What the fuck even am I? I am disgusted by my masculine body so much that I want to kill myself, but i dont think i really want to be a girl. I feel like trans women are on a higher level of goodness than i am, and that im not worthy enough to be considered a trans woman. Plus I also want to be a femboy too. I dont know whats wrong with me and i cant stop freaking out, what am i?!
>>42299710this is relatable to my early transition. i spent years as a nonbinary faggot because i believed theyfabs when they said i could have any gender i want (except the theyfab gender that was special). i transitioned and now i have a pussy and tits. it rocks. im kind of irreverent with it, dont believe the trans girls on here who want to act like a princess all the time. you can live your tomboy/nonbinary dreams, but to transition to the kind of enby you need to be you have to pass through femininityam open to answer questions. there's shitty people Onhere
>>42299710why not try trooning anyway? if you hate being a man that much then there isn't much you can do other than become a girl. sounds like you have dysphoria.
>>42299710this was mei trooned anywayi am happier this way
>>42299710It kinda sounds like you're a tranny with imposter syndrome. Obv I can't know what you really are, but I was the same and completely unable to get over it. Only doing acid actually made me realize that I was holding myself back from being truly happy
>>42299961But i dont feel worthy of calling myself a girl, and i also want to still be seen as a femboy>>42300083I felt like this for years. If it was imposter syndrome then i likely wouldve figured it out by now i think>>42299763I want my body to be as feminine as possible, i guess i just want to be seen as both a boy and a girl when it comes to identity. But i worry if i tried identifying as something like genderfluid, people would just treat me like im genderless or just treat me like a freak.
>>42299710the imposter syndrome passes eventually the forward you go with transition.thank god i didn't wallow and just started at 21. Now at 30 I get to live.
>>42300190>i guess i just want to be seen as both a boy and a girl when it comes to identitythat worked well as a cope in the early years of my transition.Would've been happy even if i had to stay that way, desu. But eventually I learned to love femininity.
>>42300527but its not just cope. I love feminity, but i feel uncomfortable identifying as a girl. Especially when it comes to men, id rather be seen as a femboy. I dont want to have to date straight men as a trans woman, it sounds hellish
>>42300190>But i dont feel worthy of calling myself a girlbecause you have dysphoria.
>>42301211>it sounds hellishwon't sound hellish 5 years on E, let's put it this way.Granted, I was androphilic before that, but the way I became I attracted to men would've been incomprehensible for 21yo me.
>>42299710When you stub your toe do you celebrate the pain to your ugly male form ORThe dysphoria goes away because you have a real problem
