How do I get rid of the troon thoughts? I am bombarded with invasive thoughts about how AGPs are not women, and daydream about successfully trooning out every day every 20 mins, and it is both immensely distressing and upsettingLike if the agp rapehon & snoymoder thoughts would leave me alone for a day I would be really really happyYes I did quit tttt at one point, but my gd got so bad that I found myself failing to cover my tracks every time I search for trans content to live vicariously toNow my social media, kindle library and YouTube recs are all fembrained shit, voice training, and mtf content, just like the recs I regularly get on my ipad when I was 14 until my parents caught me brainwashing myself with the tranny doctrineI am so tempted to delete my socials, clear my kindle library and YouTube acc, so that I can repress the troon thoughts a bit betterFYI I learned about AGP and would save Medium articles on mtf transitioning in my early teen years, before I started lurking on tttt
Probably not the place to ask, we didn't get rid of them
Also maybe I am not trutrans since Blanchard did say that AGPs intentionally embellish there childhood to sound more trutrans, and maybe I am actually more maletrained than troonbrainedBut yes the stuff I have mentioned in the post above did happen, though I desperately wish it wasn't the case, and that maybe I just know memed myself into being trans ever since I learned about what it is on Taiwanese TV
>>42295228Where should I ask for a solution then
>>42295261find the most trans-skeptic therapist.Do keep in mind that that solution failed for me.I went to a psychiatrist known in my country to basically refuse GD diagnosis 95%+ of the time. I got it the easiest.Not sad anymore (in fact quite jolly now), but by God I wished there was a way not to have to troon out. But agp had become unbearable. Literally occupying all my waking hours.
>>42295278I mean, I endured it for 10+ years I just need some more motivation to endure it to my 30sMaybe a trans skeptic therapist will help, like you said
>>42295294>I just need some more motivation to endure it to my 30sRespectfully, nothing magic happens in your 30s.Agp isn't going anywhere. Not in your 30s or your 40s or your 50s.And it's progressive. That is to say it gets progressively worse.At 17 I was sure I can endure it. At 25, even a year into HRT, i nearly roped due to how bad it was. Finally subsided 2yrs in. But with very high doses (trannies here straight up wouldn't believe me).I hope you find a way. But, realistically, it's quite unlikely. You sound like me at 23.Try out a skeptic therapist. Try out whatever you can think of (enbycoping, femboy) but if you didn't lie in OP, you have very little chances.Maybe you can hrtrep. Lots of reppers seem to be doing fine for years like that.I'm sorry I don't have better news.
>>42295326Bruh I am now in my early 20s, and did DIY for a bit until my parents started acting really antagonistic towards me (I haven't moved out then)