>>42357238
Greentext posts are almost always larping tourists from other sites who just want the screencap.

>>42357259
It reads as the exact type of OCD self-sabotage that makes it kind of believable. But, when that kind of shit happens, why?

>>42357238
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>>42357238

I think this one is 109% real, because i did this exact same shit as a repper. I was with my last gf for almost 3 years. The phrase "the psychological high of being with the correct sex is intensely satisfying" says it all and supplies the whole explanation. If you have very intense internalized homophobia, then you can get this high just from proving to yourself you're a biologically valid male and can reproduce. Luckily in my case I snapped out of it, came out and broke up with my GF.

>>42357516
Would you say that a similar mechanism could be at work for repressing desires to transition / dysphoria?
As in (for MTF), there being a psychological high in performing the "correct gender" (staying male), which then dampens / counteracts the deep unhappiness from repression?

>>42357553

Well in my case, while I did know i was trans and after breaking up I tried to be gay as another cope to avoid transitioning. So I had to come out as trans as a lateshit. I identified as a heterosexual trans woman.

I'm not sure if this is universal but i think that if you are a trans woman who likes men, you can get the same temporary euphoria from "succeeding" with a cis woman. I also felt dysphoric and "wrong" when trying to have gay male relationships as a gay repressor, that is to say, I prefered hetero repression to homo repression because I inherently preferred heterosexuality.

But I don't think it's necessarily a universal experience for trans women. I am very androphilic and extremely keen on bottoming for men so maybe the existential terror of having a submissive sex drive since I was young made the high of escaping it feel better.

>>42357619
Thank you for describing your experience.

However,"succeeding with a cis woman" was not the kind of psychological high (as a coping mechanism to repress mtf trans thoughts) I was referring to.
What I mean, and what keeps me from transition, is that I like the stereotypically male role in society, and the expectations placed upon a man.
As in, I like the competitiveness, the assertiveness that is often expected from and tolerated in successful men, the "pulling myself up by my own bootstraps instead of relying on the pity of others"-mentality.
I have experienced success in that regard, and built my personality and ego around it.
So bottoming as a submissive trans woman is like completely perpendicular to that.

Which leaves me now at the crossroads, of either accepting staying sexually unfulfilled and disliking my body, but staying true to my soul, virtues and mindset.
Or modifying my body by transition, living as a sexually and physically satisfied woman, but experiencing mental conflict because of the ill fitting social role.

>>42357516
why’d you palindrome your reply tags?

>>42357669
Why would you GAF about societal norms. You don't have to be a subby trad wife If you transition. This isn't the 1920's your allowed to pull yourself up by your bootstraps as a woman these days just the same.