i had barely used 4chan at all before today, but for awhile now i've had the urge to do so and this is where i ended up, i've only been responding to other people's threads until i decided to make this oneit's already extremely obvious to me that everyone on here is completely retarded and this place is basically irredeemable, but it's honestly kind of amusing to me given i've been surrounded by a bunch of liberals who are constantly forcing themselves to walk on eggshells to avoid offending anyonedeep down i have pretty horrible impulses and whatever the first thought i have in response to things tends to be something i couldn't actually say without severe consequencesto keep this relevant to the sub, irl i used to want to transition and i mainly ided as a FTM gay guy but no one took me seriously and i had my identity picked apart until dissociation took over and i put myself back into the closet and can no longer even begin to figure out what i want to be anymore because it feels pointless and i don't really know what i want out of life at this pointi know posting this probably won't help anything considering what i've already said about the people who use this website (including myself in that, too) but even if the only replies i end up getting are from people telling me to kill myself or calling me retarded, at least i actually decided to say what was on my mind for once
>>42233910This website is poison, and this board in particular. you should leave. You have no idea how fake this place is and you dont have enough experience to use it safely
>>42233981my immediate response to this was to ask what you meant when you said this place is fake but the fact i even have to ask is proof enough of my lack of experience, i'm probably just going to use this site for the day and then give up on it when i get bored
>>42234034She’s being dramatic anon, ignore her. This place is good for people who have no one else, or who at least have no one else they feel comfortable expressing their true thoughts and feelings to.You are a friend here now and everyone here is to you.Don’t forget though, you’re here forever.
ignoring everything in this retarded post except this>FTM gay guy but no one took me seriously and i had my identity picked apart until dissociation took over and i put myself back into the closet and can no longer even begin to figure out what i want to be anymore because it feels pointless and i don't really know what i want out of life at this pointsame situation except i was nonbinary and am now planning to go ftm. practice mechanisms from cbt and dbt (pirate textbooks and workbooks. it's really easy to do, i found about 10. therapy may be too expensive and worthless), and start journaling. start experimenting with how you present- look at and try different styles, try to fluctuate between masculine and feminine styles.overtime you'll be able to ground yourself more and seek patterns between emotions and situations. i found i experience more dissociation, discomfort, and numbness when i think i'm being treated as a woman and when i dress as one. when you surround yourself with people who respect you, when you are able to ground yourself and establish boundaries, and when you're able to present in a way that positively affects you you'll be less confused and numb.
>>42234256oh also, try different hobbies and try to meet new people. there may be some hobby events near you. i've been going to clubs and conventions, trying different forms of art as well. again, ground yourself and journal throughout it.
>>42233910yeah i just use this board for attention or to look at retards. u become retarded once u start believing in it. the majority of the ppl here unironically think there is either agp (transbian + unpassable) or hsts (straight + passing)
>>42234256this'll probably make me sound even more retarded than i already do and i want it to be clear this is good advice, but my circumstances are so fucked in a way that would make this extremely difficult if not impossiblei'm really glad you could figure things out for yourself and find a place for yourself in the world, i know it's dumb to just give up considering i'm so young but i spent years of my life trying over and over again to improve things and to sort myself out and nothing i've tried so far has really workedi want things to get better and in the past i've done basically all the things you suggested to little or no progress long term due to having no real means of escaping being surrounded by people who either hate me outright or constantly treat me like i'm not even humani don't want to just accept that things will never get better and i desperately want to live a happy life, i just don't see it happening, i feel like all i'm capable of doing is making the best out of my life even if i'll never get to live as myself and things will always be terrible
>>42234034>my immediate response to this was to ask what you meant when you said this place is faketrolls trolling trolls psychotic homegrown psy op! theatre nerd neets and old money LARPers helped to make this the greatest website in the world for going on 25 years. BE NOT AFRAID!
>>42234491any way you can move away? connections in other cities, schooling or job opportunities, saving up to move by working, etc? i live in a progressive city and that has made what would've been impossible where i lived previously now possible. sometimes the only thing that helps is changing your environment.
i was gonna make fun of you for>relevant to this subbut i kinda just feel bad for you. >>42183663 will have better advice.
>>422339104chan lost against Reddit. 4chan users seethe constantly about Reddit, they see it as being Haram.There is also a list of censored words so the 4chan forum stay Hallal.Some 4chan Haram words : - s o y - m o o t - f a m - t b hAlso, formatting text is Haram on 4chan since readable and good looking things cause the sin of pleasure and readability.
>>42233910I want to have a penis so I can rape and penetrate people with it.Do you want one too?
>>42233981this is the only queer space I relate to, other online spaces are too accepting and irl spaces are too faggy
>>42233910i didnt read ur text and i dont have to LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE i dont browse this board a lot anymore, it made me feel absolutely miserable while i was in early stages of transition and leaving it improve my life so muchdont start using this boardget away pleae
>>42233910Do you like animation memes?
>>42236484Does something happen when people say yes?
>>42233910>it's already extremely obvious to me that everyone on here is completely retarded and this place is basically irredeemable, but it's honestly kind of amusing to meNow you see what the appeal of this place is. I just like to come and shitpost for entertainment
>>42238989It's a simple question anon, don't over complicate things
>>42236484>>42239004Yes?
>>42239014See? It wasn't so difficult!
theres this new and relatively unknown site made by one of the trannys from this board and its a bit ok ig
>>42239059Looks like shit what's the point
>>42239059>boyslopGod I hate boymoders they're everywhere.
>>42239059somehow even worse fuck off nigger
>>42239070what did i do :(I just have anxiety and cry real easily with in real life judgement
>>42239133Yesterday it was x10 filtered, today it's x4It's fine it you like to "boymod" but there's a point where it just becomes spam.Sorry if I sound mean I don't want to be.
i stopped bothering trying to respond to this thread yesterday because there was nothing to really worth responding to, and honestly there's still nothing much to respond to herestill, thanks everybody who bothered to respond to what i had said, i know i can't really confirm i'm op given how 4chan works and all but this is still more of a reaction to something i've said than i tend to get from my actual friends or familyi don't really want to start using 4chan regularly given it makes everyone who uses it a worse person even according to the people who use it themselves but i've hardly even got anything left to lose anymore, i've spent much of life pretending i'm better than this place when my experience using the site yesterday proved without a doubt that i'm notmaybe i'll give it up today, or maybe this will become a regular thing for me, who knows
>>42239059wtf is this website literally every poster is named "Boymoder"
>>42241835>>42241835 #The best I can explain it. They're like a transgender woman, but they want to look like a boy
>>42234034This place is only dangerous if you are mentally frail and easily influenced by memesOtherwise there are occasionally people worth talking to, you just need a good eye/feel for sorting through the retards
>>42233910Waow r u me I’ve been an occasional lurker for years but Decapcetyl is curing my social anxiety so now I’mma just starting calling it as it is cause fuck! Some people on are dumb
i'm already addicted to trolling pls help
>>42241835It's the thing here. People don't want to be opposite sex, they want to take estrogen and look like a boy
>>42233910>surrounded by a bunch of liberals who are constantly forcing themselves to walk on eggshells to avoid offending anyonei agree that this is basically how it is everywhere else tbdesu which is why i feel like this is my only place>to keep this relevant to the subuh oh redditoid spotted...>i used to want to transition and i mainly ided as a FTM gay guy but no one took me seriouslyahahah same bro>i put myself back into the closet and can no longer even begin to figure out what i want to be anymore because it feels pointless and i don't really know what i want out of life at this pointhonestly good you did that, you should probably become a femrepper like me thatd be the best course of action>>42233981>This website is poisontrve but at least its my poison of choice>You have no idea how fake this place isthis place is the opposite of fake what are you talking about Unless youre referring to the larps but even then thats different from being fake. 1000% tops walking on eggshells for everyone else to avoid risking your reputation tbhon
>>42233910pic related?
>>42246330nah, it's just a picture i had saved from my days as an aesthetic obsessed retard on pinterest
