I transitioned because i believed sissy faggot humiliation was the punishment I deserved for being male. My feminity is actually a performative farce to mock masculinity. I believe that by imitating women and hatefucking men I serve the goals of feminism. For me, having (anal) sex with men is a brutal, humiliating degrading act because I'm being conquered by another male, and I hope to provide some messure of entertainment and smug satisfaction by trying as hard as I can to be female while still being uglier than cis women, and voluntarily going through all the misogyny and comp het they were forced to endure. For me gender is irrelevant since my gender ID entirely consists of a slut humiliation fetishist.For me, transitioning is an irresistible fetish to become weaker, smoother, softer, and more dumb and docile. It's also an erotic punishment i want to inflict on myself for the sins that men have inflicted on women, and i hope to help bring about the end of the male gender entirely. I specifically deserve this punishment because I had indecent thoughts about women and masturbated to them too much, cementing my status as a loser beta and making me fit for castration and feminization. I also see myself as a corrupted vessel and worshipper of satan.
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>>42352484Was this inevitable / the only path for you to take?Or do you believe that if you had a healthy social and sex life before transition, you could've stayed a man?I relate to your experience in that, while I've only been on HRT for 3 months so far, I am now sure that my dysphoria is AGP-induced, i.e. largely fetishistic, with me wanting to perform exaggerated femininity in styling and submissive behaviour, but without really having a feminine mind and soul.But I still think that if I stop now, I have a chance to live life as a successful, albeit sexually unsatiesfied man.So, do you think that kind of life would've been an option for you? Or was trooning the only option?
>>42352484woooooh feettldr but i transitioned to become the best version of myself, anything sexual wasn't rly involved for me
>>42352484Finally an honest tranny
>>42352667So, real talk but: there is no feminine mind and soul, read Judith butler, performance and performativity, gender trouble, also whipping girl by Julia Serano is good.I had a "successful" life as a man, I had a job, dated women, etc. I resisted my descent into tranny fetishism as long as I could and I kept trying to bargain to hold on to my masculinity. First I was a "womanizer," then I realized I liked the symbolic idea of a woman more than the real thing. Then I felt i was homosexual (at least i still wasn't a tranny) then i realized i wanted to be a feminine homosexual. It was a vicious cycle because once you wilingly act feminine around other men you're on a one way slippery slope. I tried to cope by telling myself I was a sissy fetishist, but of course at that point you're essentially at rock bottom. I finally admitted defeat and submitted to my fate of being a lateshit hon, I took estrogen and asked to have my balls removed. It smoothed out my libido and gave me control, but it was still intense. By that point I just felt regret for every thinking I could be a man and wasting the time of my girlfriends, not was bitter. I wouldn't recommend repressionThere is no escaping these AGP cravings long term. You've already acknowledge you want to be submissive and want to perform feminity. That means these thoughts broken out of your subconscious and begun penetrating your conscious mind, and between this and the estrogen, your identify is now being reshaped around these principals. It will only go in one direction now, making you yield more and more. The collar is around your neck and it isn't coming off. I have met some people who tried some form of detransition, usually after 4+ years on E and feeling dissatisfied with their looks. But none of them actualy went off E for longer than 2 months. All of them quickly started doing a man moder cope and eventually all of them retransitioned.
>>42352739The best version of yourself is on your knees gagging on cock.
>>42353033meowbe, but only if it's girlcock
>>42353008This all sounds demonic. Like I was born or raised to be cursed, forced to either lose the masculinity I appreciate and respect to feel sexually and physically content, or live in constant physical dissatisfaction, but content with my social role and masculine personality.It's like the "incongruence" never goes away, only does a 180.
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