i've been on hrt for the past month (taking e and a gnrh antagonist) and i cant stop thinking about detransitioning. ive had very minimal changes so far (mostly just chest tenderness) so it would be very easy to me to just detransition and move on with my life currentlyi have a few reasons for detransitioning, and they mainly concern the fact that im unlikely to ever pass (i'm 6'1) and the fact that my family would likely react poorly to me being a tranny. the only reasons i havent just gotten on with it is that ive had dysphoria for years and the fact that i couldnt effectively cope with it is why i transitioned to begin with. im worried it will become a big issue again if i stop hrt, though i feel my dysphoria has gotten worse on hrt regardless. despite this i think i might be able to live as a cis man even without hrtbecause of this im unsure of what i should do, especially since ive only been on hrt for a month. im fwiw im also 19 so most of my bones have fused already.
>>42282100you need to get off this board and grow up and blossm into a beautiful woman and you need to not obsess over passing at all
>>42282100shouldve also added i dont really feel like a woman either, i just think of myself as a mentally ill man with agp>>42282136>you need to not obsess over passing at allwhats the point of transitioning if i dont pass? im taking hrt because i want to be a woman, not a weird effeminate man in a dress.
>>42282100>i just think of myself as a mentally ill man with agpthis deep in at only 19, you really need to leave this site and be a normal tranny omg
>>42282159>im taking hrt because i want to be a woman, not a weird effeminate man in a dressyou've been on it for a month, most changes take YEARS. passoids don't just become that way overnightalso worst case scenario, is being a cis man who's not feminine at all really better than this? being on hrt will make you like your body more even if you aren't a passoid for a while and trust me that's way better than nothing at all
>>42282238ive been like this since before i started using this board.stumbling onto r/itsafetish at 12 or 13 kinda cemented me as a repper for a very long time
>>42282256> is being a cis man who's not feminine at all really better than this?unironically yes. as a normal cis man i could make my family proud and help the people i care about more than i ever could as a tranny.though when i was still repping i had a habit of idolizing masculine gay men (eg. friedrich ii of prussia & yukio mishima) bc i was gay and wanted to make people happy by fitting into the mold that was expected of me, which might be related to my take on this.
>>42282316making your family "proud" at the expense of your own happiness is the most debilitating and demoralizing thing you can do to yourself, and any good family won't care if you're a trannie anyway
>>42282383i mean my immediate family wouldn't say anything about it to my face but i know deep down they would absolutely resent me for it. id rather avoid them having an issue with me than be alone (i don't really have friends i can rely on)
yeah im taller than you and my family are chuds but >though i feel my dysphoria has gotten worse on hrt regardlessthe opposite for me
