> Disgusted by aspects of masculinity when I was a kid> Was fascinated by the concept of feminization, obsessed over it for awhile> Take hormones, no reverse dysphoria> While my reasons felt embarrassingly sexual at first, I enjoyed having my libido completely killed by estrogen> Enjoyed just feeling like a normal woman, not dressing hyperfeminine, just as androgynous as the cis women around (was sometimes gendered as woman by strangers in public despite this too)> Detransition after being guilted by truscum types> "Dysphoria" and disgust doesn't come back> In fact, I fetishize masculinity instead, I am literally turned on by my own arm hair> Still feel like I should retransition despite all the positive feelings around masculinity (status, sexuality, etc.) but I genuinely no longer know why> I literally fantasize about penetrating and impregnating women now despite only being attracted to masculine men> Feel nostalgic for pre-transition potentials for masculinity (boy scouts, etc.)> Externalized misandry also paradoxically gets worse, I am more and more disgusted by certain masculine "vibes"Do I just have a severe personality/identity disorder or am I something else?
Nah, just you.
>>42368039Oh :(
>>42368022final boss of nonbinary
>>42368303Honestly I feel almost TOO binary, like it's completely either or in my brain
