut down your options.
>>42181326I wouldn't call you trans but hey, you do whatever you wanna do, freedom above all I guess>>42181278for me it was that I was a scared ignorant child for a while before I suddenly got hit with the "wait, gender is a thing?" at like 9 or 10, I was completely feral back then
>>42180927Because sex is nice. And not all of us are autistic shut-ins.Transition doesn't need to be the end of sex life. It can be (and certainly is for me) a reconstruction of the sex drive and sex life.>t. married tranny
>>42181326I should add that I had been dressing up in secret and stuff my whole life since I was like six. Growing up I did feel kinda “left out” when I couldn’t engage in the same activities as girls and stuff. So in my mind at the time, this wasn’t merely a fetish since I’ve had these thoughts before. I also think I was concerned with what my family would have thought plus society and shit like that. Stuff that would never impact my decision making today. But I have grown out of worry about that now.
>>42180692I started for the first time when I was 13 and then quit. Started up again when I was 15 it was birth control pills for a few months then quit. Starting up again at 18 to a doctor but only lasted for a year and then quit. I started out when I was 20 and stopped after 6 months. I started again when I was 22 and stopped when I was 23
>>42181657Well I didn’t have such easy access to shit as you guys have nowadays. Literally being an mtf was a joked about in movies and that’s it. No one even close to 18 was getting “gender affirming care” if that was even a term back then.
One week of hrt is literally nothing thats like doing a single pushup one single time and then deciding your too old to be healthy and should just give up
>>42182246This was already addressed above
