Rope edition>QOTT: Have you ever caved to suicidal thoughts?>QOTT2: How many times have you been in the psych ward?Last: >>42321643
why aren't i strong enough
if you were strong you would let yourself date men and act girly without taking estrogen
fuck off gincel let me be sad in peace
you arent trans you just think you need to be different because you are traumatized and need to be loved
i've accepted that i will kill myself whenever life crosses the threshold of misery that makes it completely unbearable. it may be this year, it might be in another. right now i'm only too sheepish to kill myself, but it should be a matter of time.
>>42356192perfect edition for gincel who's already hereqott: nah i've cut but never really deep enough to countqott2: zero actually i'm pretty functional which i think is how i ended up repping
>>42356192I don't want to sound creepy or to be mean but I would really like to hear from a repper about their "penis envy". Why they want one, what they would do with it. Anything on their mind about that and their lack of. Thank you.
>>42356339im an mtf repper and i have penis envy because i would like to be a transbian with a huge penis
>>42356349i want to be a transbian with a gf who has a huge penis
>>42356349I'm not using "penis envy" as the size comparing fetish. But more like having a vag and wanting to have a penis instead.
what's wrong with using your penis with other men?
>>42356366wrong thread then, this is for big strong men who want to be dainty flowers only, you wanna mosey on over to femrepgen
>>42356366unfortunately femrepgen is dead so we'll never know
>>42356366from my understanding most femreppers view having a pussy and pregnancy as some kind of body horror, like having a facehugger put a chestburster inside you
>>42356382>>42356384Is repgen XY penis-having only?>>42356396I kinda get vagina envy sometimes -_-"Sounds hot
are you obsessed with gender roles? why does it matter if a space for repressors is male or female only?
>>42356427>>42356437not like it has to be but they've had the separate thread in the past so
>>42356437reppers of different types are not good at interacting with each other>i hate being masculine>FUCK YOU I WISH I WAS MASCULINE>FUCK YOU I WISH I WASN'T
>>42356445I thought about going to /ftmg/ but I don't want to sound like a chaser or to be mean to them.
>>42356437what the other reply said: we walk past women in the real world and get intense bouts of jealousy, so what do you think will happen when we come across women in spaces like this, who not only have the XX chromosomes we wish we were born with, but actively want them swapped with our vile XYs?
>>42356192>QOTT: Have you ever caved to suicidal thoughts?Nope.>QOTT2: How many times have you been in the psych ward?In the ward, never.At the psychiatric facility, several times during the process of getting officially diagnosed with GD.I'm very functional. I don't seem to have any other disorders. But this was eating up way too much of my brain. Now it's slowly getting better.I'll probably lose my repper card by the end of this decade. But I'll be glad when/if that happens.
>>42356192Once and once.
>>42356192No, I'm too much of a wimp when it comes to pain.
A lionA rawrThe lion does not fear dysphoriaThe lion does not care for feminist indoctrinationThe lion merely ROARSIT IS THE MASCULINE SPIRITAnd it reasonates within meI WILL WIN.I WILL ROARI AM A LION
>>42356615please don't type anything like this again <3
>>42356615i will roar like a lioness
>>42356690I AM A LIONYOU CANNOT SILENCE MEMY ROAR IS TOO STRONG, TOO LOUD, TOO MASCULINE TO BE SILENCEDLIKE MY VOICE IT BOOMS OUTAND THE TRANNY THOUGHTS ARE REPELLEDSOL INVICTUS IS WITH ME ROAAAAAR>>42356743IF YOU ARE A WOMAN THAN THAT IS TRUEI AM A MAN, I ROAR LIKE A KINGA LION KINGA KING OF LIONS
>>42356773how you look saying this shit
>>42356781NO I LOOK LIKE THIS
>>42356773You are lionessAn impotent penisless lioness that will never get to penetrate and fuck my ass.
>>42356790let me shave off that nasty mane, my beautiful bride
>>42356792I AM A MANI HAVE A PENISIT IS NOT VERY BIG BUT IT IS A COCKTHAT IS WHY I AM A MANI HATE USING IT SO OF COURSE I WOULD NOT FUCK YOU>>42356796I WILL BITE THAT HAND OFFI AM NOT YOUR BRIDEI WILL BE A GROOM ONE DAY FOR A VERY BEAUTIFUL LIONESS
>>42356773i just think you'd do better putting literally anything else in this box. only up from here!
>>42356812no you're a kitty girl :3
i went on twitter again and looked at the profiles of trans girls that passed pre hrt and are artists and DJs and wear cool clothes and know every cool tranny and have fun every day
>>42356852YOU ARE JUST SCARED OF MY MASCULINE LION KING ENERGY>>42356861No I am fucking not NO I AM FUCKING NOTTAKE IT BACKFUCK YOU You don't know me
>>42356928kitty girl kitty girl you're a cute kitty cat girl you go meowmeowmeow purrrr :333
>>42356934THE POWVR OF SOL INVCTUS REPELS YOU
>>42356964kitty loves the sun
>>42356964
>>42356971I AM FUCKING KINGNOT A KITTY>>42356972It isn't even March STUPID
>>42356615Good to see you still posting nonny.
>>42356972god i wish that were me
>>42356972>MarchTime to get into heat >:3
>>42356192I’m too weak and too much of a pussy to actually attempt suicide even though I want to die. I’ve thought about finding a way to put my life in danger needlessly so I can die without actually needing to murder myself.
>>42356192QOTT: No. There are some people irl who rely on me, and I'd feel like too much of a jerk leaving them.QOTT 2: No, but I like the way >>42356313 put it. I feel like if you're a repper, you're functional. How fucked up you are is buried deep enough that it's not concerning enough for others, even if they can see it.>>42356615ywnbal>>42356972March comes in like a lion but goes out like a lioness?
>>42356964Friendly trivia fact that the sun is considered feminine in Germanic and Japanese polytheistic religion.
>>42356192I attempted last month noose broke, my discord friends forced me in to VC afterwards, after I asked them who wants dibs on what stuff I'll leave behind.
>>42356192Yes. Multiple times. all failed, because they were when I was young. I won't fail again. I have everything ready.Only once.
>>42357318Don't nonny.
>>42357328It's alright! I think I've kinda made up my mind for the most part. I'm only kinda sticking around because I have some things I need to do, and then I'll go.Hows things for you?
amazingly i havent attempted suicide yet but i have wanted to many timesmy life is so so little, literally nothing happens, if i could just make something happen i wouldnt need to die
>>42356615Semper fi!
>>42357086>feel like if you're a repper, you're functionalThis desu.I'm in a state of constant misery but i'm unable to bend and break(even though i would love to.)I'm involuntarily sane which i bet should be a condition in its own right but the symptoms make diagnosis a bit difficult.Basically if you threw a guy into a PoW camp and he was completely fine after 4 years of ballsack torture then the guy couldn't have been normal to begin with. Idk how else to put it but i've seen normies lose their shit and completely spiral after like 2 months of no social contact meanwhile i'm at 7 years and still going strong.
What's a good starter cope for somepony who's just getting into excruciating senseless suffering
>>42357978port wine is cost effective
>>42357978>someponykys
>>42357994be nice
>>42357998Not this time >:(
>>42358005brony lives matter
>>42357988i can whinny and neigh all i want as long as i don't post pics /)
>>42357941Damn anon I've been in that exact place where I was just begging to be able to give in and have a mental breakdown but it just wouldn't come.
fuck bros I hate my life. I already look like a tranny because I am androgynous, that's why I want to troon, I feel like it might finish off the femininity I already have and make me look less uncanny. I can't grow old as a man, imagine you have face of woman, and then go bald. What am I supposed to do I unironically look like foid with beardshadow already.
>>42357978pregabalin hits the spot
AM I THE ONLY PERSON TO WANT TO TROON BECAUSE OF SOCIAL CONDITIONING?! FUCK IF I NEVER LOOKED LIKE A FOID IN THE FIRST PLACE I PROBABLY WOULDN'T EVEN BE HERE
2016 was 10 years ago, looked at pics from 2016 because everyone’s doing it. Bad idea
>>42358252Is it penis envy?
Poof! Wish granted. Youre female now. But when you wake up and look in the mirror, everything is mostly the same. Same apartment, same job, same face, same hairstyle and clothes. The only things that changed are that you have a vagina now, you're 10 inches shorter and your features are more androgynous. You basically look like your hypothetical female twin if she became FTM or butch.How do you feel?
>>42358350>how do you feelvery happyI would definitely grow out my hair and stuff though
>>42358350Penisless and frustrated >:(
>>42358350how 'hypothetical female twin' are we talking? because mine would at least have a decent pair of tits given family historythe only major issue though would be height, since the women in my family are also very short, and I'm one of the shortest men, so being 10" would literally put me teetering on bonafide midget status just a hair below simone biles
>>42358350I would be extremely happybeing gender dysphoric is painful
>>42356349Doesn't e make you dick not work. I would feel guilty wasting my 7 incher
>>42358489maybe the gender dysphoria isn't real
>>42358350Being 5"2 would be annoying as hell, periods would suck, and id probably experience reverse dysphoria. Might be less painful though, probably would be happier
3 years of non transitioning hrt, feels pretty bad but at least i dont have much of a libido anymore
Do your daily affirmation.
>>42358350i would cry with happiness. this is everything i’ve ever wanted. i get to keep my family and friends and job and whatever else the same but i don’t have to do it in this giant, moided fuckass body. i probably wouldn’t stay presenting burch long term though and slowly ease into more feminine styles over time and i wouldn’t look like a freak show because i’d actually be a woman with woman proportions and jfc id actually date, and try to have a family, and a future
>>42358557wait same face my face is moided af that won’t work
>>42358570your features are just more androgynous now, some kind of the same face i assume
>>42358587would kms on the spot if it meant i would reincarnate like this. on. the. spot.
>>42358607well, you wont
i hate hypotheticals because they get you thinking about impossibilities. like the man in the desert seeing mirages of havana. just let a nigga prune out in peace and retvrn to the sand.
>>42358350Bad. I'd rather just be a regular dude, nglt. bearded andro dwarf
>>42358252thats a good way to be, much better than wanting it because you socialised your faggot brain into wanting it despite looking like a monster.
>>42358350i wouldnt like it, i dont want to be female, i just wanna be feminine
It is just me or are trans women in italy very few compared to even latin america or eastern europe? (I live in the deep south and in a dead place)Ftms and theyfabs are more common weirdly enough
>>42358805You're joking, right?Italy has almost as many transwomen per capita as Colombia or Brazil.It's just that Italian MTFs are not as loud or clocky. Also quite a few live in France.Meanwhile, theyfabs (like everywhere else) are loud, clocky and annoying kek.
>>42358938I barely see them online in italian spaces both normie ones and more nerdy anglo-like ones, but the leader of my competitive Smash Bros group is a transbian early in transition in a relationship with an alternative/punk tgirl from Puglia (I'm from Messina, well, the rural province of the city). There's also two more in our group, but one is a theyfab-adjacent AGP not on hrt yet and a more normal one that I'm not exactly sure is straight/bi or shappic.The more nerdy AGP/autistic ones are a minority among normie HSTSs tho, for both good and bad
>>42359132>I barely see them onlineYou basically agreed with me.The divide among trannies isn't clocky vs nonclocky (or passoid vs nonpassoid) but functional vs non-functional.The functional ones aren't online that much.I have a relative in Puglia, heh. She would have a heart attack if she'd learn I'm a tranny.>t. Romanian repper(-ish)
>>42359132>The more nerdy AGP/autistic ones are a minority among normie HSTSs tho, for both good and badagps trans less in less affluent places, hussies the rate probably stays the same
>>42358533Not having a libido is nice. I still hate doing HRT injections though, I to jab myself quickly and I felt the skin tearing as I pushed the needle through it, unpleasant. All this to still look like a retarded moid.
>>42359367Try coughing at the same time, it distracts your nerves
>>42357343:(
>>42359524I feel like coughing would cause movement that would make it difficult cause I do subq in the stomach area.
im genuinely not trans im just ugly and am suicidal because of it and need to do something that might help so i dont self harm or worse. anyone else like this? my ideal body would be a lean twink with a pretty face, not a girl, definitely not a chimera tranny that i currently am. i am in hell and i deserve it
>>42358350Ecstatic? I'm not running off of high expectations here.
>started hrt in Dec 2024>this board tells me it's useless anyway>start feeling better by May>obviously no pass>malefail mostly by accident twice in September>still no pass>last week and early this week malefails at least once a day>yesterday malefails most of the day>today malefails the entire dayfuck, fuck, fuck.I was told it would take years. This board is soooo fake.I should be happy now but I'm mostly anxious. I know rationally that I should get ready to girlmode but I thought I had more time.
>>42356192take your HRT, retards
>>42360406I did.But I'll also have to surrender my repper card.
>>42360403you don't sound like a repper. why are you posting this in repgen>>42360406no <3
>>42360475>you don't sound like a repperI wanted to get troony thoughts out of my head but was firmly convinced I'd never pass and that it's all over since I'm "old" (I'm 26).And i believed that and went into hrtrepping.Turns out it's not quite like that.I'll hand my repper card at the exit once I girlmode.
>>42360403post measurements just to make sure you're not a secret luckshit giving us fake hope pls
>>42360686I probably am a luckshit and my head prevented it from accepting.I'm 170cm tall, chest 85cm, waist 77cm, hips 95cm.I thought (and still do think) my ribcage is clocky and my face is terrible. But Ig I gotta work with what I have. Could've been far worse, now I'm aware.
>>42358350>10 inches shorterTime to kill myself, I wouldn't be able to live as a 4'8 midget
>>42360749these seem pretty average with the exception of your height. god i wish i were 170cm tallt. 185cm colossus
>>42360540some of us are not delusional faceblind autists, we know if we'd pass or not before starting
>>42360775>with the exception of your heightMy dad is 171cm and my mom is 166.Median height for adult males in my country is 175 so I'm kinda short but not that short.So... not quite a luckshit. But certainly not bad either.I gotta admit I'm a bit terrified of all of this. But this day felt really good too.I'm a technician (I basically fix shit at home for plebs). Being addressed in the feminine all day by people who never saw me before was... something.Countries with a gendered language means there's a referendum on passing every single day and minute.I'm kinda scared but this is what I signed up for, ig? Idk, I still haven't put order into my thoughts.
>>42360798that's mean. I took a risk.Even if i'd never pass, the troony thoughts no longer messing with my brain 10hrs/day was already worth it.
>>42360403congrats. you’re gonna make it. won’t lie and say i’m not jealous af because i am but happy for you too. those who make it it doesn’t take too long like for you,the it takes years is honcope for ppl who aren’t gonna make it a la “just a bit longer”.how old are you? will you get american ffs ?
nvm i saw your other replies and it answered
>>42360849I already said I'm 26.I'll probably go to Spain for ffs (I'm European). That is if I end up needing it. I think I do, but then again I was firmly convinced I'd never pass.I'll let reality be the arbiter of that.Technicians like me are well paid. I have zero debt and some savings so I can afford to take some debt if needed and just get the most quality ffs this continent can offer. The Spanish clinic is specifically aimed at trannies.>you’re gonna make itI hope so. I'm fine hrtrepping and I'd be delighted to make it. Getting stuck in the middle is my nightmare.Wish I had a bf to hug, ngl.Oh well. One at a time.
>>42360834>the troony thoughts no longer messing with my brain 10hrs/day this is what i try and tell all you reppies. the tranny thoughts are not as bad when you are on hrt.
>>42360910>the tranny thoughts are not as bad when you are on hrtYES.It's why I started to begin with, despite being firmly convinced I'd never pass.At least I can work and not be poor.
>>42360834you only took a "risk" because you're mentally handicapped and incapable of determining if you wouldve passed or not
>>42360971Anon, I already accepted I'm mentally handicapped.I take hrt and think of myself as a woman. You can't get more handicapped than that.Try to say something new.
>>42360989then get the fuck out of here, this is the repper thread and you dont belong
>>42360943it really does just help. even though im irreparably moided it helps. idk like i just noticed a few months in that i dont think about it nearly as often. it feels nice :)
>>42360998>this is the repper thread and you dont belong:sob:I will surrender the repper card soon.You guys are so mean.
>>42361032>waah waaahshut the fuck up you waste of air
How do I cope with having a malebrained art style? :c
>>42360403I wish that were me and it could be, but if I was in your situation I would be scared shitless
looked in the mirror after waking up and saw my morning wood in my pantshaving a penis is the most humiliating thing imaginable it's so fucking grotesque
>>42361065just be glad you can draw at all, ive always wanted to but its too late now, its a good skill to have regardless if your style is malebrained or not, could be a lot more malebrained if it makes you feel better
how we doing rep gang! Its friday! That means comfy computer time and oven cook pizza! (no trannies allowed)
>>42361231>how we doing rep gang!wishing i was a loli
>>42361194Drawing is literally the easiest skill for a neet to develop. You're just a whiny retard.
