>be me, 22yo male, never in a relationship, virgin, whatever>lifelong depression, suicidal ideation, crippling anxiety>went a long time unmedicated but relapsed hard and started SNRI>helped depression but started an internal existential crisis about gender>realize I look, act, and feel fem>"but I can't be trans, I'm a transphobe">after a week of 0 sleep and mental breakdown decide to listen and see where it takes me>mom is conservative but accepting and even supportive>my friends think of me as fem-coded and can't argue>i literally look like a near-perfect representation of boymoder art but am not on HRT>the only person not willing to do it is myself>realize most mental effects of HRT happen before anything physically permanentAm I cooked? Should I just force feminize myself and see if it fixes everything? I don't know if I want to be a girl, much less tranny... but it doesn't seem like there's much to lose if I might know in 2-3 months even if I just become an hrtrepper or rope anyways. God I would love shoulder-length hair
>>42289883I am sorry that living in a dystopian dying empire has done this to you.
>>42289883>realize I look, act, and feel femBut you don't Shy skinnyfat male ≠ feminine
>>42289883Cute
>>42289883do it sisygmi
>>42289883do you have any dysphoria?
>>42289883>lifelong depression, suicidal ideation, crippling anxiety>my FRIENDSlol. I love these "depressed" and "anxious" zoomers.
