i thought honmoding in public would help with my confidence, help with my faketrans brainworms, get me used to my future life and just help me with actually putting the work into my transition but ever since looking back on a photo of me on the night i just have have felt sick to my stomach. it's been well over a week now, i still feel weird and anxious constantly. i should have never taken a photo cuz i was otherwise proud of myself for going out at all and putting in effort to look fem and had a great night.
..... Yeahhhhh.....Here's a secret though. Most people hate their selfies and it's common for women too, there's an art to taking good pictures and if you're not 10/10 pretty you have to learn the art.I don't know it personally I suck at it but taking a few pretty selfies of myself when my hair and the lighting is good makes me feel better.T. Lateshit 10 months hrt that looks like her mom but clocky
>>42183388honestly nona cameras can do a lot to warp our perception of ourselves, especially when dealing with dysphoria and dysmorphia collectivelydid you look good in your reflection? trust that. give things another shot and try to avoid photos for a while, even on my best days a rough photo can make me question everything. you'll pull through nona i believe in youstay safe out there
>>42183388i've been honmoding for nearly 5 yearshalf the time i see myself differently each time i look in the mirrori've noticed that i sometimes see myself as looking more feminine after doing my injection, but that might just be weird psychological stuff
>>42183493>>42184142see, idk it's not rly about the photos cuz i did just look like shit, i did take the photos in a rush cuz i just wanted to capture what i looked like quickly then get back to hanging out so they're pretty bad photos but what i saw in the mirror i disliked too.again, i just shouldn't have bothered with photos, i never once expected to pass at all, the only goal was to honmode for a day and actually try to be myself with tranny friends and gain honfidence in presenting fem, cuz I haven't rly tried to do that at all even privately. it's just looking back ig this shame that i was really outside looking like that, plus ig probably also just, going back to manmoding feeling kinda shit by comparison still>>42184159there's exactly one mirror where i look ok and every other reflection i look like shit idk
