Being fake trans while pretending you are trans is isolating cause you can’t connect with trans people or cis peopleI’m just a man on estrogen injection with conduits and no dick function. A eunuchEveryone if the people I knew in my babytravs era are perfectly passing and choosing to go nb like a real trendier cis woman and Im just, so dettached I can no longer even function. I used to have hope. Once im on hrt. Once I get laser once I lose more weight once I pass, that I’d feel ok with myself but the truth is tgat it was a fakeI’m fakeEvery word I type or say or think is fakeA simulation of a person tgat doesn’t existI don’t exist. I killed myself long ago and this transition is just an epilogue of that suicidal, killing my name and body for nothing
iwnbaw bro i should kms bro like ts sucks so fucking bad bro fml
>>42321585Why did you start trooning in the first place if youre faketrans?
>>42321585sounds like you're dysphoric
>>42321729I thought I was a tranny and was convinced I was dysphoric( it was fake performative >>42321828I’m not really if I was I would be a trans Woman but I’m not even trans nb
>>42322111How did you fake dysphoria?
>>42321585I'm early in my transition, and posts like these are the stuff of nightmares. There's nothing I fear more than coming to the realization that I should've remained a guy, both because it would mean I have some other severe issues which I tried to scapegoat onto "dysphoria", but also because the thought of being a man is ropefuel
What if trans is just playing pretend?
>>4232158599% of trannies are faketrans. Only intershits are trutrans.
>>42322156It's fine to go back later. Being a man with an srsussy is kino.
>le heckin epic dvvmtrxnny 'aw ma gash i'm sa fayketrans' postJust ingest your medicine anon. I can assure you that you are trans with the highest possible probability that does not violate Heisenberg's uncertainty principle.
>>42322325I don't want to be a man in any way though, so going back is akin to a death sentence
>>42322338Proof? Op is male let him choose!
>>42321585holy fucking brain worms man get antipsychotics or ffs or whatever
>>42322361Why? What's wrong with being a man who looks like a woman?
>>42322125I just feel ok about my existence and was just pornbrained and had sexist values about beauty
>>42322369Mm I get it. It's like that for me sometimes. What are your current habits like?
>>42322156if you fear it, face that fear.stop hrt for a month or two, if you get back on it after that amount of time, nothing much will have happenedto the contrary, if you find that you can live just as happily, if not happier without hrt, that's great!because you don't have to go through the horror of transition or permamanmode...>t. was like you early into transition, detrooned after about a year for two months because>>well i'm akchually just a confused gay guy>got back onto hrt after two months and now there is no doubt in my mind that i am trans and will have to transition also socially sooner or laterit SUCKS
>>42322367There's nothing wrong with being a man at all. It's just not what I want to be
>>42322362It's not a choice, it is a matter of fact
>>42322396I'm currently on hrt for the 4th time already...
>>42322396what if you already did this but then the doubts came back?
>>42322414i would strongly suggest that you accept it this time and worry about how to have a good transition instead of wasting your time with this>uhhh hmmm em i REALLLY trans? It couldn't be, no NO not me uh-uhh nah-ah i'm just a girly cis guy
>>42322415do it againwasn't my first time stopping eitherlife does not follow a linear path but rather one which meanders unpredictablyjust ride it out
>>42322460I really don't want to though
>>42322443I'm not even girly though, which definitely is part of the issue. I basically have no guarantee that I'll actually feel better as a woman, except that being a man really makes me want to blow my brains out, and not even due to straightforward dysphoria
>>42322465then don'tfollow the path of least resistancebreathe, relax, don't thinkjust keep swimming
>>42322492The path of least resistance was not transitioning in the first place and just remaining a weird fat fuck instead of trying to work on myself and then have that increased self awareness massively enhance my dysphoria.
>>42322489>I'm not even girly thoughbe so fr girl you are literally injecting estrogen and posting on THE tranny forumyou are far too feminine to be a manmaybe not as feminine as a real cis woman (TM)but definitely too girly to be a real cis man (TM)
>>42322542You wouldn't say that if you knew me irl. I'm not even referring to my appearance, but to my personality. I'm basically a carbon copy stoic, blunt, assertive, confident and sarcastic guy. Basically the antithesis of girly
>>42322510the path lies ahead, not in the pastlive NOWdo what you want to do RIGHT NOWyou are a good person you got thisyou're mind is playing games with youyou are not your thoughts, you are a package of directed energy localized in four-dimensional spacetimedo not let thoughts of 'a mission', 'a purpose', 'a goal', 'an afterlife', etc. distract you - for you cannot comprehend why you are where you areyou feel within you a force pulling you into a certain direction or maybe a certain shape.be water, let the force of life do its thing and abstain from thoughtit knows best
im hoping all these retarded thoughts are just testosterone fucking with my brain and that estrogen will work better for me
>>42322643firstly, you are misogynistic because you equate being a woman with weakness.secondly, you have a perfect image of yourself in your mind right now: try to become this person as best as you can.at least you'll be able to say you tried as much as you could. if it doesn't work it's not your fault, because you gave your best.
>>42322685I've never meant to equate being a woman with weakness. It's just that I'm all the characteristics I've listed in an explicitly male way. Women can be everything I've previously listed and more, but they'll still be that in a clearly female way.I'll try my best and strive towards a more perfect picture of myself though, even if I completely lack such a picture in my mind. I struggle to imagine any version of myself that's not depraved and grotesque
>>42321585>you can’t connect with trans people or cis peoplethis isnt true, if you arent trans then you should be able to connect with cis people with enough effort. youre one of them after all>I killed myself long ago and this transition is just an epilogue of that suicidal, killing my name and body for nothingits okay youre just cis noncomforming and theres nothing wrong with that nobody "kills" their name thats not a thing. you can just exist and theres that. and even if thats not what you are and youre lying to yourself about being cis, then all you have to do is accept that too. theres limits to what a transition can do and some are more lucky while some are not. doesnt make you any less of a woman though. in fact, one wouldnt have to put too much effort into being a woman because as long as you know youre one then you are one (trust me, this is coming from someone whos 100% sure shes a cisgender woman!)
>>42322374Bed rot work and suck dick
>>42322882Idk why but this makes me feel awful
>>42322645I wish this was true it prolly is for tgat anon but I’m just fake
>>42322404Op is male thenHe says so
>>42322156you should remain a guy because the human brain is not simply computer hardware running arbitrary softwareevery cell of your body is male, your brain developed in a male's body - your thinking is patterned male - and you are almost certainly a confused autist who will inevitably become lifelong reliant on pharmacy, albeit for a much shorter average span than normal people.the people who tolerate and even valorize your charade are, ostensibly, mentally ill, and are only your allies so long as you continue to drink the kool aid.i say this with no hate in my heart. it is terribly sad what has befallen you, and others like you. i hope you wake up and find the courage to step into the world as what you are, despite whatever demoralization campaign has had its boot on your neck.
>>42322156Read research on trannies. Its kinda undeniable empirically and the intersex brain part holds somewhat true.
>>42322930See I don't even suck dick you're doing fine
>>42323295STILL MALE
>>42321585im the same thing op. wanna be friends? doesnt fix anything but itll be less lonely
>>42321585Post tits if you want attention so bad. Ass too