Hey guys. I just see a lot of people online who are bitter about being a virgin/not having a partner. In my case I think it may be because of my relationship to solo-sex/AGP and porn. I have kissed a few girls and have had opportunities to have girlfriends and sex but for whatever reason, I never pursued those paths. I guess I never really felt worthy of having a partner or love, always thinking I need to become better than I am before I am loveable as a person. I am not bitter about my situation and I don't hate the world or anyone because of it. AGP is annoying but not interfering with my life in any meaningful way outside of sexuality and arousal, no dysphoria, no HRT, no crossdressing, no IRL-activities related to it - I am still just a guy with a fetish. Sometimes some lingering feelings similar to "homesickness", a wistfulness, to be a graceful, serene, kind woman is there but no strong emotions. I also "know" that for me personally it's only the sexual kink spilling over into identity, because AGP can be insidious. Also, im oldge (30) and probably a decent looking man so I don't hate my body, even if my brain thinks a female form would probably be preferable. I just wanted to share with you guys, that there are people like me out there too. Not everyone becomes hateful because they haven't been loved and neither do you :)
tl;drtake your little pink pills op
I don't know what to ask or say but I did read your post and enjoyed it.
>>42307596Thank you, I appreciate you :)
>>42307588^^
>>42307550>I think it may be because of my relationship to solo-sex/AGP and pornI always wanted to pass romantically. Girls have sex with guys and if I'm wanking at home alone instead, I have dysphoria. On top of that I'm actually bi. I never got to have sex with any guy let alone guys I fantasized about and my brain understandably has been broken by missing out.
>>42307588Stop grooming.
>>42308922>grooming a 30 year old man
>>42307550do you not feel foggy as a guy
>>42309007What do you mean by foggy? :)
>>42309798do people tell you or seem like they see you as not present or zoned out
>>42308898I feel for you... :(But I don't think your brain is inherently or permanently broken!
Worthiness aside, do you *want* a partner? No judgement, just curious.
>>42309820Oh yeah I sometimes do have troubles to not zone out. Especially during longer talks and lectures. I doesn't happen all the time but it does happen frequently enough for me to notice. I also. Can never tell how much time has passed when I zoned out. It happened a lot during school and college, when I was in my times and early twenties. That's why I always suspected I had ADD (ADHD)Why do you ask? :)
OP would you date a trans woman who would be into you AGPing out at home?
>>42310038Oh yeah I genuinely yearn for real connections, romantic and platonic, in my life but I think my personality is just.. a good fit for such a thing to naturally happen. I am not very trusting and think people won't like me in advance so I don't get my hopes up in general so I don't get hurt when I actually get rejected romantically or as a person, I think. I have a lot of superficial acquaintances and "friends" though. You probably wouldn't really spot me in a public setting as someone atypical in those aspects. Most of my surroundings probably think I am a perfectly normal typical guy, meaning I doubt they feel I am off in any way, since I don't struggle socially with humor, reading the room or communicating.
>>42310053nta I have never been hyperactive in my life. I sit unnaturally rigid and go silent like a dead body, and death glare into space especially under stress, and people forget I'm even there.But I look one day and supposedly ADHD now means being forgetful and unable to have the planning capacity or motivation to keep oneself alive. That is me.
>>42310064I wonder. I never really thought about it. And I think it would depend more on the person than their identity. I honestly also didn't come here with the intention of dating anyone :) I also don't see why anyone would want to date me outside of desperation. Also what do you mean by AGPing out?
>>42310231By AGPing out I mean wearing the most AGP-coded outfits: sissy costumes, e-girl costumes, maid costumes, lingerie, and so on.
>>42310160I hope you find someone to who you connect with deeply. You sound like a kind person.
>>42310306not op but AGPing out to me doesn't involve clothes at all, just self inserting as a woman while masturbating to porn
>>42307588
>>42310306Well I have always contained my AGP to fantasy and solosex strictly. I have never worn female clothes or makeup. I am not aroused by cross dressing or makeup and I would never allow my AGP to make me act out IRL. I would just look like a man wearing a dress and makeup. And I wouldn't be comfortable with that. So no. I wouldn't agp out, I think :)
>>42310350Thank you, I appreciate you. You seem like a kind person too :)
>>42310535Oh. Shame. I kinda want a housewife (male).
>>42310573I am sure you will find someone loving. Maybe not today or tomorrow but there is someone out there for you 100% :)
>>42308991kekd
>>42310064>>42310573I didn't know girls like you existed. Shame you probably don't live anywhere nearby, I think that stuff would make for some very fun dynamics
>>42310053fucking moron
>>42311310Uh sorry I didn't mean to offend you. :(
>>42310535>I would just look like a man wearing a dress and makeup. And I wouldn't be comfortable with that.You are dysphoric. For your own sake, please don't ignore it
>>42307550I'll give the same advice I always give to evreryone on the board:Stop being a retarded repper and take the pink pill already
>>42307550i wouldnt call you agp at all, i think you are just alone and trying to find some "connection", thats it.i also had very healthy hetero relationships with women but also have agp and a desire to be a woman/feminine or whatever you want to call it. mine does not cause dysphoria or self-hate, at least in my case, probably because i am a highly functioning person (at least i beleive that i am). i learned how to keep it a secret as much as possible, though did share it in some select special cases. i did try several things like crossdressing and mild irl-activities but i never thought about hrt, because in the end i also enjoy being a man too. thanks for reading my blog
>>42311909I have no dysphoria though and I don't hate being a man. My brain just thinks it would like a female body more because of AGP. That doesnt mean my male body causes me any distress. Also, being a guy has its perks too.
>>42311779Why would you think I have dysphoria?
>>42311920I am glad you can manage it so efficiently Anon :)
