This isn't what was supposed to happen. I knew it would, but I hoped it wouldn't.I never wanted to feel reverse dysphoria. I wanted to be able to enjoy the effects of estrogen.But now, I constantly feel as if my skin is melting off and I'm constantly in a state of panic because of the effects.I really don't want to be a man, but it's what I always was and always will be. My regular dysphoria was fake from the very beginning.I cannot ever be a woman, simply because my very own brain refuses it against my will.I really hate, really despise being a cis man, but I will need to accept it.
>>42338649please talk to an actual professional about this
>>42338684I would if the waitlists weren't so fucking long. For now I really don't know what to do but despair
>>42338649>he thought he could escape his self-loathing by becoming someone elseMany such cases.
>>42338816That's definitely a big part of it, but I also genuinely thought I wanted to be a woman and hated being a man. Unfortunately and apparently that's not actually the case ig
>>42338649This doesn't sound like dysphoria but a bad reaction to E. Take antihistamines. What's your dose?
>>42338965My dose was 5mg of EEn per week, but I upped my last dose to 7mg to make sure it actually suppresses my testosterone.I know it doesn't sound like reverse dysphoria because I don't actually want to be a man, but right now it really feels like I extremely dread the effects of hrt and looking more like a woman
>>423389977mg is a crazy high dose desu just up back down to 5
>>42339002I will in case I won't stop taking hrt outright. I've basically been bedbound since my last dose
>>42338720You could turn your despair into art
>>423389977mg is intense i've been trans for years and i currently take 2mg 3 times a day(6mg), although now i'm not sure what to do, because it seems like i've been recently cursed with hematospermia, i'm waiting to see a doctor about it, so right now i'm just going off vibes on figuring out what it is
>>42339048Oral and injection doses don't really line up tbhon.
>>42339056it probably could have worked if i just took it sublingually
>>42338684Therapists are useless and help with nothing
>>42338997Lower that dose, nona! you're gonna fry your receptors like this!!!
