All my crushes are immediately so over>share the same birthday>same interests >she was friendly to me in our few interactions at leastok but >met her 2 years ago and have not contacted her since then>deleted her instagram (only avenue I had to contact her)>does she still even live in my small ass town?>Im a repper who will start transition this month>shes probably like 5+ years into hers at least lmaoooo>only person I know who knows her is my friend's ex who she refuses to talk toBut I'm head over heels for her and fantasize about her comforting me every night to fall asleep. Then I realize it will never happen and obsess over how sad it all is for the rest of the day when I wake up. Does e stop this rabid obsession? I just feel so bad. I feel so much shame. I have a lot of friends but I'm still so lonely. I just want someone to comfort me. If I could I would remove the part of my brain that makes me feel love permanently.
>>42362722The one before this was a close friend who though I can't illustrate it here in detail would obviously not be into me. It's just sad.
