>>42329050
Are you retarded? You have PEOPLE SUPPORTING YOU and messaging you, they obviously care. You owe it to yourself to get your ass up and transition again. What did you even fuck up? Detransitioning previously? Yeah, but you can’t change that now. You can only start HRT again and keep it up TODAY.

>>42329050
Cute

>>42329050
wow, you're legitimately stupid.
>i ran a race and got first place
>should i run backwards to the starting line?

>>42329050
>hate being a man
>try to transition so i am no longer a man
>repressoid tulpa of john malcovitch or some other random male celebrity says no so i have to go bald

go to therapy so you dont reset your progress agaib

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>>42329065
I'm way too old now to transition well I think, I think I have to, but I'm scared. even when I first started (19ish) I was too old for how my genetics are, now I'm late 20s lol. Unfortunate thing about repressing hard is it means you never mentally progress because you're constantly masking as something you're not and terrified it will all come crumbling down.

Most of my best friends are very typical dudebro masc sports guys (i'm the token flamboyant gay guy I guess) except for a few women friends and 2 gay dudes and the idea of making them play pretend and explain this stuff to them is making me feel sick
>>42329067
i guess, somebody else deserves it
>>42329086
story of my life, incredible things always happen to me but I fumble them and self destruct often. i literally detransitioned initially because i started getting mistaken for a woman and it scared me
>>42329088
therapy never seemed to stick for me but maybe itd be a good idea just to force myself to talk about it outloud to somebody

>>42329050
Honestly I feel bad, having to explain transitioning to normies is terrible, I hate them. It's perfectly normal to be scared.

>>42329065
Most normies do not actually support trans people, they believe they do because that's what they've been taught is the moral thing to do but once they realise there is no real consequence to transphobia they might throw OP under a bus. Like, she should transition anyways but let's not fool ourselves.

>everyone I know... hello... I require newpo pronouns
>me need new pronouns
>me me me me me

I'd groan
You're so brave
So strong

Unless your friend hemisphere is full of people discovering identities every annual quarter and this is normal behavior

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>>42329140
>me me me me me
yes, I am a self-hating narcissist and very self obsessed.
>Unless your friend hemisphere is full of people discovering identities every annual quarter and this is normal behavior
no it's full of turbo normies, hence the fuck up

>>42329104
>therapy never seemed to stick
>my learned helplessness made me be annoying
ok

>>42329167
>my learned helplessness made me be annoying
no thats the probably autism

>>42329050
>wrote a big letter to myself begging myself to transition even if I don't feel like it
sounds like some kind of DID fuckery

>>42329104
>>42329157
You sound lovable and nice, just miserable because of your current state

>>42329210
Or just any other kind of dissociative disorder. Really common for trannies because growing up dysphoric often leads to dissociation simply to survive.

>>42329180
im autistic you ODD shitbag. DO THE WORK

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>>42329246
sorry :(, probably therapy didn't stick because I'd usually avoid the gender issues and so I spent every therapy session playing it close
>>42329225
thanks anon, I think I used to be but the last few years I've turned in to a pretty bitter, self obsessed person that uses others. Hopefully I can improve that.
>>42329235
>>42329210
I do have a lot of issues with dissociation but not DiD as far as i know

anyway so im not just using this as a way to talk about my favourite topic (how miserable and cool i definitely am like a tranny dostoevsky character)

does anybody have any advice on discussing this stuff with people close to you? I was really fucked up when I sent my messages and I barely remember what they say and I'm terrified to even look but I imagine my friends will have a lot of questions (though its been a running joke forever that i'm trans so desu it might not actually be that shocking)

>>42329050
You need to do damage control and say that you aren't actually trans and just were really drunk and said things that just came to mind, but aren't actually trans. You fucked up

I sometimes tell people that i used to want to be a woman when i was younger and they usually think of it as a neat factoid.

>>42329050
Take your injections nona......the damage is done. Enjoy your new life, there is no going back now.

>Listen friends, I was really drunk, I meant what I said, but I'm just really confused. Please bear with me in this strange time and I appreciate your love and support. I wouldn't dream of changing my relationship with any of you and it would break my heart to lose any of you as friends. But if you can't deal with this or with me, I understand and wish you the best of life. I don't know what the future holds for me but I thank all of you for being there for me....it means more than you will ever know. Love, [your name]

>t. OP

you're welcome OP
NOW GO TAKE YOUR MEDS

>>42329297
>does anybody have any advice on discussing this stuff with people close to you
If you must do that then be completely honest. Set your fear aside and say the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Any lies or omissions from your narrative is what will trip you up. Most normal people will tell you to shut up at some point so expect that you will have to stop talking abruptly before you are ready and that will suck for you. Be careful who you talk to. You should feel the need to talk to them specifically and they must be willing to let you speak.