went to a new year's party with my friends, and genuinely had a really good timeI didn't really care much about how I looked and just tried to have fun>ffw to todaythey're all sharing photos of the night, and I can't help but cry seeing myself as I look like this ghoulish trannyI can feel them all looking at these photos and laughing at mehow do you ever grow the honfidence to be carefree? I want to be free and happythis seriously makes me consider never leaving the house again...
have you considered manmoding?
>>42193781yeah... I'm usually boymoding, but wanted to try look somewhat fem to this party but I guess that was a mistake :')I guess a life of manmoding is destined for me
>>42193817trying to look "somewhat fem" outside might be a mistake, you probably wanna figure out looking fem as much as possible before taking it outside (just in terms of your own comfort). manmode outside and practice fem in private/trusted people until you make some progress. you can also try to look like a gay male/enby outside in the meantime if you wanna paint your nails and stuff. just try to be intentional and calculated instead of randomly throwing some fem shit on one night
>>42193753In a way it's your own fault for not being true to yourself, and for not investing in yourself as much as you deserve.It sounds like you are trying to balance individuality with the need to fit in and that's okay but those are just your circumstances at the moment.Personally if friends took and shared photos of me that I didn't like I wouldn't consider them my friends? I would distance myself. Same goes with family. Friends would want to see the best in me and only portray me in a way that looks good and I would do the same. Maybe they don't know that you're femme is what you're saying?You need to invest more into yourself. Like from my pov it's that you aren't setting high enough standards for yourself. This kind of problem is because you aren't doing things like skin-care or hygiene properly, wearing makeup or the right clothes and you're neglecting your own responsibilities to yourself. You should take more control of your life, as you the main character.
>>42194360>you aren't doing things like skin-care or hygiene properly, wearing makeup or the right clothesNo retard, it's because she started HRT too late
>>42194365I'm not here to handhold a boymoder but that's kind of harsh. It doesn't have to be like that.OP is probably just an only-child or something or too afraid of attention/rejection to set higher goals in her transition still. This moment is probably the turning point where you aren't satisfied with how things are anymore and you have to change something.
why dont neverpassers just non binary cope and dress up gender neutrally?
