>be me about 3 months ago>severely mentally broken and riddled with zebra stripes>really depressed and takes me longer to do most things>fckn 1am in the mornin at the waterfront park cuddling a girl i matched with on taimi>we both trans>she makes an odd joke about injecting estrogen and essentially asks if a square (i am)> I say that I used to abuse meds and shrooms (both lies)>she follows up with if its okay to take her medication >ok>she takes out a needle and a couple of other things wrapped in something shiny>Im not a complete idiot and can tell its not medication>squeamish but genuinely trying not to care im too afraid of being alone again>were laying in the folded back rows of her car>she isn't looking so good>she asks me if I want to take a hit >INTERNALLY panicking and losing it>I end up agreeing. I feel a real connection with her and i really really dont wanna screw it up>I tell her this is my first time and ask if she could assist me, she gives me a very odd smile and administered it to me>time passes and had an out of body experience watching my date and I holding hands and cuddling; no backlogs of thoughts, stress or anxiety just complete comfort>I end up staying 4 consecutive nights at her place>were both zonked out daily and she keeps calling me a good puppy >every time i follow orders she rewards me with nitrites and cheeze itz>feel warm and fuzzy>tops me several times and calls me her useless mutt>chokes me and stares directly into my eyes as shes nutting in me>we sleep alot and ordering tacobell really late at night>life is worth living again>ffw 6 days >hit her up again asking if shed wanna hang out, no response >text delivered but never read>tfw abandoned, lost all innocence, developed a drug addiction, and a permanent puppygirl mindset all in the same week.Was on course to doing something with my life but now I yearn to be a drug fueled useless pup. Its all I strive to be or want nowadays. End the pain woof woof
>>42369506Not reading all of that but damn, you're gorgeous
>>42369506Yeah she probably overdosed
>>42369506think that's something? wait until you hang out with horse anon you'll forget about her real fast
>>42369506sounds basedin my hometown we girls used to slam poppies down our lungs, like the best you have ever smokednot any opium either, it was fermented for years and the smoke had such a unique smellit would fulfill our rooms and we would be in a opium haze all day long, me and the girls, cuddling and trash talking all day, laying around in this gigantic bed and even on the floor with a nice carpetthen i met a girl at the poppy fields one day, she was enchanting; a little insane but in a good way; she would smoke fresh opium in her pipe like a madwoman, slash pods and latex fresh in the pipe, i was intantly in lovewe spend days in those fields, laying around and smoking fresh latexoh good days. good days...it fucking hurtseverything is grey nowback then, even the sky was bluer, the poppies redder...
>>42369506default human face
>>42369506will never cuddle a corrupted qt and eat her ass
>>42369686no one is that based, i don't believe in you
>>42370019why would i lie bitch?i'm one of the most based girls that have fallen in this trash worldeven more than my exmy girls can't wear my coat better than me... yet
