I'm a 23 y/o boy, and what I like most is looking feminine, but I've always repressed it. Around September I realized that this isn't me I'm not living the way I truly want and when I die I'm going to regret how I've lived. I don't think I have a bad body and I'm getting laser, but even so I don't think I'll ever look good. I've reached a point where I don't know if I'm just a feminine guy, or if I'm actually trans. I've always been fascinated by the idea of being someone's wife, having breasts and people looking at me with desire, but at the same time I don't want that my penis get small and it will very strange that my social circle suddenly calls me by another name, sees me differently, and starts treating me differently, especially because I'm unable to picture myself as a girl. One thing I keep thinking about is when about four years ago, I tried to date a guy. I'd never been with one before but unconsciously we ended up treating me like a girl and changing my pronouns (never feels more happy in my life). Years later, another guy I know whom I hadn't seen in ages, said he liked femboys and wanted to go out with me. In the end, both of them say: I don't like how you looked and you are not a woman. So I think that if even someone who likes femboys rejects me, I can't be femenine and beautiful enough being a boy, not mater how hard I try My biggest fear right now is making a mistake. I don't know if I have AGP, or if my path to happiness is taking estrogen and before I know it, I might feel like a real girl. In the end, I don't really care if people use feminine pronouns or anything like that. All I want is to look feminine and be attractive, and to feel good about myself. I feel like if I take estrogen I won't feel like a girl, I'll regret it and my family and friends will think I'm the biggest idiot they've ever seen.What do you guys think? Please don't be rude, this is important to me and I am ashamed of myself
>>42265484It sounds like you're trans and kind of like me, where we have to "earn" being a woman rather than just declaring it.
AGAMP
Taking estrogen and not feeling like a woman happens. It need not be a problem. I've felt like a womanmoding man for years now.
>>42265484>(never feels more happy in my life)
>>42268436AGP + fall in love maybe????
Seems to me like you're just a young guy with self esteem issues and you've been in bad relationships. I used to be like that too, and my ex at the time only lifted me for my feminine qualities but that was just a pure fetish and manipulation tactic to keep me weak in hindsight. I still am a bit "feminine" or whatever in appearance but that's what im happy with. and ive managed to date ppl both leaning into my fem and masc side. Don't become trans, you'll regret it. Enjoy yourself and lean into your femininity if you want, but dont make it your whole identity. Thats my advice. take care !
