/lesgen/ is the lesbian general for all cis women and trans women (MtF) to discuss lesbian relationships and topics.Be kind to each other and report/ignore trolls who attempt to divide trans mtf lesbians and cis lesbians as a community. This includes transphobic bigotry, femmephobia, butchphobia, racism, and anti-c4t/t4t slop. This is nice thread. :)QOTT>How do you handle conflict in your romantic relationships?>What causes are you passionate about? >How would you describe your fashion style? What is your favorite clothing piece you own?tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Flesgen%2Fdiscord: https://discord.gg/bAnVMAGPNRold thread: >>42193235
meow
i'm never going to have hope again
>relationshipsi am considering coping through nunmoding
>How do you handle conflict in your romantic relationships?I've only had discord relationships, and in them usually I get dumped for being too needy or insecure (could you tell im a tranny), which generally happens at the first chance conflict arises.I've asked girls out irl but only gotten rejected, presumably because my autism and obvious maleness are off-putting. The only reason I'm not a virgin is because I sucked a permarepper chaser's dick once when I was 16.>What causes are you passionate about?Communism. It is my life and my passion. It is beautiful.>How would you describe your fashion style? What is your favorite clothing piece you own?lazy. I can't afford to buy much clothing so only most days its just jeans and a sweater, and every once in a while when I get honfience and have shaved I'll wear a blouse or crop top or shorts Fav clothing item is my baby blue oversized dysphoria hoodie
Just heard the term "jizamurai"Really unfortunate they got that naem cause theyre pretty cool and not in fact jizz obsessed samurai
I hate being a transcel. I want to be hugged so badly! No one asks me out though2. I'm in the Zohran cult3. No fashion because I'm a boymoder and need to get through classes
>>42213262>How do you handle conflict in your romantic relationships?talk, either with her or to another party about it>What causes are you passionate about?i like skateboarding its fun>How would you describe your fashion style? What is your favorite clothing piece you own?try rotate between granny, slut, and sk8er girli think my fav piece is this beige mosaic pattern longskirt
anyone wanna talk in discord? add me?I'm a mtf 34 in NY
>>42215180How do you live in New York? Isnt it super expensive? How did you move there?Need to know cuz I want to live in a better place
>>42215180itneverfuckingends is my tag if you want to talk
>>42216533Not me
im gonna be going on a date with a cis girl in a couple of days and im not sure what to expect...she seems kinda normie-ish but she says she watches markiplier and indulges in anime sometimes, i dont know much else about her personality but thats why we are going on a date sooodo u gals have any tips? is there anything i should expect? i dont wanna fuck up my chances at someone actually loving me for once...t. bi mtf tourist
The way friend-havers love torturing non friend-havers by rubbing their lack of friends in their face is evil
>>42216577 praise her a lot for being cisgender and tell her that you want to be just like her
who up injecting they estrogen
wife
>>42216622Off topic
>>42216710eat my ass
>>42216622me 2 months hrt manmoder feeling very lesbian I'm so yearning for piv
https://unsee cc/album#IUf2mFTpp1kC>>42216622Omg thank you for reminding me
Venezuela is now ours girls and I'm getting arepas to celebrate
>>42217041all expenses paid cis latina nights for every MAGA transbian
agh my hairs so long and i want to get it cut short. im nervous! tips for a chop?
Cookin raw wit the brooklyn boy
>>42217048Damn sisters... We missed out by not registering republican...
>>42216577just be yourself, flirt and be awkward.remember that 4chan users dont have a monopoly on feeling lonely, weird, or being sociall/romantically/sexually inexperiencedhave a good time, and learn more about her and yourself
>>42213262>How do you handle conflict in your romantic relationships?I let them walk all over me while I sit there and quietly cry>What causes are you passionate about? well, I am pretty much a radical pacifist and also against harm and animal sacrifice in science iunno...>How would you describe your fashion style? What is your favorite clothing piece you own?like... cheap losing weight style ig iunno
>>42217488Republican isn't the same thing as MAGA. I'm a republican and I've never bought into the Trump cult.
>>42216960yw :3
>>42218329MAGA is just Republican with mask off. Look at the actual impact of Republican policy over the last 50 years, especially in states that have been controlled by them for a long time, not the rhetoric they say. Republicans haven't represented their voters and have lied out of the side of their mouths for decades and youre a willing fool if you think the people who consistently vote at the legislature to make life worse for their constituents are not in the same boat as MAGA.Side-note, most of the Democrat party is controlled opposition and the Democrat party as a whole is right wing, esp compared to other countries. The US's "left" representation is a token handful of reps that have no real sway because the "centrists" are more concerned with strategically losing to the right and enriching themselves and their rich buddies (FUCK Pelosi)t. Your local Progressive trannyAlso to get ahead of the usual things we see from "Progressives", yes I encourage everyone to vote at all levels and to actually research their candidates and political stances. Half the reason our country is getting assfucked by fascists is because 70% of the populace has abdicated their responsibility to be well informed.
>>42213262>How do you handle conflict in your romantic relationships?I do my best but they are difficult, I usually retreat to myself a lot while my girlfriend wants to talk out everything right away, so usually things just get a lot worse>How would you describe your fashion style? What is your favorite clothing piece you own?Been wearing more jirai recently since I fit in some of my pieces again. I really love my dml sailor set-up and should it wear it sometimes soon
>>42218746this anon FUCKS
>>42218746Go back to posting yuri, Seraph
>autistic lesgenfags are talking about politics again
Love seeing women who care about issues and actively work towards making positive change. It’s really inspiring and brings hope for the future.
>>42218826meow meow meow
>>42218746incredibly based omg
>>42217054Make sure to find a stylist that is good at short hair. Don’t go for the cheapest or risk looking chopped or like an old lady. See if they have an Instagram page with pictures or review images on yelp/google. It will feel weird but also, as corny as it sounds, freeing. lmao I got a pixie and it has done wonders for my self esteem. Lots more people tell me it looks good than I thought would. Easier to manage my hair. Does not get nearly as frizzy as it used to. I think people like it because it makes me look slightly tomboyish or like a tomboy in a dress when I go feminine.
>>42218746>>42218806Sorry could you repeat that? I couldn't hear.>>42217048Invade japan next pls, but like be really gentle about it. Maybe just invite their PM over for tea?
>>42220482I somehow forgot you exist and now I hate you for reminding
In one week I will be moving back home to have a relationship with my childhood best friend
>>42220717Rent free c:
>>42220779Creepy
>>42213262>How do you handle conflict in your romantic relationships?Poorly, I'm a BPDdemon, terrible at communicating both at understanding other people and careless with responding, I react very strongly to my emotions without thinking and pretty much always make things worse. If I jumped off a parking garage tonight my gf's life would be immeasurably better and so would pretty much everyone else's that knows me.>What causes are you passionate about? Idk world is shit just let it burn, people fucking suck.>How would you describe your fashion style? What is your favorite clothing piece you own?I call it, wearing the same t-shirts I've owned since high school until they get too many holes in them and I'm forced to go to the mall and buy a new one every few years. My favorite piece of clothing is one of my gf's t-shirts because it reminds me of her.
>>42220875>Rent free c:they literally forgot about you
i just know hanoi luz is screaming and punching himself right now over venezuela lmao
libertad carajo wigger
anyone wanna make bad art with me
I'm sorry, but I'm putting my foot down. A trans lesbian is not a lesbian because a trans lesbian is a man engaged in a roleplay. Isn't it very obvious?
I've got a kindle for christmas, after my gf got tired of me chickening out of buying one last second for the past couple yearsSince then I've read:>The girl she was interested in wasn't a girl at all>Handsome girl and sheltered girlCurrently reading>How do we relationship?Already read before>KitakawaAny other yuri recomendations? Any books, other than manga? I've been thinking about picking up Citrus
>>42221171I was about to go to the store to get some cookies and my gf was like can you get me something and I was like yah wat and she was like "give me those fuego hot nuts" and i just looked at her like, nigga.. and wd just broke out laughing coukdnt stop xp
Gonna give her the fuego hot nuts
>>42221143sure I'm bad at art but it's fun to make >>42221223Hanjuku Joshi, or anything else by Akiko Morishima
>>42220482if anyone invades japan in the foreseeable future it won't be you perfidious yankees
>>42221236Nice creative writing, man.
>>42220894How is that creepy
>>42221347I got them just waiting in a big line.. When she said hot nuts she actually meant the fuego popcorn thats why it was funny
>>42221477hot nutshehethats what my wiwe when wife calls me when she wen pours the kettle on my bois :3
>>42213570why honey!! what's stopping you from getting into one??
>>42214992>no fashion sensethere's an amazing fix for that
the next time i politely tell someone no and they keep pushing it i'm just gonna say "you would make an excellent rapist"
So my friend who i confessed and apologized to because i had indecent thoughts about, as i touched myself, kept getting more curious about what the i was actually fantasizing about when i did "it" so i told her. Maybe top 5 humiliating events for me.
>>42222590>maybe top 5 humiliating eventscant just say that and not drop what the fantasy was??
>>42222608.............>_>Sigh..Stepping on me, blowing me, and biting her. I hate myself sometimes
Maybe its just cause of my age but i really dont find asain women whovr had a ton of surgery to look like white pre teens very attractive.
>>42222636sounds hot to me ngl, dunno why she isnt into that
>>42220779How’d you two reconnect? Or never stopped being in touch?
do you people too want to date someone but also know that you don't deserve to date women because of the person you really are?
The amount of willpower i am summoning from the void is unthinkable. This harlot keeps calling me cute and saying she likes me, even though she has a partner. Its so excruciating because its taking every ounce of my willpower to resist the urge to break down and be pathetic and ask her for more pics and permission to touch myself to them. I know it makes me a bad person that it takes willpower for me to resist that. But then again iv never had this temptation. She calls me cute or says she likes me so many times its unreal and literally replies to all my threads and she is pretty. its pissing me off almost.. I am reaching a new level of stoic by resisting the urge to break down. I will not disrespect my friends. I will not disrespect my friends...
>>42222832Eyup. Im a nice enough person on the surface, but I know that the more someone gets to know about me, the worse things are going to get. Im not a good partner and a lot of it is a combination of involuntary factors, trauma responses, mental illness, and severe depression. Like, Im just broken. I make people who know me too closely broken as well. The smart ones keep me at arm's length or run fast once they realize theyre dealing with a devil.
>>42222912yeah it's similar with me and idk why some people irl decided to stick with me irl if it was just them knowing me for long enough that I became a part of background noise for me or if they just seen me as a thing that they can laugh at or if I was faking well enough but hey I'm bi so maybe I will find some abusive bottom of the barrel guy who will kill me instead
>>42223349Im fortunate to be well enough of mind to know my friends truly do value me. One of the things I struggle with is feeling like they will disappear one day - whether suddenly or silently drifting away. The end result is me being incredibly clingy to the point of being annoying. The problem being that Im quite aware of this behavior and alternate being clinging and pushing away (for fear of being percieved as clingy)Add in ye olde BPD mood swings/deep sense of emptiness/brokenness/shame (that feeling that they deserve better permeates my being) and you get a pretty noxious cocktail of fuckedtry.Ive gotten a lot better about not randomly burning things down, but I dont have a sense of being a "real person" worth actually valuing and if I were not-me I wouldnt put up with me, especially after the first time the mask came down.I have some amazing friends and I wish I could be better for them. :[
>>42223589I ghosted mine nearly a year ago and was distant to them for few months prior to that hoping to die soon after but luckily I don't really cared much about them even if I think about messaging them every so often just so I have a place to go that isn't my room but the shame always easily stop me from doing sowith how much I self sabotaged my whole life or haven't cared I honestly with I would go thru that plan instead of still being here and stil doing nothing
here's to hoping trump deports the veneco moids at my job
>>42222590sometimes i fantasise about my friend topping me with her dick and then i feel gross because like, what if she has strong bottom dysphoria and would never do that with anyone, it feels gross to fantasise about that if it might be the case
I already had a crush on my friend who's aromantic and now I have a crush on her sister who has a boyfriend....why don't I like girls who are available
>>42225618cuck
>>42222718She sent me a message in July and we've been talking every day since then. Before that we'd barely talked in 8 years
>>42213262>q1i dont know. the last time i was in one i used to alternate between love bombing & sending self harm pictures depending on what the problem was, that was several years ago and i like to think i wouldn't act that way anymore but i can't really tell>q2blowing up the american israeli rape empire>q3long flowy all black for the most part. i think my singular favourite piece is a winter coat i have that reaches below the knees & has toggle buttons and fur trim, i usually wear it with a black ushanka these days and i get complimented on at least one of those two things fairly often when i go out>>42222832i don't think i could ever really make someone happy in that capacity, or get that meaningfully close without fucking it up terribly somehow. as much as it pains me sometimes i'm more scared of having something good and ruining it than i am of just going without.i've never been "central" in any of the relationships (loosely speaking) that ive been in anyway, the other person always had someone closer & more important that i was kind of a distraction from & when i wasnt as needed anymore the space for me started to shrink and i got squeezed out. it hurts a lot when that happens, even thinking about it. but i doubt i'm good for anything else really. not as much is expected of me
cute
>>42222902That's a het anime
my gf keeps telling me it's gross not to flossi didn't even know anyone actually did it before i met her, i just thought it was something dentists liked annoying you about but no one actually did
>>42222644finally a normal woman here
>>42222644asians are naturally neotenous and submissive that's why they're goat and WMAF will replace the white race
>>42220482pedophile
>>42227694it's a myth, you don't need to clean between your teeth just like you don't need to clean under your foreskin or anywhere but your armpits and crotch if you're white
I am a better person now. I have upgraded myself. My pool of willpower is humongous compared to before. Women, harlots, have no effect on now. Flirt all you want, I care not. I am more stoic than an ancient greek bust. You can try to tempt me all you want, but I will merely jojo pose in the rays of sunlight as I contemplate existence.
>>42228557ew bitch wash your stinky feet>>42227694ew bitch get the rotting food out of your teeth
Can't believe dadcdusher got a cis Asian gf before caca
>>42218773You are unironically replying to Luz btwShe has a political science degree and is really smart, unlike Jordan
>>42228987x
posting only to download to my phone lol but also if anyone has book recs hit me
>>42229573Wow really good taste for this faggot thread. Really nice to see lots of actually cool books and not forcing yourself to read like sylvia plath or something.
>>42228891Just realizing this pic u post all the time, she has really bad ankle mobility. I bet whoever drew this isnt asain or is a fat asain
anyone here experience c4t
>>42230321why is this gen full of chinksthe artist who drew this isnt asian okay so? are you living in china right now amy?
>>42230563fucked ur mom last night etc. yawn
>>42230605Im jordam..
>>42230321I disagree. That version of the squat she is doing allows you to jump up quicker, its more mobile. Its actually easier for me to do heel to ground squats because they are a resting/lazy position. Where as the squat she is doing is essentially engaging the calves more.All im saying is that the squat she is doing is not a sign of bad mobility if anything she is demonstrating good balance. So even tho im not asian i prefer heel to ground resting squat positin. ..Get corrected.
>>42226098I do have a cuck fetish too yeah
>>42230721A lot of people squat on the balls of their feet due to bad mobility. The position is valid, but for 99% of people squatting that way it's because theyve sat in chairs their whole lives and have mega stiff hips and weak cores.In this case of this particular character (Medusa iirc? From Soul Eater. She's an antagonist) she is often depicted sitting that way specifically to make her look uncanny. She is generally drawn in a way that's intended to make her appear uncanny and unnerving despite being a blonde chick in a hoodie next to things like the grim reaper and the living embodiment of madness and such other more fantastic characters....I need to finish the Soul Eater manga.
>>42221223"Ayaka is in love with Hiroko" by Sal Jiang. Really cute story. If you want something darker try "Black and white" by the same mangaka."Destroy it all and love me in hell" by Kuwabara Tamotsu is great toxic Yuri too. Not finished yet though.
>>42230563yeah often
>>42230721I was being bias because I workout a few hours like 5 or 6 days a week and can do a full split but sitting in a deep heel squat is still really hard for me because of ankle strength/mobility
I love to fuck my cis gf in her ass and tell her how much better it is then her nasty bleed hole
Im an ankle beta.. im ligamentally cucked
>>42231079>picrelwtf is this a real person
>>42231079anklemogged by a superior racewhat would charlie think?
>>42230810This was very a autistic reply dont think i dont notice what youre doing i pick up on it. >>42231020>a few hours 5 days a week of workout>cant comfortably sit in a squat with heels to the groundThats insane.
>>42231530You think so? The allegations of autism keep coming, but Ive been assessed professionally twice and ruled out both times.Is it possible for your special interest for be socializing and meeting new people? I think it'd be wild to subvert a lot of the autistic diagnostic criteria by being such an extrovert that it's hard to pick up on.I think Im mostly just squirrel brained and have one brain cell to work with.
Double post because my brain is made of mashed potatoes today...>>42231020Okay /fit/izen nerd hat on. Work on your mobility! Seriously, there are good mobility exercises that you can find that don't take long. It's very worthwhile, especially as you get older and ESPECIALLY if you're working out.Active stretches before workouts. (Leg swings, arm rotations, etc)Static stretches after workouts (quad stretch, should stretches, world's greatest stretches, lotus stretch, etc)Mobility exercises every day
>>42230810no u dont nothing bad happens THE MANGA ISNT CANON
>>42231900THIS IS VERY TROUBLING TO READ.I hated how the anime ended tho. :[ Is it that bad? Does something happen to Crona? Tell me they didnt touch my baby!
>>42231831I stretch to try to fix it all the time. can easily get down into a full squat like that I just cant balance there very well. Its seriously messed up I can do a one arm pull up but cant hold a squat. Kms
>>42232375A lot of that is hip mobility. Tho if you have any injuries or deformities that could impact it. I have permanent numbness and muscle tightness in one leg due to a severe back injury and while I can squat like that, it's definitely more challenging.
>>42230295lol thanks. i have not been able to read much for my own enjoyment since high school but i picked books back up last summer (starting with Moby-Dick, which itself i think is literally the reason i am reading again) and this is most of what i've read since then. i would eventually like to read some of the more, uhhhh, pretentious? books, just to see what the fuss is about, but i'm mostly just reading stuff i've always wanted to right now.
Im not deformed, im regular
She really wants to play arc raiders with me...No problem! I am a stoic queen now.
>>42232365u reeeeally dont wanna finish the manga
it reeks of male incels in here
It reeks like soul in here
Tfw no gf who beats me up.....
dead ahh threadhave some horrors
>>42234379I wouldn't be a male incel if an asian cis chaser gave me a chance but no feminism has ruined Japan too ig
im a trap can someone mentor me into having not shit fashion sense?
>>42234928step 1: estrogen
>>42234928i will send nudes and ask for nothing in return but fashion/beauty advice. i do not care. i just wanna look betterdisc: nekozombie
>>42234954been there done that. pass in tomboymode. dated a cis oman and she sees me as a lesbo more than a dude
>>42234769i look like that
I hate it when people ask me to do stuff with them. Like, i wanna be the one to ask. Like i like doing things spontaneously.. i dont wanna have to think about an appointment in the week. Its just a chore. Im sorry. Buti DONT WAMNA PLAY ARC RAIDERS WITH YOU RN BECAUSE IM SAD OKEVEM THO I MADE 1000 THREADS ABOUT WANTING TO PALY ARC RAIDERS EOTH SOMEONE THE THOUFHT OF PALYING WOTH A BEAUTOFUL LADY WHO IS ALRWADY TAKEN SEEMS LIKE SUCH A DRAG LIKE EVEN IF I WASNT LOOKING FOR ANYONE I STILL KINDA DONT WANT TO LIKE UHHH YKNKW IIKE JUST CANT BE BOTHERED TO PUT MENTALVEFFORT INTO SOMEOME WHO IS TAKEN I GUESS IM JUST THAG SHALLOE OR SUMTGIN. I DUNNKO
>>42234988>dated a cis woman>still doesnt know how to dressidk u somehow failed step 2-5
>>42235087it was really brief edating and i fucked up by trying to get into a relationship BEFORE moving out of my bfs place (idiot idiot idiot). she wanted to dress me up all cute and share piercings but i fucked up so bad i wanna cry
>>42235158Would be hot if your twink trap uke hole got pegged, or even better fucked by a girthy transbian lovestick!!
>>42235216i wish i lived in omegaverse and was the omega
>>42235237Kekkkkkkkk
>>42235158oh dang im sorry
absolutely rancid & cringe here today
>>42235216>>42235237now kiss or something idk
>>42235375Stop it im stoic do not givd me impure thoughts
>>42235374cry about it lady
>>42235407>>42235216bruh u just said that
>>42235410Nah, I’ll just laugh at the pathetic state of the gen instead.
>>42235463I'M TRYING MY BEST ;~;
>>42235596Nah, you’re good. Not referring to you.
>>42235619oh okie :3
>>42221830dated an idiot for a while and that killed my hope for dating. i don’t know if i’m borderline asexual or something and pretty sure i’m some flavor of enby. feel like i am prone to falling too deeply for people and that scares me. this and a healthy dose of catholic guilt.
>>42234379that's just jordan
>>42236845and luz
life without my ex has zero real meaning
>>42231530is she supposed to be a cockroach?
praying to the east for big tits in my faces
>>42234928honestly idk what else you can do aside from experimenting then observing and repeating, just buy a ton of cheap clothes in different cuts and try out what works on you and what doesn't be it cuts or color combinationsjust try to be more indepth about it then x looks good or bad and try to understand what about it works so you won't miss on something potentially looking good just because it's wrong color then look up on what other people are wearing try it out and over time you will get it just make sure not to go out in the first few things you will try on because most of it will be clown clothing
I'm Stacysexual (attraction to hyper feminine Brazzers-maxxed Stacies)
I fucking hate you all so much
I don't wanna kiss someone else's neckAnd have to pretend it's yours instead
>>42236845Im on estrogen so Im either a woman now or youre all men also and i also sucked a big cock today so im not an incel either so there
Sometimes when I get into bed next to stacker she starts nuzzling and making suckling noises. Im pretty sure she spends so much time chuffing back my chode while awake shes dreaming about sucking me just from getting a whiff while asleep
>>42238294I google searched this image and found this deviant blog which seems just perfect for you c4t girlieshttps://www.deviantart.com/annabellegirlygirl/gallery
>>42235456The rules do not apply to me. I have the mandate of heaven.KNEEL BEFORE ME
>>42239300Genuine one of the worst things iv ever read why do you do this
Also chat i think i may be cooked. I ended up as the favorite person of a bpd trans lady, but this trans lady has a partner. This is unusual. I thought bpd people make their partners their favorite person?Maybe im just so exceptional, amazing, that even those who have partners DESIRE me. Well, tough luck fools.. i have the mandate of heaven. Your earthly bodies are of no interest to my enlightened form.
>>42235619ok yeah absolute slop idk how im gonna fix this one
just re-listened to the college dropout. 3 takeaways1. old kanye is fucking dead but at the same time i'm not so sure if old and new kanye were really ever that dissimilar to begin with2. i missed out on such a kino era why couldn't i have been born 10 years earlier why did i have to be a literal toddler when kanye came out3. i should have dropped out
as someone from that era, kanye has alway been garbage
>>42239959but... mayonnaise colored benz i push miracle whips...
garbage
whatever it's not just about the bars it's about the soulful beats that invoke such a strong sense of nostalgia even if you weren't actually there to begin with, the mostly good and varied features, the surprisingly funny skits, the fact that he was the first to make alternative hip hop mainstream, the constant reminder that this pivotal album would have never happened if kanye died in the accident, and of course the blunt and clever punchlines that always catch you off guard
>>42240017kanye doesn't care about black people
>The blunt and clever punchlines that always catch you off guardBro thinks he works at pitchfork
>>42240157i would have if i was born 10 years earlier
>>42240238Wouldnt you be on an island somewhere if your mom had you 10 years earlier you little turd?
>>42239931damn that clanker can get it
>>42238294This picture does nothing for me, am i just a gay femboy after all? Wtf... 7 years hrt just to find this out..
Just realized how much young vegan gains looks like lucy if she lifted and took some tren
>>42242761grim
tfw my transdar goes off in publicnonas she was literally so cute wahhhh i gave her a small smile and idk if she saw it but i think we both knew......
>>42242761This guy was peak cringe back in the day. The fact his wife looked like a dude was the cherry on top. Like why do some women look like that???? Its genuinely revolting. Only other gym youtuber that surpassed him in cringe was blahaIm not a raycist
im silly:3
I wish all cis asian women a very happy monday.
>>42220251 second this hardmy stylist costs a fortune but she gets me right every timethose generic salons that cost like $60 a cut will give you a shitty bob no matter what you ask fori reccomend finding a local alternative stylist on instagrammaybe try a mini shag :)got one last time i went and i love it
>>42244201What about your fellow sissies?
Sorry, that one has a tiny little sissy pecker in it didnt notice.. Here you are my fellow c4t queens
>>42244806god hates fags
>>42244932Thankfully god doesnt exist
Okay this is the channel that someone unironically recd itt the other day saying how its everyones due diligence to know about all the latest politics and be a feminist or whatever. This is just one beautiful moment from the video of the beautiful lady on the right talking about her dl grindr hookups.
I'm so glad I got a cis gf that hates transbians just as much as I do.I swear these threads are living arguments for trans medicalism and strict gatekeeping.
>I'm Stacysexual (attraction to hyper feminine Brazzers-maxxed Stacies)
>>42245020Stacysexual hands wrote this post
lmao What is this mentally ill sissy-poster crashing out about? This board is genuinely so cooked.
>>42245663seems it
Besides gaydenism/butch4butch or prison bi or femboy4femboy stuff, what's the main alternative or type of les who is explicitly not Stacey sexual?
>>42245716Oh also feels insulting to your gf if you do not identify as such
>>42245716Most lesbians are into normal women. You should try going outside sometime.
>>42238294how common is it for cisbians to have a high heel fetish?
>>42245716i love my wuife :3c
>>42245769Are you saying the woman in that photo, I.e. normal LA woman in 20s in industry isn;t a normal woman?What is your definition of a "normal woman"? Where do you imagine her to be from? Wealth level, race, etc.?
>>42245769Lesbianism is pretty abnormal by definition and butches arent exactly standard issue
>>42245821Just average women. You don’t have to be daft. The average woman in LA isn’t a wannabe actress. You could not have picked a worse example.
>>42245844That doesn’t detract from what I said at all.
I’m not surprised the namefag is acting as if cis women are alien creatures that only exist in the bizarre variations that exist in her head. She’s done it before and others have told how her fucking weird she was for that not too long ago. Idk why people who are actively hostile towards us even post here. Are you all coming from cringe boymoder memes on Twitter? Plz make transbiangen where you can go talk about how cis women are le hard to understand and a monolith.
tfw no looser gf to be a looser with
>>42245945>how cis women are le hard to understand and a monolith?Lots of cis women are staceys and/or into them. It's not exactly a rare preference among cis les. And it's not bad that they are.Regardless, "normal" is way too broad a category. While "bimbo stacey" is an archetype not to everyones taste, everyone has a type they're into. It's not just "normal" or "woman" which feels more like a cope fakebians would do.
>>42213262i want a fat tranny gf :(
>>42245945>Twitter boymoder i cant even tell if lago posted this or if its bait
I completely understand cis women I just dont care for them generally. Certainly olive doesnt fall into the category of a "normal woman" even if you ignore the penis.
>>42245945shut up becky
I’ve never really made close friends with a cis girl but that’s mostly because I’ve met all of my adult friends through 4chan. I’ve had like work friends and school friends but none of them ever stuck, but I was pretty weird at the time so I don’t blame them
>>42247107It sucks, there’s a lot of cool cis women in my hobby but I’m way too terrified to ever make conversation with anybody and pretty much always keep to my trusted people
I only bang LA 10s
>>42247192Not neotenous looking enough.
>>42247192same vibe
ok lesgen it happened my boyfriend and i broke up now how do i get over ithe was my entire life - all of it - for five years. he still haunts my every thought and everywhere i turn is a memory and a reminder of how much of an evil fuckup i am. i have photo albums and stuffed animals and jewelry and artwork and candy packages and stickers and tchotchkes and email receipts and a ridiculously long document full of all the silly things he's said and called me and a jointly invented parodical "extended cinematic universe" of characters with puns for names and probably a million other things i'm not even thinking about right now HOW do you get over that how am i supposed to move on with my life when he WAS my life i am so pathetic holy fuck>>42246067here's an uncropped version also pic related
>>42247580autistic people like you have no feelings, you're just pantomiming guilt so you can convice yourself you're normal and good. That's what you people do, you're just cumbersome in every single observable metric about life other than productivity
>>42247580Get a lesbian hookup off of Lex TONIGHT
>>42247580For me personally? Just drank alot and got into alot of pussy/ short term relationships before I settled down again. Pretty chill, ended up way better off.
I wish I could kiss her...
>>42247657these feelings seem real to me i am crying and want to kill myself>>42247682unfortunately i am hideous and i am terrified of the idea of being touched by a woman before i get srs besides>>42247701i will not be doing either of these things but this helps me believe it gets better i guess thank you
>>42247580I dont think I have any good advice for this other than timesome resentment goes a long way too
>>42247793i feel no resentment and never will. i still love him and probably will forever, honestly. but i do hope time will heal me. i am trying to have faith that each day will be better.
>>42247832cant say itll be easy, really the only thing that helped me was forgetting abt my ex and meeting someone newalso helped that we didnt have a great relationship
is it bad to rly rly like jewish trans girls....
>>42248099Yes they support genocide
>>42247786GET. PUSSY. NOW.>>42248099I feel really bad for my gf because I absolutely love her and she knows I do but she also knows my type is Jewish girls.Something about a big nose and curly black hair on a girl just drives me wild, and they almost always have some adorable glasses too it’s the best
I want to kiss my friend... the thought is consuming my thoughts more and more.
>>42248806ask her if she wants a kiss
Speaking of Jewish women,,, I used to have a huge crush on Regina Spector and listened to her music a lot but she is a Zionist. DISAPPOINTING
1/2 avoidant women…>>42248806Go for it. You’ll know when the moment is right. :)
>>422488512/2
>>42248824She doesnt. I know this already.>>42248851I cannot. There will be no right moment.
What does it mean to be Stacysexual?
can someone chadsexual be a lesbian? like is she into chad women?
I caught stacker trying to masturbate without permission, so I took her phone away and spanked her. She kicked and screamed and cried.
>>42248895Sorry, nona.
>>42247580eat pussy
>>42247580wtf is lesbian about this? is he a repper?
>>42250047This place has always been a bislutgen or a mtfg.so its pretty normal
She sent me a recording of herself singing (i havent listened to it yet because it could have subliminal memetic messages aimed at brainwashing me into her slave(hot af tbqh but i must resist the temptation))Yesterday she literally did the stereotypical "if thereee is *anything* i can do for you, please tell me">"i hope there is something i can offer you someday"These are the words btw of a very pretty trans lady whooo HAS a partner.If she is flirting like this she MUST be a harlot...
>>42250422Grim.
>>42250652Oh its this artist
>>42248696>>42249476maybe someday but i cannot approach a woman let alone solicit sex. maybe once i have had surgery but even then someone is probably going to have to want me first and i don't even know how to meet people>>42250047we broke up because i am a lesbian. i tried to ignore it for a really long time but in the last half-year it's been putting strain on our relationship and neither of us wanted to leave but i bit the bullet the other day and he agreed that it was best.this post had a prelude of sorts a few weeks ago to which the response was pretty much "break up or get out of here" so now we have broken up and i am back here, is all.i just don't know what to do now because he was my first real relationship and i don't even know if i can feel that way about another person after him lol. he's my best friend.
despite my fear and emotional pain i am really excited about the idea of being with a woman, though...i'm getting butterflies for the first time in my life since really admitting this to myself and i'm understanding what it means to truly be attracted to someone, and not simply think they are attractive
>>42251350How'd you get into the relationship?I understand not wanting to date because not being attracted to them is ruining things tho
What would you do if you walked into GameStop and this guy slapped your girlfriend's ass?
>>42251580
>>42251572we've been friends since elementary school and i am an idiot who did not understand what love or crushes were; i thought i was in love with him by the end of high school, told him that, got rejected (lol), then he came back shortly and said he was just scared and that he loved me too.after i did seriously, obsessively fall in love with him as a result of our being physically intimate and sharing every thought with each other, i realized i did not know what love was at all prior to that.he is a really cute guy, it's just the problem is that he's a guy. i almost regret fully admitting this to myself because i was content with just thinking i was asexual for pretty much our whole relationship until this past summer. bleh.
>>42250641Okay, that's kinda peak. Like. Wow. Minus the "has a partner bit". That sux. But falling for someone through the sound of their song. Hhhhhhh damn how perfect. BUTYeaIf she has a partner I really wouldnt overthink it. Or set boundaries early.
>>42251694You are repling to me rn. R u sure lago will be okay wid dis....
Cant believe my gym crush is turning into a poly hon rn
>>42251708I didnt realize it was you. ^^' But fwiw I would have replied to the content of that post no matter what for entirely personal reasons.
>>42251628And why do you think you are into women?This sounds like typical androphilic stuff in contrast to like crushing on/being obsessed with girls which is what happens for les or straight guys in highschool.Sexuality switch due to hrt? Or?Like Idk some laterbloomerles stuff can come across to me as not dealing with relationships well or not thinking of broader consequences (I.e. dating women is hard, may be single rather than in a relationship). Then again I also think sexuality switching and the like are real and think that explains at least some latebloomerles cases. Also it sounds like you're still relatively young so you probably are more likely to be fine and have a nicer les relationship/life than most other laterbloomerles
>>42251856Oh but if it is sexuality switching then it's always possible to switch back. Or more likely bi-cycling
Its 100% just that people get bored of what they can have and after a few years plus of cock or pussy they start thinking the grass is gonna be greener
>>42251850That is like a declaration of war to her. Be ready for her arrival!
just had a dream where i was schizophrenic and recorded a 13 track album that would unlock an evil second personality if i ever sang a song from it and it would make me scream in pain and convulse violently but i needed to get through all 13 tracks to exorcise the split personality from my body for good what the fuck does this mean
>>42251856well i've always been into women, it's more that i am learning i am not into men, i guess. i lost my virginity to a girl and felt so much disgust and self-hatred for it that i decided i didn't want to ever pursue or experience that again, and i thought it would be fine if i just stuck to men.i did try to repress my attraction to women because of this, though, and it was a combination of this repression and my conviction that i must be attracted to men (because i always thought i was bisexual) that kept me in the dark for so long, i guess.it was also a lot of little things, and especially in this past month or two realizing that i actually do have a sexuality and sexual feelings and wants but only if i imagine myself with a woman, which really wasn't very fun; see >>42251383. i thought about how passive i was with my boyfriend and how i never initiated anything sexual and how i should probably feel the same way about him as i do about a woman and it made me really sad. it was not fair to him for me to feel this way but it also didn't feel fair to leave, not that i even wanted to in the first place :( but it's done now, i guess, so there is nowhere to go but forward
>>42252662hmm this is definitely a stronger argument. Not trying to pick you apart to much/trying to help you understand the situation better I guess as well as myself.>well i've always been into womenExamples?>i lost my virginity to a girl and felt so much disgust and self-hatredstrong evidence for being into women, what age? Also this story + you knowing your bf so long lead me to conclude you are semi normie and so prob won't have too hard of a time out there However, the disgust aspect is interesting, is it just bottom dysphoria/regular dysphoria or more to it? > i thought about how passive i was with my boyfriend and how i never initiated anything sexual and how i should probably feel the same way about him as i do about a woman and it made me really sad. it was not fair to him for me to feel this way but it also didn't feel fair to leave, not that i even wanted to in the first place :( Here's where I disagree a bit or etc red flags kind of.Not initiating and being the target of desire is normal. Even in lesbian relationships this is a role and called being a "pillow princess". If you have meta attraction and are into him liking you that's normal female sexuality to a large extent.Now you do also have allo gynephilia and that's big as well and worth pursuing imo, but I wouldn't say the description of what happened with your bf sounds like a total lack of attraction, just a different type.
>>42251350It sounds like you’re bi since you genuinely loved him and found him attractive before. Like anon said, you’re likely bi-cycling and will find yourself attracted to men again at some point. Regardless, you made the right decision since it doesn’t sound like you two were compatible and you definitely weren’t happy being together anymore.
>>42251589My daily breakfast.
Bicycle
>>42245945I'm a cis woman. I'm an alien creature. We exist.
Hi girlies, I want to start transitioning (hopefully this year whit DIY stuff, but at the same time i kinda want to get buff like the brunette in the image, but Im like 185 cm (6'0foot) and I'm 65kg (143lbs).My question is what exercises I do to get some muscles all over my body, kinda want to go to the gym but I can show them an anime girl to be working out goal xd
>>42253452I have no idea as I don't know anything about working out but do you want to be my girlfriend
>>42252114If Lago has a problem, she can DM me about it. Im an adult. \*shrug\*>>42253452If you want to build muscle, focus on compound exercises with low reps and increasing weight while eating a calorie surplus and plenty of protein. Squats, bench, dead lift, shoulder press, etc etc. There's plenty of good info online. Focus on form. FOCUS ON FORM. You do NOT want to go to snap city.
My side hoe’s apple butter is delicious on toast. Boutta upgrade her to side wife.
>>42253479She’s just instigating. Idk why you give in to it. But I’ve already said my piece before.
>>42253492only food my side hoe has given has been an apple
>>42253474 Hi cutie :3I hope you are OK whit me being poly (Ethical Non-Monogamy) and in the Eu x'3If yes we can chat on discord server I kinda just joined >>42253479Is there someone that talk about those exercise or has a compilation about it that you would recommend?Also for the food stuff cuz idk where to start ;~;
>>42253515Wow, tell her she’s slacking. Jk, but if you want more with her, I suggest cooking together. Always prompts cute moments ime.
>>42252996>Examples?i thought about the female body sexually when i was younger lol idk..and now that i think about it i did have crushes on some of my female classmates throughout school. but in the same way i had a crush on my now-ex-boyfriend: it wasn't about anything sexual it was more just that i really really liked them.>what age?eighteen>dysphoriait is complicated. i was feeling really gross about myself and venting about feeling unwantable and the girl to whom i lost myself virginity said "i would" or something of that nature and i was already like in the absolute Tartarus of dysphoria so obviously i agreed and then we did and i was so embarrassed and ashamed and i couldn't do what she wanted me to do and nobody even orgasmed and the next day the guilt set in and i couldn't handle it. it took me like four years to get over it and i still think about it sometimes.>meta-attractiondefinitely not lol. i liked the emotional aspect of having sex with my best friend but i was never turned on by the idea of being an object of desire, nor did i care very much for actually Doing the sex. i wanted to make him happy and that made me happy, even if i didn't enjoy it.>allogynephiliawhat is this? i tried to look it up and i am only getting results for autogynephilia. i would dig deeper but i am at work and it has taken me long enough to compose this post sorry>>42253153so what i am just doomed to forever-unhappiness? i don't want this to be true. i want to be with someone forever i don't want to go back and forth
I have to regrettably inform yall.... the pretty bpd lady unadded me because i didnt listen to her singing and also because i mentioned im emotionally avoidant. In sad, very sad. The day is darker. But the saddest part is somewhere i feel.... relief..... all the future work and emotional investment, bam just evaporated. In some way, i have won in the truest sense of the world.The only way to win in the game of love is by... not playing!
>>42253452Literally just do calisthenics. It's probably the most fun way to achieve such a body. Also, set small goals you can reasonably achieve and some larger goals you will be able to achieve through the smaller goals
>>42253563No, you just have to accept your preference may shift. But it sounds like you have likely preferred women always.
>>42253582Do you recommended any yt videos to beginners guide?
>>42253652you should put more effort into getting on hrt first ngl
>>42253529well I'm poly and in the eu too... I kinda just blindly looked at your height sorry I'm a fetishistic freak. you also need to get on hrt immediately
why do trannies who haven’t even started hrt yet jump into lesbian spaces as soon as they claim to be trans
>>42253660>>42253671I know but Im trying to move to a uni in an another country and then start transitioning now, just need to get accepted and find a job there (it's a very safe country)Also I kinda wanto start used to doing exercise cuz I know I'll end up doing noting when getting fatter x'3>>42253671Its ok to have fetish like that dw ^^, also wanna chat on discord? :3
>>42253714sure... give me your discord
>>42253573Update, she readded me.... i guess im not outta the woods yet eh.... *smokes cigar* well well well... the god of love has a bone to pick with me it seems It is fruitless however, i am too stoic to be moved..
>>42253691Not everyone can start it easily, also this is the 4th year that I'm feeling this way and I chose finnaly to start it (better late that never) >>42253748@yuri_bot_to_the_top
>>42253830that’s not what I asked, I asked why they go to lesbian places
>>42253691ppl in western societies in general enjoy thinking in terms of fixed structures, that there are certain immutable essences independent of everything elsein a similar way that it allows someone to exist as 'gay' or 'straight' without being involved in 'gay' or 'straight' activities, it allows them to think someone can 'be a woman' without 'living as a woman' or 'have lived as a woman'
>>42253920Can you reply to my posts regarding my bpd love affair with a harlot.... i know i was mean to you a few days ago.. or weeks ago.. but here is the thing.. im important. And i need attention. Thank you! ^_^
>>42253955I dont want to reply cause Im jealous. I wanted to be the person to make you fall in love with me despite being in a relationship and use you to day dream about a life that will neverbe when Im bored or have low self esteem.
>>42253999That is so.....accurate... and most likely exactly what is happening.. she has really lucked out on me because i would be there for her and even carry her shopping bags when she is complaining about her partner ^_^ And naturally id also give her footrubs and theyd be the highlight of my sad life v_v...
This is what that pre hrt anon looks like. Its completely mind boggling the trannies that are 6ft hulks, why would they transition? Its even weirder the majority of them are late transitioners like 24+ atleast. What in the Hay! Is up with these big hons?
>>42253691the fact lesbian spaces are full of amabs regardless of their time on hrt serves as an invitation to all
Being a 6ft dude in your 20s and deciding to get on estrogen AND get yoked. What makes someone do that? Besides fetish stuff obv..
>>42254073yeah, if you're 5'3 average female height idek why you would start I hope all the male height hons that're 5'5 and above are just trolling and pre hrt so they can eventually snap out of it before doing any ridiculous body changes
>>42253955I mean iunno if u were mean, were u???>>42239456>>42253573>>42253801well, I think a lot of ppl are usually selfish, and it colors their views of otherslike how someone might seem boring to u now, but somebody else is telling that exact same person that they're the most intelligent, witty, funny, beautiful, and so on and so onthe thing is when that one person stops wanting something from the other person it all evaporates, even if it's just wanting attention it's still transactional igso the real winning move is not to be stoic but to make urself unassuming, that way they will target someone elseplaying along isn't necessarily bad either as long as u don't get lost in it
>>42254126Hmmm hmmmm very wise! I guess i wasnt mean ur right. Im confused by your emote tho... what emotion is that anime girl conveying??
>>42253501Ive said it before, I cant really tell nonas apart, especially in a single sentence post. ^^'And, I dunno, I'm easily baited.>>42253529When I got into fitness way back in the 2010s, /fit/'s sticky was an amazing resource. I dont know if it's still up or if it's changed since then.Food is easy. Focus on nutrient dense, filling foods. A few key points that have helped a lot of people:1. If you drink soda, stop it now. That shit is so bad for you. Ideally go full water, but at the very least quit soda.2. Quit fast food. Same as above. Plus it's gotten so expensive recently.Other than that, yea... Fiber, protein, nutrient dense. Dont eat junk food. We all know what junk is.Im too tired rn to give a full spiel.>>42254073Nothing wrong with a lady wanting to be strong. I very much enjoy being able to pick my friends up, and they seem to enjoy it too most of the time.My strength has been waning and Ive been getting squishier, but Ill revel in it while it lasts!>average cisf height is 5'5">this means a not insignificant number of women are over that>mfw a lot of cis women are heighthons, tooMy Mom was pushing 6'. Total honnery.
>>42254038woah olive looks like THAT??
>>42254073Here's the answer + I want to get healthy (also it's me that asked for the exercises and stuff)
>>42254200Thank you girly <3 I'll try to ask stuff also in /fit/Sending you a lot of platonic kisses *mhwa mhwa*
>>42254168the anticipation of my feelings on discussing the topic of love and courtship, 'love bombing' etc nglat one point a few years ago if someone flirted or was trying to get close to me I would feel extremely nauseous, so thinking back on it since ur story reminded me of similar issues it felt fitting iunno>>42254200hi sera happy ny
>>42254231So youre thinking about how good youll be able to (wo)man handle cis women and what a good cum in their pussies youll have once you finally grow some tits and muscle?Very very cool
>>42254282Happy New Years! :D>>42254259Mwah!Just be mindful, /fit/ culture can be... uh... speshul, haha.
>>42254337it's always been a dream to handle ppl like that so I'll star working on it cuz I want to start working on my life for once and be better for myself and others x3
>>42254337Yaknow the thing that gets me with this weird focus on c4t you do? Like, I cant get an erection or ejaculate. A lot of trans women can't. That's, like, one of the things HRT tends to do to you.Check your levels, sis?ButGodsIm not usually one to judge but your takes are very, uh, mannish. Like, this just sounds like the kind of shit horny chaser moids say on porn comments. It doesnt feel remotely sapphic.
>>42254406I'll try to say that I'm a newbie and want to get fit and stuff, they love helping new ppl and newbies I had a few fit friends that are like thatOr you mean in other ways?
you would think that lesgen would be more creative about sex than just talking about piv but no
>>42254468we arewe jusst dont share that information with creeps like u ^.^
>>42254483I swear I'm not a creep! tell me a sex secret!
>>42254456Other ways, lol. The words "autistic and obsessive about working out" springs to mind. They have their own little subculture, memes and all. You'll see what I mean.But they generally liked to help when I hung out there, as long as you read the sticky first.>>42254468Honestly it's just kinda one person far as I can tell.Frankly tho Im a horny mf (there's a reason Im a mom twice over and its not because I planned it), talking about sex always feels awkward and dirty to me so I dont bring it up much in public.
>>42254282She isnt love bombing me...
>>42254554well you wanna become a mom thrice?
>>42254538ur mum tops
>>42254555I would love bomb you..
>>42253563>allogynephilia>what is this?It means attraction to women in a top/non meta attracted way/visual way basically. Not auto, not meta => allo. Anyways I'm still unsure with you as never attracted to other women younger. Do you goon or anything?Also it sounds kind of depressing how you lost your virginity and not what I pictured. Likely you weren't even into that girl. Are you sure you are attracted to women these days in either an allo or meta way? Examples? Are you sure you aren't Ace or the like?
>>42254442>the kind of shit horny chaser moids say on porn commentsIts meant to display how I see someone, especially pre hrt, fantasizing about trooning out getting big muscles and putting their hard penis (now female) in vaginas.
>>42254578Absolutely the fuck not, lol. My kids are enough. I dont handle Mom life very well and am pretty much permanently tired/frazzled.
>>42254660Awwwww thanks >_< but ur not like her. I only care about pretty women, especially with BOOBIES! ^_^
>>42254809You said I was pretty b4 ;_;
>>42254886I was probably just being kind xD
>>42254925Sounds out of character for you
>>42253515if a girl gave me an apple i would follow her around and be really in love with her i think
>>42254800I could have made you pregnant...
>>42254962It really isnt...... tho i get it. Im always sp upfront. But iv never told a trans person they were ugly. Im just too nice for that believe it or not
>>42255001Im not gonns go look but youve definitely gone out of your way to compliment me and have flirted with me in the past..Not that it matters or anything
>>42255127Sureeeeeee *head pats you*
LAGGGOOOOOOO *SNAP* *SNAP* MAKE THE NEW THREAD IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!!!!! LAHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGOOOOPOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN MAKE THE NEW THREAD *keeps snapping my fingers right in her face*
>>42254974I was a bit confused about the apple, she had made us coffee and we were drinking it and she wasn't eating any breakfast but was like "you aren't eating anything?" and gave me the apple
>>42254212Nah, she looks like this. :)
>>42255703>>42254212kek I’m disabled
>>42255718That granny shirts fucked up sis
>>42256058Are you talking about the under shirt or the cottagecore flannel? I really like her flannel. People just dress like that in the Midwest and Canada.
>>42253427Post butthole to prove it
>>42255718why does someone as horrible as olive get hips like that
>>42255718Damn she is actually thick ngl!But also id never post pics of my gf online that just seems weird to me
>>42256116She got them by eating Latina pussy.
>>42256135big if true
>>42254978Cuzzo, that is not something I am capable of anyways. XD
new thread for pussy eaters >>42256010
>>42254685well i do not think i am really interested in topping women either so maybe i still don't get it...i guess if i were less abjectly dysphoric maybe i could and maybe that is something i just need to get over. but the thought feels so wrong.>do you goonlol no. i do masturbate sometimes; recently i have been listening to some GWASapphic audios bc i just found out those existed and while i like them more than i should they make me feel depraved because they are extremely specific and probably not healthy. usually i don't masturbate to anything in particular and i have been trying for a while to enjoy it more. the audios have helped because i can imagine (ineffectually) that i have a vagina, sort of.>Likely you weren't even into that girl.i wasn't not into her. she was pretty and nice to me and we were friends but i think the problem was how perfunctory and emotionless it seemed when i had the time to digest and reflect upon it. i felt for a long time like i had somehow conned and manipulated her into having sex with me>Are you sureyes; obviously it is all imagined or supposed, though. the idea of spending my life with a woman is extremely attractive, as is sex, in the idealized world of my mind, anyways, in which time has passed and i have a vagina. but it gives me butterflies, all of it, which as i said i have never felt before, i suppose because i wasn't really thinking that deeply about it as a high-schooler too depressed to even function. i thought i was ace throughout my relationship but again that was a confluence of several different things