>>42314110its only a larp if you didnt know you were trans when doing it. so none
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I'm trans TM and I have done that many times.
>>42314110I didn't larp as female, I just had a female pfp, but a lot of supposedly straight guys would pay me to do very specific horny things over voice and be weirded out by how little my getting into them bothered them, which was very uhhhhhhhhhhIt made me happyIt'll be nice to actually be the Domme rather than wishing I was
>>423141100.I don't do online relationships. Ever. Didn't do them before transition either.Online relationships are not real. And anyone indulging in them is setting themselves up for failure and sorrow.
>>42314426This, I can accept having a group you play online video games with but until you actually meet them irl, you don't have a real relationship with anyone online
>>42314426I met my wife online, we've been together for 6 years, pretty much all of it in person
>>42314426My closest relationship ever was an online one and it's possibly either what let me rep as well as I did OR is what made my sexual issues way worse. Frankly don't know.
Elder trans here.I started when I was 13 playing Phantasy Star Online, the first console MMO. i had a french boyfriend and we spoke for hours and hours using the in-game chat. He would give me the best MAGS, even a Chao Mag, and Spread Needle gun.It was that same year i confided in the school counsellor that i wanted to be a girl, and she shouted at me for 5 minutes straight that i was a disgusting pervert. Lgbt was illegal back then.Good game, PSO 1 and 2
>>42314487The chao mag. Im so old its unreal. I wish i had hrt at 13.https://phantasystar.fandom.com/wiki/Chao_(Mag)
>>42314487tfw being in your 30s is elder trans still. is our life expectancy still that low?
>>42314487I played a bit of PSO2NGS recently, I like the character creator in it, I've heard the older ones are much harder and better in some ways, but I'm not good enough at videogames for that
>>42314487I remember loving the phantasy star games on the genesis but never really bothered with pso stuff
>>42314451Meeting one's significant other online is a whole different issue. A significant minority of all people now meet their partner online. That's fine.OP was asking about online relationships. Those are not real.Congrats on the marriage.>>42314480either way, it was likely a bad thing :)At least you stopped repping, I hope.
>>42314533>is our life expectancy still that low?Not the nona you're replying to.But 30s is "elder" by this board's standards which is a creche.I'm 43 and I'm basically grandma here.On life expectancy, the stats are skewed due to suicide (and now the impossibility of knowing how many trannies are out there since anyone can DiY).But suicide aside, poverty also influences this negatively.As not poor and not roping, life expectancy is actually pretty great.I was joking with a cisf relative who's 45 that my E levels are more stable and better than hers. Point being that if one takes care of herself and avoids substance abuse, life goes on pretty comfortably.
>>42314110I was in msn rp chats before they shut it down and then nwn and nwn2I still have memories of me and a filipino girl paragraph posting yaoi stories at eachother past midnight on a school nightbut like we all thought we would become authors, more so than like we thought we were discovering being lgbt
>>42314613i guess also things have changed so much in the past two decades its like several generations by cis people cultural standards.
>>42314727Oh yeah. For me they have changed even more radically.20 years ago I was still a man digging through shit (literally) in order to be able to pay for basic stuff in a post-Soviet country.Life today is infinitely better.
One. He was my online friend for 5 years beforehand through a fucking mobile game no less. this was before I even accepted that I was trans. When I came out to him he simply accepted me, said "you are a woman" and we continued like nothing ever happened. It was so validating. He never struggled with pronouns, he always called me by my name and he instilled confidence in my ability to transition properly that I couldn't find on my own. Yadda yadda, as I started hrt about a year after coming out (in large part thanks to his encouragement), my feelings for him gradually shifted from best friend to a crush. As it turns out he felt the same.Tldr We're engaged now. We live together and he is the best guy I could have ever hoped for.
>>42314533I personally know 5 people that committed suicide. It sucks. >>42314544New Genesis looks good. I want to play it on Steam because i absolutely refuse to pay to play online using my console, but i bricked my Steam Deck so i have to find a way to unbrick it ugh.The old style PSO games were brutal, it was 2001, gaming back then was hardcore, look at the old school Tomb Raider games. And there was hardly any internet to guide you! I do remember downloading all the A+ emblems for Sonic Adventure 2, that game was really tough>>42314568They have Phantasy Star 2, 3 and 4 on the Sega collection for PS3 or 360. What a great collection. I wish it had Sonic 3, but music issues>if i could have every woman in the world>>42314613Drink water, avoid the sun, avoid drugs. And be lucky! Dont be unlucky.
>>42314797>Tldr We're engaged nowYou won life :)
>>42314797Such a sweet story.Hope to be invited at your silver wedding :3
>>42314593I'm sorry... I didn't mean to cause any trouble>>42315052I'd play it with you>>42314533I'm starting at 30 just aiming to make it to maybe 45, the worlds kind of broken anywaysQuestion: I tried downloading discord and finding a trans community to kind of just talk to people, it's been a few years since I've talked to anyone other than my wife but are communities really this bad now? half the trans servers want me to recite some mantra or something to join them too which I'm just not going to doDo normal people still exist or society just strange now?
>>42315271>discordbut fr all online social communities are fucked now. itf communites that arent fucked are the non-political hobby ones that happen to attract lots of trans. i find normal people but thats on dating apps so might be an issue for you.
>>42314110a couple. one of which lasted like 9 months. I still feel really bad for ending it so abruptly but ldr online dating is so bad for my mental health because it's none of the parts of a relationship I actually enjoy (physical affection & having someone I can do normal day shit with)
>>42315271>I tried downloading discordDon't, nona!>are communities really this bad now?yes.>Do normal people still exist or society just strange now?Yes, and yes.Normal people still exist AND society is just strange.I know two trannies IRL. Both of them are even less online than me. At least I post here from time to time. They don't post anywhere.Queer spaces are absolute dogshit unless you're obsessed with far-Left politics or have really weird interests.Meanwhile, most of society has gone crazy too. Especially in places/countries where covid lockdowns were extensive. You can find plenty of data on that, although on this board it will be denied because this board is 50% shut-ins.>I'm starting at 30 just aiming to make it to maybe 45Nona, don't set yourself up for failure.15 years sounds a lot, but they pass really fast, especially if you enjoy them.Live! We only get one shot at life. Make the most out of it.Hugs.
>>42315289I used to have a friend group but trauma helped me nuke it, my personality is abrasive and I tend to make enemies everywhere I go>Stop being abrasiveI can't sadly, its just who I am, I'm like a poison spider who tries really really hard to be nice but is still poison>>42315317I appreciate your positivity, thanks anonAlso sorry for blogposting
>>42315337i get it since im abrasive too. end up having friends where have to be one on one with each and never mix them as solution. youre still young and also have someone with you anyway so outlook is good.
>>42315317>most of society has gone crazy tooI've noticed. Lockdowns didn't help, but for me its the economic reasons. People are working hard and have absolutely nothing to show for it.At the end of the month they have almost nothing left. This has driven normies to the brink of insanity, and its why so many lash out at others, similar to how animals will attack one another if you put them in a small cage.The rich have stolen everyones money, and they're using their media to redirect that anger amongst the peasantry. Hence anti trans, anti immigrant sentiment. Its not normal for people to scream in the street, it reminds me of those dance parties from the Middle Ageshttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dancing_mania
>>42315363Thats true :) I appreciate you
>>42315369I live in a bubble where I don't get to see that on a daily basis outside of browsing here
>>42315369Yeah, I'm not buying any of that economic bullshit.Everyone is significantly richer than 20 years ago. EVERYONE.Also, I'm from Eastern Europe. You can't even conceptualize the kind of poverty I lived in (along with tens of millions of others). Somehow society was nowhere near as crazy as it is now. And 100% of the plebs were much poorer than now and worked more and harder than now.
>>42315404I have severe schizophrenia, and i wanted to understand why, so i learnt about about personality disorders in sociological contexts.The West, meaning the US, UK parts of Europe, and Russia have created conditions that enable narcissism as a virtue and has created many sociopaths.You may have heard the phrase "i dont owe you anything", this is weaponised narcissism, John Locke and Karl Marx spoke about this, how we actually do have a responsibility to one another.If im having a bad day, i consider my responsibilities to others around me, and they do the same. People in safe societies still experience hardship but the bonds of community ensure it doesnt spill over into anti social behaviour and violence.The countries i mentioned do not have healthy avenues for expressing negative emotions, and thus the bonds of community are corroded until we get to the point where one human murders another and the reaction of those present is to live vicariously through the murderer.Its best to avoid these people as much as possible, so you're making good decisions anon
>>42315507I'm diagnosed antisocial anon.......
>>42315460We can agree to disagree.For me the ecnomic argument makes sense in the context of hyper individualistic countries where self worth is determined by net worth.This is further revealed when you compare the happiness index of underdeveloped countries that still have strong social bonds, to more developed countries with much higher levels of inequality.This is explored in the bool The Spirit Level, its a great read, i recommend https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Spirit_Level_(Wilkinson_and_Pickett_book)
>>423141102 but thats because im pre transition and still larping as a woman (repressing)
>>42314110none, ive never had a relationship. but i did have one guy who became so enamored with my fursona that he paid me $120 to RP with him (this was a few years ago), which I did three times until he blocked me out of the blue one day
>>42315547>This is further revealed when you compare the happiness index of underdeveloped countries that still have strong social bondsDifferent nona but you just disagreed with yourself.Nona is right: economics don't matter as much as you want it to. And the gigacommie crap with "the rich" matters even less when Uzbekistan (far higher inequality and lots of very poor people) has a higher happiness level than half of Europe which has a lot less inequality than all of Central Asia.That's assuming these indexes have any legitimacy whatsoever because their methodology is always obfuscated and if you dig enough you notice they basically measure how commie a society is and assume being commie is good, lulMoreover, your individualism talk is weird too. Sweden is far more individualistic than most of the US yet has a higher happiness level in the index.This isn't an "agree to disagree" - you are wrong by your own criteria.https://worldpopulationreview.com/country-rankings/happiest-countries-in-the-world
>>42315716nona, you're arguing with a self-admitted schizophrenic.you're not gonna convince a schizo that leftard bullshit is retarded.
>>42315716Not wrong. Inequality and relative poverty are not mutually exclusive. >>42315676>>42315728I see im conversing with far right nazis who want the state of nature applied to soicety, ok.
>>42315716>Uzbekistan (far higher inequality and lots of very poor people) has a higher happiness level than half of EuropeFundamentally and absolutely incorrect, you have just DOOMED yourself. You have just dug a hole and buried yourself alive.You dont even have a straw to breathe through. Close the computer and reevaluate your position from the ground up. Have a cookie. Take a walk. Rethink ideological stancehttps://www.express.co.uk/news/uk/2028065/worlds-10-most-miserable-countries
>>42315092>>42315125Thank youuu I am genuinely so lucky to have him for the rest of my life
>>42315771There is a middle ground, but I mean I do agree that being able to do business is nice, my wife is sick and wont be able to work at some point in the future, and I struggle to hold a job at all so we've invested in real estate and are landlords now, meaning we'll be safe even when she gets sick, you can't really do that in a communist country, you just kind of have to trust that the state sponsored care is going to be enough for disorders that need a lot of specialist workI think though we should strive to get along with people we don't agree with and be less tribal, most people who have political views have them because they think their ideal world would be better for everyone
>>42314110i larped being female for an entire year with a guy, would always be in voice eith him the only one talking. he wanted to fly out to see me so i had to admit and turns out he was gay?? brother
i've never had a single online friend, let alone an online relationship, before or after transition
