Breasts are such a crapshoot that it guarantees I could never get on e. It's at best an overcorrection. I could never risk a situation like picrel because trust I am irreversibly male in face. My dysphoria's bad enough to be severely depressing. I just want to be an androgynous twink like in the sad cartoons I watch but that won't happen. I don't think there's a realistic solution and if there is it'll take too long to get to it. I'm 75% on just ending it before any hrt desu.
>>42328003you can either make 0% progress or ?% progress, it's up to you
>>42328339You say this like being on E with breasts is more than 0% progress. It's not. If anything it's a step backwards.
>>42328003>I am irreversibly male in faceffs exists>I just want to be an androgynous twinkaging is real. You can't be that forever, but you can be for much longer on hrt.>>42328339 is correct. You can have 0% progress or non-zero% progress.>it'll take too long to get to itPatience is a virtue. Also, that "long" is getting longer each they you procrastinate instead of grabbing life by the balls.Also, procrastinating while on hrt cuts some of the potential losses.>t hrtfemboy procrastinating fully trooning out
>>42328394>ffs existsbreasts are guaranteed to come before that>aging is real. Another reason to give up before it all goes to shit. Why would I live a life that will never be mine where the only way to make it mine is an overstep that would also not satisfy me? Imagine a fisherman fishing for swordfish in a landlocked lake. Would you tell him to keep fishing or go to the ocean? The ocean is me giving up. >Patience is a virtue. Also, that "long" is getting longer each they you procrastinate instead of grabbing life by the balls.I'm 22 years old and I have at least 10+ years of hell to go through. I make music but it's not very good. The world doesn't care and never will. And when I get through the tunnel? I'll be what, in my 30s? The light will already be severely dim, some of my trans friends will have surely killed themselves by now and I'll have what? Lifelong trauma to continue pushing through. It's pointless.>Also, procrastinating while on hrt cuts some of the potential losses.This is at least, somewhat life-affirming.
>>42328520demon post
>>42328520>I'm 22 years oldlmao, i'm sorry but please remember this in like a decade
>>42328394Also I'm not severely bothered by being an older woman, it's just that I'm guaranteed to look like a man with tits before I do. I'd like to be androgynous and youthful until I decide not to but estrogen would never guarantee that. Most people in my family become sad and foolish in their old age. I don't think I can escape that by just being trans basically. I can't work against any of the natural inclinations of the world, but it's core to my being that I would have to. I don't think I was meant for this world.
>>42328520Then go kill yourself since you're so deadset on doing it. Either stop being a coward and take hold of your life, or kill yourself since you really REEEAlly can't think of any other solution. You'll learn to bear the brunt of the world one day, straighten out your back.
>>42328554>estrogen would never guarantee thatThere are no guarantees in life, jesus fucking christ.Even roping is no guarantee (though it is guaranteed that if you survive you will not attempt again).Nobody is guaranteed to get anything. But one thing is guaranteed: You get absolutely nothing if you don't try.You miss 100% of the chances you don't take.
>>42328561>>42328575Man I'm trying to work up to it. Would you tell a slave living through genocide to continue trying? If you knew 100% that you were destined to spend the rest of your life in slavery would you continue doing it? It's been hard to work myself up to it. If I had just an instant death button like a father's gun it would've been done by now. I don't even have the right pills. I tried walking to a sufficiently high bridge near me but I turned around. The pussy I am. No sound was made once again nobody cared lol. I have no sanctity in myself, I never get what I want. All this because I looked at some gay porn when I was 15 lol.
>>42328601BPDemon post
This is the OP. I am going to bed now and this thread will probably not survive the night. I feel like I have gotten people interested in my suicidal thoughts, I have seen posts like this before where the OP stops posting and you become anxious about what the hell happened to them? Did they finally do it? That type of shit. So I'm telling you that I didn't. I would like to tell you that I'd get better but I have promised and said that a thousand times to loved ones and friends but they never did. I'll probably wake up as anxious and miserable as I did the day before, but I won't be dead. Sorry again. Goodnight.
>>42328601>All this because I looked at some gay porn when I was 15 lol.Nm, keep living little nigga this is the funniest shit youu could have ever said lol
