This story has no resolution >be me, 'moder>at party with ~10 friends for new years>only one knows i'm a tranny, a couple think i'm just a fag >puts me in this awkward situation where i both can't engage with the guys using my cishet male socialisation and also can't engage with the girls as a fag since not all of them know and it would mean outing myself>spend the night in a mix between wallflower-ing and staring at myself in the mirror >girls start playing a drinking game, most of them end up getting pretty drunk >start doing stupid shit like driving drunk down the street and getting loud in general >wonder if, had i been a youngshit, out to everyone as a fag, or born a girl, would i be doing the same bullshit even if i knew it was dumb >consider an alternate universe where one of these is the case, and i'd be having probably the most fun in my life, even if it'd be at the cost of some dignity>lock myself in the bathroom for 10 minutes and stare in the mirror again and curse myself for being a stupid tranny instead of a human who gets to experience normal shit instead of through mental glassI'm nowhere near approaching being a person and living in absolute reality fmstl
they already think you're at least some level of faggot and you're scared to be a faggot in front of them?thats like the hardest part. once they know that much about you and theyre fine with you being around you won
>>42190931no i told some of them i'm a fag, the rest don't know and are homophobic
>>42190865Im so glad im 27 and never been to a party in my life You normoids are like bugs Im chillin at homiez eating tendies and playin rimworld
>>42190963Sis, your a mtf trans girl, and the homophobic dudes dont know?Run this by me again, i dont understand, do you have a buzz cut? Are you one of those pre-hrt bearded manmoders that post about "our struggle" on reddit?
>>42191006no i'm 4 months on hrt and still have short hair, i routinely get called a fag as a half joke
>>42191056Grow your hair out, and try to transition, dont be scared, dont fall for the manmoder memes you see here
