am i a bad person for feeling a deep need to just immediately kill myself or go back to self harming because of this>first week back at uni>transfem>pass well enough no one rly gives me second guesses and i get gendered fem 99% of the time>albeit i dont voice train cause im retarded so im clocky in that aspect but most people assume im just a theyfab for some reason cause of it>sitting by myself in one of my classes, in walks another transfem much clockier than me not that im trying to be mean>introductions go around, moment i open my mouth they dart their attention to me>deep hallow pit opens in my stomach>rest of class i just feel like total shit>as im making my way to leave after all is said and done she makes a b-line for me making me feel even more like shit>just try and keep casual conversation as i find my fastest way out of the building>get back to my car and feel a deep carnal need to just shove a rusty razor against my throatim not even trying to be mean cause i get the desire to have other trans friends but something about being so obviously picked out like that puts a deep desire in my chest to just fucking kill myselfif said person in question is reading this btw i promise im not being mean nor do i look down on you in any way im just a deeply self conscious, retarded, and depressed bitch
you do look down on them though. that's why it bothers you so much.at least be honest about it. i mean, i guess it's ego dystonic, so that's something.
>>42333383>transfem>dont voice trainwhy do people who call themselves that always have the most masculine voices imaginable? voice training is not that hard to do
wow
>>42333383>be me mtf>reading OP's post>transfem>doesn't voice train>hmm I wonder if she will get into an incident because she's a lazy stupid bitch who didn't voice train>...>yup wowFUCKING VOICE TRRAIN, PROBLEM SOLVED
