>be me>mentally unstable tranny, was sexually abused by multiple people including my own brother when I was a child>recently have bizarre string of unexplainable dreams, no incest ones thus far>one night, dream of having to get ready for something with my brother>were talking about something when the topic of sex comes up and I mention that I’ve been super sexually inactive>brother says he can’t imagine it>starts getting really handsy with me and says he’d be willing to help out>push him away and angrily tell him I have no interest>think about it for 0.00000001 zeptoseconds>my depravity wins out and I agree to a blowjob>he’s big, too wide for my mouth and so long it measures from the tip of my middle finger all the way to the base of my wrist>take it all the way down to my throat while giving him the most attentive blowjob of my life>he says he loves it when I get cockdrunk like that>can hear my parents approaching>I wake up>it hurts to swallowWhat the fuck was that? I don’t even like my brother. He’s ugly and I haven’t spoken to him in months. And why am I sick now? Is God punishing me for my hubris?
uhhh does he live in the same house as you?if your mouth hurt after I’d be concerned lol
>>42226127No he does not, lmfao.
>>42225986ima and kako oml nice pic nona
>>42225986ur brain is starting to internalize that trauma as a way to cope. the reason ur mouth hurt after was probably because the dream was so vivid that ur brain couldnt tell the difference between what was real and what was in ur head.i have dreams like this too. i have dreams where i fuck people who i know arent interested in me and have got upset at me for treating them weirdly. its simply a reflection of repressed thoughts and not ur fault.the only thing u can do is repress it more, or attempt to come to terms with it in some way
>>42225986Need to finish this game
>>42226660Thank you! I love them dearly. >>42226694It didn’t even traumatise me that badly though it’s just another thing that happened. Don’t most troons get raped as kids anyway?>>42226821You do it’s peak
>>42226839>It didn’t even traumatise me that badly though it’s just another thing that happened.considering u mentioned "multiple people" u probably became desensitized to it, ur brain has cut out parts of it to make it seem less bad than it was and/or it turned into c-ptsd. im not a trained psychologist and im only speaking on personal experience + what i learned from taking psychology in high school, so im probably wrong. either way i'd still argue its ur brains way of coping/internalizing since dreams are one of the ways people process thoughts and memories.>Don’t most troons get raped as kids anyway?being sexually assaulted either as a child or in adulthood is a common thing among anyone, not just troons. people dont talk about it much for obvious reasons though. i've had it happen to me to a point of desensitization as well, so it could just be that ur brain has internalized it to a point of normalcy and just another thing to dream about.if its really concerning u, talk to a professional, idk.
>>42225986sis sucked off her brother's incubus oh no
>IT WAS ME BARRY>I INVADED YOUR HOME AND FUCKED YOUR THROAT AT SUPERSPEED
>>42226926You are very articulate nona, I was convinced you were much more qualified than just having done a highschool psychology class.I’m not that concerned but I’m a little grossed out.>>42226947Idek what you’re getting at here lmfao >>42226949Eobard Thawne ruins my life again baka
>>42227079Your brother projected a long-distance incubus into your subconscious and fucked you by proxy. Its called a somnic takeover
>>42226839I knoww. Hopefully I lock in and finish it soon, but there's so many games I'm playing rn that are peak that I want to finish.
>>42227110>>42227079this is exactly what i was getting at. now he's gonna feed off your psychic energy until you're nothing but an empty husk. this doesn't happen often enough to be covered by conventional demonology so you'll probably have to improvise your own ritual to stop it. it'll probably involve fucking him irl
>>42227110You sound insane.>>42227124Take your time with it, it’s definitely worth not rushing it.>>42227208I’m not gonna fuck my brother anon.
>>42227252I'm too into theorizing and thinking about what's going on to rush it. It's thoroughly entertained me, probably the most emotions I've felt in a game in a long time desu. This and Hello Charlotte, but the latter is more personal.
>>42227079(sorry for not responding op, had a shower after i sent that reply)>I was convinced you were much more qualified than just having done a highschool psychology class.to be fair i do research into psychology in my free time just because im that autistic, i am still by no means a professional and half the shit im saying is probably wrong>I’m not that concerned but I’m a little grossed out.thats probably the best reaction u could have. u arent too worried about it, but u arent looking to bang him which would make things even worse. i think all u can do now is live with it and pretend as if the dream(s) never happened or will happen again. wishing u the best
>>42227252>I'm not gonna fuck my brother anonwell enjoy having your energy siphoned, your brother sure will.
god, i wish i was sexually abused. Only then would my pain be vald
>>42227301Never heard of Hello Charlotte, might check that out.>>42227363Thank you nona, for your kind words and sage insight. >>42227396This isn’t happening tho >>42227426Whatever pain you have, I promise it’s valid :>
>>42227551Yeah, it's an indie story-based game. It really hit me in many unexpected ways. It's such a unique experience, so if you do check it out, I hope you enjoy it.
>>42227650Thank you for the recommendation nona, will be sure to give it a look.
>>42225986do you have an incest kink op
>>42231386No, why would you even ask that
>>42225986For the love of all that is good, you do not need to read narrative or moral sense into it. You'll just get trapped in an endless rabbithole of analysing and recontextualising that never leads to anything ultimate because reality is the dream of eternity and if you get hung up on any one thing it just leads to more and more shit.For those of us who have had abject childhoods I honestly think the best thing for us is to submit our lives to making art and making improvements in our community. If you have a healthy body, take good care of it. If you have hereditary issues, like I do, well, my plan is to live hedonistically and then OD on fent or anaesthetics when I get too sick or too old. If I live the rest of my life inbetween then and now in the right spirit and accept there is nothing for me after I struggle to believe I will be punished for that.
>>42235091>hey public forum, please analyse this dream i had where i'm sucking off my brother>wtf why are people asking me if i have an incest kinkhere's my analysis nona: you're retarded
>>42237020Nona are you okay? I get your point here but you do sound genuinely insane >>42238798When you put it like that I guess it’s actually pretty reasonable,,, maybe I was the retard all along
