Anybody on this board whose gender dysphoria had a late onset, i.e. starting post puberty or in one's 20s? Personally, I've only started being explicitly dysphoric after a random dream I had where I simply was a woman. Realizing that I was simply a woman inside that dream made me feel like the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders and I could properly breathe for the first time in my life. It was the first time I ever felt serene inner peace, and not constantly restless and melancholic. I wonder if anyone experienced something similar
Not quite but I felt very mildly dysphoric when I was 16-17 yet felt more comfortable as a woman so I went for it (thank god) but the big hard dysphoria only hit in my 20's. It was probably due to my headspace being too occupied with my adjacent mental illness and when I recovered it surfaced.
22 rn :c my girlfriend thinks i’m just a bottom. i get to act like a girl in front of her though at least
>>42310181My dysphoria eased in my early 20s and then got way worse after I had to quit SSRIs. But it's been cyclical throughout my life.
>>42310181growing up every now and then id wish i was a girl but it was always just a fleeting thought. wasnt until my mid twenties that i actually started feeling any sort of dysphoria though, which makes me skeptical about any of this being real.
>>42310240How did your mild dysphoria manifest, and how did it differ in severity from the dysphoria you started to feel in your 20s?
>>42310181I think mine only showed up at 18. But I don't know if it's real or not.
>>42310181Similar but different: I trooned out at 24 and during most of my childhood / adolescence, I would lull myself to sleep by imagining myself as a woman in some sort of fantasy setting (I read a lot of fantasy novels as a kid). I didn't really piece together that this was unusual or a "sign" until my 20s.
>>42310366My mild dysphoria was mainly feeling uncomfortable about secondary sex characteristics and taking steps to fix it as best as I could but it eventually turned into hyper-obsessing over every small detail of my body and feeling miserable.
In teen years I had fleeting thoughts and weird jealousy of girls + agp transvestic fetish. I also really weirdly liked it when people thought I was a woman onlineI eventually ended up having a ton of submissive fantasies starting around 15 and starting around 18-20 I learned about hrt, cracked and basically immediately went for it. I have been on hrt for 12 years and I would attempt murder or suicide of it were taken from me
>>42310181Not a thing
>>42310181mine only really started when i was around 20, which was around the time i stopped living with my parents and got to take care of myself & my appearance in a fully self-directed way. i've always had "androgynously pretty" ideals for my appearance, which i've always cared about very much, and i think gd was just a side effect of those ideals escalating when i didnt feel bound to familial expectations anymore. never thought of myself as a woman either as long as i'm not overtly perceived as a man, but atp i've gotten used to people treating me as the former
>>42310470>liked it when people thought I was a woman onlinemaybe i shouldve paid more attention to this
>>42310485What do you mean "Not a thing"? I can't remember any overt dysphoria prior to the dream I had. At most I just felt forlorn and inhuman
>>42310421It does make sense that your dysphoria got worse in your 20s, as masculinization becomes much more pronounced around that age
>>42310399That doesn't sound like late onset at all, but rather just how you managed to compartmentalize it all
>>42310485Late onset dysphoria definitely is a thing. No everyone knows prior or at the onset of puberty
>>42311823is it though i feel like if i was actually trans it wouldnt have taken 25 years to surface
>>42311870What made you realize at 25? Was it some isolated event, or did it slowly creep up on you?
>>42311905>>42310332idk. i lost a lot of weight and started paying attention to my body and realized just how uncomfortable i was with my masculine traits
>>42311870Similar thing here. I started having gender questions pop up more frequently after it was already a theme growing up, and as I lost weight the dysphoria got stronger.
>>42310181yep, my dysphoria appeared during puberty which is fairly normal for most girls who are uncomfortable with it so thats one reason why i dont even consider it dysphoria in the first place even if im still experiencing it in adulthood.i also had a random dream once where i realized i had a cock and i suddenly felt like a normal person for once, but that probably has nothing to do with it! other than my poor social skills i think im pretty woman like, so im definitely not a man.
>>42312099how did you proceed? i feel like i am just stuck in a constant state of.. uncertainty. it just feels so insane to have no sense of identity at this age
They'll tell you you're invalid for it but some people just don't masculinize much until well after puberty. My presentation didn't give me dysphoria until mid 20s when suddenly my skin changed, I started to look noticeably more male and thus dysphoria kicked in. Being trans is just that, experiencing dysphoria with the sexually dimorphic traits you develop, whenever those develop and cross the threshold of dysphoria.
>>42312122For your own sake, please stop repping. It's always so sad to see your replies in different threads where you perfectly describe your dysphoria, just to insist that it's not that
>>42312195It got too much and I started HRT and now I cycle between HRT Repping because I'm actually just a dude and honmoding, but no matter what I cry because I have more and more memories coming back that point towards me being dysphoric at the onset of puberty and having all of my faggotry punished growing up.
>>42312669i feel like that is where im headed towards too. and on the memories coming back, i get that too but i often feel like my brain is just gaslighting me
>>42312226>threshold of dysphoriaAt what point would you draw the line?
>>42310181>20s>late onsetAverage mtf transition starts at age 30.
>>42313458The age of transition is not the age of onset. Most people who transition that late were dysphoria quite a bit earlier than 20, while I can't remember ever really being dysphoric prior to the dream I had
>>42310181I first started feeling dysphoria when I turned 20 and started growing body hair.
>>42312805Sometimes it is gaslighting, but there are also memories I know are real.
I think if you feel this later it's probably that you didn't stop to think about it, or just did not notice that you were feeling like this
>>42313642That's really hard to prove though. Personally, I have genuinely no memories of how I felt about my body changing during puberty, so I simply can't tell whether I've ever felt dysphoric growing up
>>42313861So we can say you didn't stop to think about it, because if you had you would have an opinion one way or the other wouldn't you?
>>42313949Probably, but my lack of memories could also mean that I actually had a positive opinion of the changes, but just forgot. Even if I had a positive opinion, I also didn't ever consider that there ever existed any alternative but to accept my own birth sex
>>42314000If you had a positive perception, wouldn't you have noticed that?If you had, I imagine you'd have gone to your parents/caregivers and said something like "wow, look how big and strong I'm getting"It seems more like you just didn't notice at all
>>42313581i started growing body hair at 11 so that was when it started for me
>>42314055My lack of memories only reaches up until I was around 16, when I decided to start working out, since I thought that was my only option how to be attractive as a guy, and then I did "enjoy" seeing that my efforts were paying off. Prior to that I simply have zero memories of my body though
