I just broke up with my girlfriend. They deserve a real, healthy woman and not a mentally ill troon like me. But I miss them already. Will you all help convince me that I made the right decision?
>>42200649yeah ur stupid. u hurt ur poor gfs feelings because you have self esteem issues
>>42200649well as someone that still misses my ex's months and years later you probably fucked up because of your self esteem
>>42200716I think they'll be fine in the long-term. I'm also planning on killing myself, so this is probably the lesser of two evils.>>42200731It's not just my self-esteem. It's the fact that I'm a mentally ill shell of a person who can never get better. I've tried so hard so many times but I'm always going to be a depressive self-harming manmoder with an eating disorder and intimacy issues.
>>42200649Read 1984
>>42200784Why would I do that? I can barely leave my bed right now.
>>42200801Distract the mind
>>42200649I went through something similar and people told me it was the wrong decision but then my ex proved I was right so I think you're good
>>42200817I used to like reading but it's never been a good distraction for me. My mind is too good at multitasking
>>42200842How did they prove you were right?
>>42200853Well you’re bed rotting so might as well read anyway not like you’re doing anything
>>42200649What ever decision you make is the right one.Even if the results aren't what you wanted.
>>42200863She started dating other people and told me they were indeed better than me
>>42200892I hope my ex has similar luck. Despite breaking things off with them, I want nothing but the best. I'm so sad right now it physically hurts. I hope they don't get too upset. And if they do, I hope they recover fast.
>>42200892you can't take this personally because in two years this will mean something completely different to you and she is just trying to survive and so are you so just bedrot until you can't anymore and go on with it. full moon on saturday
>>42200923They'll be okay eventually>>42201069I guess I don't know if she's still happy now, but I hope she is.4 years later it still means the same to me. She wasn't the first girl to tell me this, but at least she waited until we were broken up unlike other people I've dated. It happened in my first relationship too so it's hard not to take it personal at that point
>>42201166hoping someone else is happy is a waste of time. they say it's rude to light your own cigarette but you have to put your breathing apparatus on first before you can help others. you don't even know for sure what she means by better than you. maybe she wanted you to better yourself. no one wants to wallow forever. you run out of shit to wallow in
>>42201222Wasting time is my expertise. I'm also pretty sure what she meant by better. She told before that she would break up with me to date her coworker because he was hot (she called me disgusting a few times) if he would ask her. They started dating not even a week after we broke up. It was better because he lived closer, was hot, had a good job and he wasn't as mentally ill as me. Some more stuff too when I reconnected with her later.>no wants to wallow forever.You got that right but therapy turned out to be a meme so I'm just going to kill myself at some point
>>42201481what do you mean by therapy turned out to be a meme? therapy only works if you let it
>>42201498I mean as in I try to do what they tell me I have to do, but either I can't or I struggle a lot, and then when I ask for help they just tell me to try harder. They don't care about making you feel better, they just need to get you okay enough so you can go work. My last clinic didn't even do anything when I told them I was suicidal.
OP here, need help committing to the break-up. They're trying to tell me that I'm overreacting and that I need to allow myself to be happy but I'm not sure things are that simple. I have a lot of issues.
shes texting me right now and coming over later, gonna ruin her pussy 2nite lol
>>42201677Just have to stand strong on your convictions
>>42200784Shit book ngl. I hate George Orwell so fucking much.
>>42200649Holy shit I'm literally going through the same thing. I'm the highest level of mentally ill and it's carving out my brain and making me hollow and want to live alone in the woods and maybe kill myself if I get bored. I'm actually cooked and she deserves better than a negligent schizoid.You're probably just over reacting and projecting your internalized transphobia though OP. There's hope if you just let yourself love. If this is compulsive you probably have a personality disorder like avoidant or borderline, that or rocd. Get therapy either way.
>>42201987Also you probably need medication op. What diagnoses do you have if any?
>>42201857>>42201987Now that I've calmed down a bit (and talked to them some), I don't think I'm going through with it. Maybe I'm just a bad person, but I love them too much to cut them out of my life completely.>>42202028All I've been diagnosed with is Asperger's, but you wouldn't be able to tell. OCD and bipolar disorder run in my family a little bit though, and I have a history of self-harm, suicidal ideation, and eating disorders. I'm also extremely rejection sensitive if that helps any. I may be anxious too.
>>42201987>>42202099Wishing the best for you two
>>42201069>full moon on saturdayhell yeah brother, first blood moon of the year
