>ROGDroid>Put myself on diy estrogen to avoid killing myself at 18>Suddenly feel non-dysphoric and my breasts feel gross>Get excited thinking I am cured>Stop taking the estrogen for three weeks>Dysphoria returnsWhy? Why? I want to be normal I want to want to be a man why why why why why
>>42356491take your pills, nona.
>>42356491bbeing normal is not option. troon out.
Gotta make the best of the cards you were dealt
>>42356495I TOOK THEMI AM STILL UPSETI WANT TO FEEL NORMAL AGAIN WHY WAS IT TAKEN AWAY FROM ME I AM CRYING NOTHING IS OKAY>>42356502That's what I am doing >>42356504I should just give up
>>42356514just wait a little bit longer soon
>>42356491ikr, i dont wanna be a man with tits, i dont wanna masculinise. rope is in the future
>>42356491Perhaps it's the mild antidepressant effect of e? Try a subtransitional minimal effective dose maybe?
>>42356529How much longer must I wait to return to the normalcy I felt in my early Highschool yearsHow will I cope with having breasts thenI am so tired of crying, why did I get ROGD? Why did it force me to do this to myself? I don't get it. >>42356539It's so over :(>>42356546I take antidepressants too, I don't think estrogen matters enough to matter for me
>>42356491Did you feel just as bad on estrogen? Or better overall but uncomfortable with boobs?
>>42356684That's the thing, I felt relieved and happy on the estrogen. And then the dysphoria disappeared for awhile, so I felt happier not taking it. Then the dysphoria returned and now I am back on it. It is so confusing and sad. I hate myself.>Or better overall but uncomfortable with boobs?When I am dysphoric, I like having boobs. when I am not, I hate it. I don't get it
>>42356699I’m sorry. It’s really hard feeling disconnected from your body, no matter what’s causing it.I would recommend getting your levels looked at if you start feeling “bad” on it again, just to see if there’s something going on there. Hormones do impact emotions, especially if they’re messed up.I would also try wearing a sports bra, if you haven’t, to see if that makes you feel less overwhelmed by the boobying.In the meantime, I’d really encourage you to try and get some help with the disconnect and self-loathing. If that’s not something you can do right now, looking into coping techniques/exercises for depersonalization or dissociation might help a bit.
