Just feeling absolutely terrible today again, my brain just hates me and forces me to suffer by constantly making me think about everything, I wish I could just turn my brain off for once, i just don’t want to think about it, for at least one day just not to think about my past and my choices and my decision, hate myself so much, there is no escape, I’m doomed, I doomed myself by being weak, my life is completely meaningless now, I feel hollow, I don’t even feel human anymore, I feel like an object, I feel dead, I am incapable of growth and therefore I might as well be dead, I ruined everything, I killed myself spiritually and now all that’s left is to kill myself physically too, it’s actually over, I hate constantly thinking about this, nothing is even enjoyable anymore, not even sex or drugs, there is no point anymore, no point to keep living, nothing even feels real, it’s a dream that I’ll never wake up from
give up those things that kill you.Nothing feels like anything because you are spiritually dead. To become spiritually alive, become unlike the things that do not make you feel anything like sex and drugs.
>>42249013I genuinely don't believe it can actually ever get better. Enjoy what you can, while you can, and plan a surefire way to leave this mortal realm. At least that's what I'm doing
>>42249013having days like this more and more frequently i dont know what to do
>>42249013Stop dwelling on the past, get up and go fix whatever it’s wrong with your life.
>>42254016>Stop dwelling on the pastnot op but i wish i knew how. things will be looking up for awhile, ill make some progress, but eventually a single thought of my past and all the wasted time might slip through and thats really all it takes for everything to come crashing down. sends me spiraling and everything just feels pointless again. repeat this cycle over and over and over. how do i break it? i just want to live and be happy
