Are there any trannies who act like their pre-transition selves after taking HRT? Or does HRT just destroy your internal monologue and make you like every other female hivemind creature?
>>42197672When I'm like my pre-transition self I kinda hate it so it's still around
>>42197677Free him
yeah i can but i manmode and if takes a significant amount of effort to keep acting how i used to
>are there any adult women who act like their pre-pubescent selves
>>42197672pre transition i played videogames all day and argued with chuds on the internet, post transition i still play videogames all day and argue with chuds on the internettime is a flat circle
>>42197698>>42197699So you admit to being plugged into a hivemind
>>42197688I honestly wish I could but like, it's weird. It's like I transitioned from repper to femrepper.
>>42197721i wanna join the hivemind
>>42197721It feels like that sometimes
i'm not mtf kek
>>42197721>hivemindWhere do you think your associations and values came from? The aether?
>>42197728You're just making excuses for your hivemind behaviour>>42197729>>42197739How are you not horrified by your hiveminded existence>>42197752Shut up hivemind>>42197765I am a man, I have freewill and am capable of individual thought
>>42197778>How are you not horrified by your hiveminded existenceyou ever watched eva? i liked the idea of instrumentality connecting everyones soul and destroying ego
>>42197794Freak
>>42197778Maybe but it's weird. I would split into two people if I could.
>>42197801thats your AT field talking. if we truly understood each other we wouldnt hate each other
>>42197813I don't believe you, you don't let people go once attached>>42197835I would rather die myself than live in a hivemind
>>42197672yah i act pretty much the same, except im probably crueler now
>>42197873>I would rather die myself than live in a hivemindyou say this because your ego refuses to be vulnerable. you place to much importance in yourself
>>42197873I mean transition has been a very, very rough process. I don't want to let go of anyone but I don't think I can survive if I don't.
>>42197892>Hivemind makes your cruelerThis is well known, I know what you are.>>42197911None of your mind games will work on me, I grew up in household as the only male. I know all the tricks, I know how the hivemind's collectivism works.>>42197922Hivemind demon pretending to be an individual that cares about the discarded
>>42197948im just crueler because when you troon everyone is just meaner, especially online, i only really use 4chan to talk to peopleif i wasnt cruel id be a doormat
I act the exact same way I did before HRTHRT doesn't make you act girly, at most you could say I cry more often
>>42197948> I grew up in household as the only malehigher self importance, bigger ego> I know how the hivemind's collectivism works.im not talking about a cultural collectivist society retard im talking about ego death and soul fusion. clearly u are an ape that knows nothing of philosphy
>>42197948Sure, call me a demon. Frankly I still just feel like a guy who can occasionally be a woman. It's kinda sad. I've tried to let go of either but letting go of being a guy terrifies me and letting go of being a girl saddens me.
>>42197966Excuses. Every hivemind creature has them.>>42197975Liar or a rare mind capable of resisting for long periods of time.>>42197978Don't talk about philosophy to me, soulless hivemind creature. You only know enough to ensnare.
>>42197672I am 33 with a strongly developed male side and am 3 months manmoding on hrtMy fem side feels like a second personality that lives inside of me. She used to be very small, but over time she's become bigger and bigger, threatening to overtake my male side. We don't want that, we'd rather have some sort of equilibrium, but that's what seems to be happening.I wonder if this is how others have experienced it.
>>42197992you sound quite mad, loony even
>>42198006I've experienced this and when she was fully taking over I cried and ran, and then she retreated it somewhat. It's weird.
>>42197672It wasn't HRT, it was hanging out with people. People treat me differently so it's also hard to keep the old act up. Manmoding with family is easy but when even those who know I'm a tranny just don't view me the same anymore so...
>>42197992HRT isn't going to turn you into an uwu sissy woman lmao
>>42197992>hindmind creaturehow am in a hivemind? hiveminds are impossible retard> soulless >You only know enough to ensnare.no one is soulless that cant happen and you make me out to be evil when you know nothing of me>Don't talk about philosophy to meyou say this because you cant keep up with me
>>42197778>I have freewillumm if you had any curiosity about the world you live in whatsoever then you would have realized what an incoherent concept free will is by the time you are twelve years old. there probably isn't a concept in philosophy that's been more thoroughly debunked. deterministic, probabilistic, stochastic, there's not even a hypothetical mode of causation where free will could make any sense. if there is a belief most indicative of being an NPC, its this one
>>42198006I should add that my fem side was there the whole time and not a result of hrt like OP suggests. Starting hrt was a result of her asserting more control, not the reverse.>>42198020Can you explain it more?
>>42197672Trannies are NPC narcissist vain hylics. They don't have internal monologues or original thoughts. They just pretend to so they can fit in with people who have actual souls, but all they can do is torment others because soulless humans can't love.
>>42198192i agree, i have no thoughts in my head. i am at peace
>>42198165So, when I first fully saw myself as a woman. No ifs ands or buts, I got excited but then broke down and cried in sheer anxiety. Two months later, I was experiencing an ego death. My memories were being changed so that I was always a girl growing up. I was just a woman. I got scared. I cried. I was terrified. It's like my brain was being parasitized. Growing up I always had both a fear of being replaced by someone else. It manifested as I got older and became more masculine and saw my personality changing in ways I hated. But it's sharper now. Part of it is because I inextricably link transition to death due to some complicated personal history things.
