> too depressed to feel like a woman anymore> too depressed to go out to the store and buy hrt anymore or place orders> feels weird when people call me a woman these days, feels like they're doing it in a "let's play pretend with the mentally ill" way> hate when i get condescended due to looking feminine > actively stopped taking care of my appearance > haven’t brushed hair in weeks, it's waist length so all tangled up, probably beyond salvage> i used to look ethereally pretty, my reflective skin is now gone due to excessive picking, craters of red now infest the face of my making, and i prefer it that way because i don't want to feel like the shit monster from dogma and look like an elf because that's not expressive of my interior> if i associate womanhood with not feeling like absolute shit, i cannot allow myself to look like a woman when i feel like absolute shit and i end up destroying my appearance to resemble anything other than feminine or pretty > i hate women these days, I've gotten misogynistic, i hate the performance of fragility, > those whom the gods seek to destroy, they first drive mad> this is the curse of heavens> likely to join the 40%, might as well hog out and gain too much weight before i kark itI'm going to die in my room. This is it. Oh god. this is how it's going to end.
>>42370475but one must ask oneself why one is fated to be destroyed by the gods. it is oedipus' strength, and his insight, that doom him, rather than his ignorance, or weakness. or achilles, of whom the gods coveted invincible mortality. or semele (ok so admittedly greek myths are not the best examples of this happening to women). and if the gods take the time to drive you mad, you are truly beheld by them, living rent-free in their immortal minds. which is to say: i'm also a shut in. but it sounds like you have to work hard to look like shit, whereas to me it comes quite naturally
>>42370520>>42370520>>42370520My lore is kinda wild, i got doxxed for having high grades cause batchmates claimed i get DEI special treatment from teachers due to being a troon, then i took part in a coup against the government the violence from which left me nerve wrecked, my dad died, right wing influencers started erasing queer victims of the massacre by government so i started sending them death threats cause my tboy friend who took part in the coup died without medical aid, and i got expelled for sending the death threats. And that's all in just the past two years. It's kinda greek ngl
>>42370622It's not greek ig, there's a bunch of shit, it's uhhh shakespearean
>>42370622where the hell are you from? fucking burkina faso? are you talking about fucking traoré? i'm so white and american. i haven't left my house in almost two weeks. how can you expect me to believe this actually happened to you and you survived to be posting on (((4chan))) about it?
>>42370653Not BF, different continent. I can't post on my existing social media because I can't be too pathetic on main, the world's kinda wild man. Americans can find trouble if they look for it too, there are troons out there fighting ICE rn
>>42370653But that's the unreality of it or the tragedy of it yea? You feel like a goddamn hero one moment and the next you're just chewed up
>>42370475>> too depressed to feel like a woman anymorehave you tried feeling like a depressed woman? or is that not sexually arousing enough?
>>42370716I did some risky stuff recently trying to die in the process of doing *something* instead of taking myself out like a pathetic dog but none of them ended up hurting me and I realized the risk associated with those things are exaggerated. I kinda wanted a climactic ending instead of going out with a whimper. Because that makes narrative sense and dying like a 4chan neet doesn’t, but this is what I get at the end anyway
>>42370718It's not about agp bullshit, it's that i don't have a sense of identity or self left
>>42370475dissasociation kills the humani recommend lithium carbonate
>>42370700>>42370716yes well. wherever you're from, your english is far better than traoré's. aber der feigling droht nur wo er sicher ist. i don't look for trouble
