I believe that some people who think of themselves as gender dysphoric are experiencing something similar to what I did. I thought I was dysphoric partly because all of my online friends were, but mostly due to some factors that are not relevant here or even known to me. Most importantly, I felt symptoms, so it really felt real I guess. It took me a long time, many years, until I dared sincerely question this. Throughout those years I had constant feelings of imposter syndrome, but these did not constitute genuine doubt; just fear that somewhere in those feelings I had then identified as gender dysphoria, there was something to actually doubt. Actually not just fear, but unacknowledged knowledge of the fact.Last year I had to make an ultimatum, because I couldn't keep living in gender purgatory. I had my cursor multiple times on the order button of DIY hrt, and in my mind all I felt was imposter syndrome, not genuine doubt, but fear that I had been wrong about being dysphoric all along, and that it would inevitably become obvious to me soon.What made me realize that I was not dysphoric, was when I embraced the imposter syndrome and genuinely asked myself the question. It wasn't over in like a flash, but within maybe a few weeks I realized that for some god damn insane ass reason I had been upholding the belief that I am gender dysphoric for years. My "imposter syndrome" had made me believe that it would somehow be scary and upsetting to realize this. In the end it didn't really feel like anything. I don't care about it any longer.I'm hoping that someone will find this helpful. Don't let your fears hold you back!!! And if you aren't experiencing this or any other kind of faux dysphoria, but real dysphoria instead, then congratulations you have a debilitating illness mental physical whatever whose treatment is shunned by society for some retard reason. I hope things work out for you all....
>>42373625see you in repgen tomorrow!
>>42373687I don't think I have ever posted in repgen. I'm a real case of confused cissoid. Also did I put the title in the name field god damn it
I don't understand. You say you did experience the symptoms of gender dysphoria so why do you think it was not real
>>42373764I think that I had some kind of placebo effect from trying to convince myself I was dysphoric. I did have some pretty "real" feeling symptoms.I don't think I should be asked questions. I have a history of attaching incorrect labels to myself, and every question is fuel for that.I'd wish to hear if anyone else has gone through something similar. I intentionally tried to do away with more personal parts of the story in my post to invite other people's perspectives.
>>42373797I can stop asking you questions if I want but not going to lie this sounds to me like you're trying to simply choose to stop thinking about the fact you might be happier if you transitioned
>>42373851I would be happier if I was a woman. I only sometimes doubt this fact. However I do not believe I have gender dysphoria. I also think that transitioning would simply not be worth it.
>>42373888You asked me not to ask you questions so I will instead just state that I think you will likely regret choosing to not think about all this any further.
>>42373903I think about this a lot, and I don't dogmatically believe in what I posted. But for a year now, the situation hasn't changed. I just don't think I am dysphoric. Like I have no reason to believe I am. This is probably a fairly rare conclusion for an anon on this board to come to, outside of lying reppers of course. And for the record I'm bisexual so I am technically allowed here even though I am cis!!!!
>>42373625I was hoping that this was me so I that could level up into a very empathetic chaser and make a tranny who deserves it happy, but I think I am actually a repper unfortunately
why are you repfags always doing these elaborate mental gymnastics to keep yourself firmly in the closet, trans is not a bad thing to be, it’s okay, just let yourself be
>>42374794Transitioning would be entirely unfeasible for me, so accepting that I'm really trans is basically accepting that I'm doomed to be miserable like this until I die. I do accept that now, because it's the truth, but I hope you can understand why I didn't want to. >t. >>42374701
