After highschool while I was a teenager still repressing my homosexuality and cared about what my family members thought of me I signed up for active duty military and now almost 3 years later Id give anything to go back and live life as a college fag working at starbucks or something. I think about failing a drug test somehow or transitioning to national guard so I can be happier. But for now I'm surrounded by greasy manlets while living in a foreign country about to be deployed to waste more months of my youth
>>42351917I'm sorry anon, if it makes you feel better the military actually helps a lot of repressed and autistic guys find themselves and figure out who they want to be. Also I repressed until my late 20s, so sometimes this type of thing happens to civilians. Just spend your time there figuring out exactly what you want to do when you get back!
>>42351917Also..... let's hear the details...How did you figure out you're gay? Are you fully gay or just bi? Have you come out to anyone? Are you a top, bottom or verse? Do you have romantic boundaries crushes or just rabid gay lust?
>>42351917cant you at least become the platoon sissy cumdump? put your time to good use
>>42351966The moment I get back to america Im searching for a husband or atleast a boyfriend, I cant stand the locals here (mainly their accents) and it made me appreciate american men so much more
>>42352049I cant deny that Im not actually fully homosexual I am still attracted to women, just dont really want to fuck them. I dont really like saying Im bi though because I dont really want to live my life with a woman. But ive been repressing my sexual urges since I was in middle school atleast. I only want to bottom and want to live in a romantic relationship with a man I love and havent lost my virginity. I havent come out to anyone and imo the concept of feeling like you have to come out is homophobic but people suspect me a lot, one time someone straight up asked me infront of like 3 of my coworkers if I was gay and I just gave an ambiguous answer because I dont see how I can benefit at all from letting people like them know Im gay. Most of them are pretty chill with me at this point though especially the people taller than me I noticed are the kindest to me on average
>>42352250Its not homophobic to expect yourself to come out. Being out helps your life, makes sure the friends you have like the real you, makes it easier to find a partner, makes your life more stable.And yeah if you think women are attractive but are romantically comitted to men that's pretty gay in my book.
