I doubt this will go over well but I used to be what some of you would call a chud and browsed /pol/ regularly for 12 (wasted) years. I was never a fascist or truly into biological determinism but I was definitely racist, homophobic, and transphobic.The things I believed in wrt trans people or gays seemed so reasonable. Of COURSE we can't let trannies use women's bathrooms, OF COURSE we can't let them indoctrinate children, OF COURSE it's funny when some giga hon is filmed waking awkwardly in public, they're all lunatics you know, gays are all pedos etc.YWNBAWhatever you get the ideaGod has a sense of humor and that humor is god's form of justice. I see now how I made the world a worse place and am filled with deep remorse and an empty sadness for what I have done. I guess the only saving grace is that even at my worst I still got angry when I heard stories of parents kicking their kids out for being trans.I don't know how it started really, I think it was irritation at the kinds of people who were active in niche subcultures at the time who exhibited sociopathic attitudes/behaviors that eventually led to me being radicalized by finding /pol/ and only seeing the /r9k/ face of transgender culture online. There was never any sadistic malice just a childish ignorance an inability to empathize and the self assured belief that I was being rational I've since renounced those beliefs and have many friends who are transgender but once i was able to empathize and understand the POV of the people I condemned the guilt made me want to vomit because I know now how i share culpability for the kinds of horror stories you hear about people being homeless or worse. I only ever was really a douche to people on 4chan but holding those kinds of beliefs is really taxing on the soul and i can't help but feel like in a metaphysical sense i made things worseI'm not asking for sympathy I just needed to say it
>>42194212tbf most people on here are more transphobic towards themselves than the people you'd meet on /pol/
>>42194212i forgive you, anon, even if you derailed my threads.i'm glad you had a change of heart. the ones who double down on everything are the main concern; awkward teenage edgelords will always muck about.
>>42194257no i mostly just spammed troonjaks against people posting trans/cuck porn and calling them a bunch of meth addled freaks with a humilation fetish. Never posted on this board, now I browse it semi reguarly. I didn't start out like this. I would see 2010 era troons and go "good for them" but something about the kind of cluster b behavior you would see from trans activists wrt doxxing, the constant purity spiraling, witnessing a famous internet troon get away with some pretty bad DV/Sexual Explotation made me feel hate in my heart and that hate led me to /pol/ where I let it simmer for a decade. I was really into blackpill shit too (which I have also renounced) so seeing the kinds of pink pilled weird hrt roleplay(extortion?) also colored my view of things. The feeling of powerlessness in the face of organized sociopathy that seemed to define empathy or rationality but existed only to aggrandize itself. It drove me mad and I became part of the far rightI'm so glad for the friends I have now. I don't really know how to explain it to anyone that wasn't an adult around 2012 but there were some really bad people in those circles and it drove me down a rabbithole until the pipeline saved me. It's no excuse I just want people to understand my thought processNow half of my freind circle is lgbt or openly supportive as is my workplace
>>42194212you're not a bad guy OP. don't worry about it too much and your beliefs dont matter tooooo too much, just try to be kind. that's the rule of thumb i try to use. I appreciate you recognising we're human though
