I had an interesting moment before showering just now. I was naked, in front of a large mirror, and lazily inspecting myself. I've been on HRT for about three months now. There was a bit more breast growth, but other than that, I looked about the same. During that process though, for just an instant, I had a fleeting change of perspective. I knew I did not pass, I knew I did not look great, I knew there were plenty of flaws in how my face and my body looked, but I, for the first time perhaps, managed to see myself not as a man playing at womanhood, not as a man crossdressing, but rather, actually, somehow, as a woman. A woman that had been disfigured and led astray in development by some malignant force or other, but a woman nonetheless. It gave me a lot of hope, even though I know I have a lot of work to do, it was one step against the mental roadblocks I have in the way of seeing myself as a woman in any form. Any similar experiences? How does that go over time? There is hope.
I am not on any hormones. Wanna maybe start. I often look in the mirror and i feel like i look just like a girl, but its fleeting. I hate my voice tho
>>42181378I've had good moments like this but I started to feel really guilty and then really monstrous.So, with that in mind, I caution you to be vigilant of brainworms. Become a woman, nona. Do it for me and those who failed.
never as soon or as diametrically as you, but>How does that go over time? There is hope.yes :) for me it took maybe three or four years to stop feeling or thinking of myself as male. i don't feel female now (over five years) or even like a woman, really, but i definitely cannot see myself as male or a man anymore, at all. it was a very gradual change and i didn't actually notice it happening at all until i had some kind of epiphanic realization that my self-concept had been wildly different from how i remembered for some time.everyone is different, but presumably you will begin to see yourself as totally a woman after some amount of time on hormones.
>>42181849>I hate my voice thoyou have control over your voice right this instant!! voice-train now!!!!!it may be difficult but you have the power to make this change today, no hormones or anything required. i believe in you nona
>>42181378you type like a girl at least
>>42181378that sounds lovely anon. may your journey continue to be as beautiful as your written description of it
