My soul is male. I aspire to be a successful man, with all the stereotypical qualities: stoical, unapproachable, strong, assertive, dominant.I don't value typical feminine traits like compassion, empathy. They are foreign to me. I think I might be narcissistic.However, I have terminal AGP, even since before puberty. I never craved sex with anyone as a guy. Instead I only ever wanted to be feminine, be seen as sexy, pretty and cute, be submissive. Sex would only be interesting from a submissive female perspective.Likely due to AGP, I developed dysphoria regarding body and facial hair, brow bone, skeletal structure, etc. I hate that I allowed it all to masculinize. I can't imagine letting this happen further.After years of repression, I began experiencing anxiety attacks about my masculinizing body and face. I started HRT 3 months ago at 21. I still have decent chances at passing, maybe even without FFS.Yet, every week, every injection, feels like another small defeat. Pushing me further away from the successful man I could've been, and towards living as malebrained faketrans. I don't want this to happen. I want to stop, and embrace the masculinization. But I can't. AGP and dysphoria won't let me.I don't want to desire being pretty and feminine. I want to singularily desire being useful and productive. As the man I truly am.How can I convince myself to stop HRT, despite enjoying it's effects?
>>42206074Just be yourself
>>42206074Exactly how I feel but I haven't started yet. Really fucking sucks It would be nice to be comforted and helped to feel better
>>42206074Idk surely there's some guides out there on how to stop agp
Real women? In my 4chan?
>>42206074Sounds like a question for reddit
>>42206122The question is: Who / what am I? A narcissistic male that can't allow himself to depend on other people for happyness (i.e. girlfriend), and therefore as to become his own girlfriend?Or someone with a deeply misaligned brain structure that won't ever be happy as a guy, and just repressed everything female since childhood due to social pressure. There is an argument to be made for both.>>42206140There are a few. But looking at the (reddit) profiles of the ppl that posted them, it's nearly always clear that they just temporarily deluded themselves into believing to have beaten AGP. As in it always comes back, and the suffering is permanent.
