I hate seeing attractive people.They wake up every morning not feeling disgusting. They can look down and see a body that they know is theirs.They don't see their shoulders stick out too far in the mirror.They don't notice their masculine jawline, chin and hands.They hum in the shower with a voice they recognise.They brush their hair not obsessing over the widow's peak they've had since 14.They don't have to disassociate just to avoid breaking down at the sight of themselves.But I do.They're everywhere. In the streets I walk on, when I pass them at work, in the places I visit. My friends, strangers, people I'll never see not online, and it hurts all the same.I wonder often what my life would be like if I wasn't born like this. What it would be like to be part of the overwhelming beauty in the world, instead of someone who can only watch from the outside. What it would be like if my body hadn't poisoned me for years with testosterone, would I be satisfied then?Most of the people in picrel are trans, and transitioned at a similar age to when i did. Am I a bad person for envying them with all my being? They went through the same hardships I did, but came out the other side as someone who they might even like, and as a whole person.Am I a bad person for envying the twinks too? I want to scream at them about how they're wasting the potential that I never had, but they're happy, and that's all that matters.These people get to be human. They get to go out, be loved, have their hearts broken, be held in the arms of someone they love. I can't even find someone attractive without feeling like a creep for doing so, as if the very thought they might find out someone like me likes them would, just for a second, ruin their perfect life of experiencing absolute reality.But I can't hate them for it.To be worthy of loving is to be worthy of living, and I'm not.
>>42298740yeah it pisses me off how your genetics can basically decide your life. hotter people are treated better in almost every way.if it's any comfort it hits them twice as hard when they get old and stop being treated like god's gift to mankind.
Relatable
>>42298740yeah...... we had our lives stolen from us
I'm super attractive and I still hate how I look most days.I still have dysphoria.My voice passes flawlessly but I still think I sound like a dude.Also a widow's peak is something you're born with, you have MPB if it came due to puberty.
>>42298740all i wanted was to be cute so i could live my life, instead i had to become a weird tranny and constantly chase after something people get for free
>>42298740damn thanks OP, i see a haircut that i like and u made me think of it could work on me
>>42298740Most attractive gays are boring, drug and sex addicted.
Becoming attractive takes work, OP. Then you have to maintain discipline once you get there. You think these people don’t have to work at it? Look at them 10 years later and 50% become overweight and chopped. No one stays attractive without adherence to pure living and values.
>>42298740>These people get to be human. They get to go out, be loved, have their hearts broken, be held in the arms of someone they love. I can't even find someone attractive without feeling like a creep for doing so,tell me about it
>>42300216which one? i could probably find a hair 360 for most of them if you want
>>42300485some of us won't ever reach the same level with 5x the effort
>>42298740>>42298740Well I'm extremely attractive and people constantly simp for me but I'm too retarded to reciprocate it or have fun. I feel like a corrupting force that sexually assaults everyone within my parameters just by existing and being visible due to my own childhood sexual trauma so people simping for me only makes me feel guilty because it feels like the rot of my existence has infected theirs. What I'm saying is, the problem is not about being attractive or unattractive. It's in not being retarded. Although this will change nothing even if you believe as my own self awareness changes nothing and we feel what we feel.
>>42302979i get where you're coming from but i feel like it's easier to be retarded if you're unattractive just because of lack of experience just try and enjoy the attention nona and i imagine you'll learn how to reciprocate it eventually
>>42298740I wish I were attractive (I.e. white)
