In honor of the new year and the fucking stupidity of me trooning out now at 24. Listing the things that my parents said to me mostly my loving mom, that I remember, that kept me repping for over decade >2012, 11 years old >Just got assaulted by my middle school art teacher >Sat me down and rubbed his hand all over my thighs and legs talking about something Mom said yah, it’s not good to lie about things. I’m sure it was nothing. Dad was just silent (In college freshman year he was arrested for CP. idk if my parents know what he was arrested for or that he was arrested) >2014, 13 years old >Taking private violin lessons >For our annual concert, a group was created to play the tango >The only guy in my group >Teacher decides it’s a great idea to dress up in theme >The rest of the group on the day of had beautiful colorful flowy dresses >I’m just in a white button down and black dress pantsMom said, if only you could wear dresses. She literally said that or what my 13 year old brain wants to remember. My dad said here take this red tie and wrap it around your waist like a belt. >2016 or 2017, either 15 or 16 don’t fully remember >Puberty was basically in full effect >Developed Gyno and was getting overweight and overeating This is fucking seared into my brain. I tell them about the gyno they try to not hold their laugh and say you want us to buy you a bra. And this was around the time I learned about being trans, and Fuck you Jazz (but not really this is roughly when I first learned about her), god she also kept me in the closet and actively repping. And this is when I developed an ED, grosses one too binging and purging
>>42188966>2022, 21 years old >Been actively growing my hair out for like 3 years >Telling people and my parents that I wanted to grow it out before I lose it all >Somewhat true but also a cope from the repping >Hair so long it’s by my nipples >Go out and buy a claw clip, knowing they are going to say some shit. >Two days pass with me wearing the claw clip and no comments >Third day comesMy mom comes into the kitchen while I am eating and asked are you trans?!? When and where do you get that claw clip. Cut my hair the next day. >2024, 23 years old >Overseas to see my grandmother >mom is watching some YouTube video on speaker and laughing her ass off >I get curious and ask who she is watching >Tells me it’s a famous Japanese trans woman comedian >Googles the comedian The comedian is Matsuko Deluxe. The stage name of a fucking cross dressing gay man. Hope that gave a good laugh, but probably what will give the biggest laugh is starting to transition now at 24. It’s actually fucking hilarious. I’m giving myself 2 years or when I’m kicked off my parents fucking amazing healthcare in roughly in 18 months. Still don’t know how to tell them but that is a future me problem. I desperately want to utilize their healthcare for HRT, blood tests, FFS, SRS and even voice training, but thankfully DIY for an entire year is like $120.
>>42188966Clocked the Asian before the part about the japanese comedian
>>42188966you sound like you fuck white guys
>>42188994Similar story here anon, VERY similar, not going to go into details, repped till late 20s and now realize i should probably rope because if what i want to look like is a concern to me, the housing market is going to make it far worse (i'd be homeless AND ugly)Gonna gamble on my odds though, 99% of detranners and age reppers quit before they pass for real in the next year no lieI'd bet on those odds
>>42188966This post made me feel bad, if there's any consolation at least you're starting now and there is a future for you
>>42189262Oxford study
>>42189240The private violin lessons right?
