joining queer communities has made me feel awful about myself, its all quirky fun neurodivergent artists and creative people, i feel like the only place where i feel like i belong is being a free use hole on grindr and that makes me sad :<<
Nothing stops you from exercizing your creativity, the world would be a better place if everyone used art as some form of expression, no artist worth a thing would deter you, it's so nice seeing someone pouring their soul into something they like.
>>42382374i have the willpower of an ant, i find it immensly easier to find out more elaborate ways to whore myself for maximum gratification then spend a second trying to create something, espacially with all my peers already being at a certain level of competencethe thing that stops me the most is the shame of trying, like how you see someone really unhealthy trying to excersise and some people might make fun of them or judge them for how they got to that point, so instead of facing the shame of trying to better my mistakes,i hide away from the eyes of others, so i cant dissapoint someone if they never saw me try yknow, a bit of a weird way to describe it but you get what i mean
>>42382435Well not really, I don't feel any shame, but I kinda understand what you are feeling, the purpose of art is expressing what's in your soul but if you prefer you can keep it private until you are ready, you could even learn to dance, it's a form of art and it would improve what you are good at, making yourself more desirable is expression too.
>>42382501im not good at it, its just that being youthful atliest gives me some value to some,and i cant ever imagine myself dancing,it just doesnt compute, i would look like a total retard im stiff
>>42382812lmao, youth runs out fast. this is when you need to be developing your personality
>>42382350>artists and creative peopleit's way, way, way better to have a non-creative hobby. people are mindbroken by feeling some need to "produce" things. i'm all about art and beauty but so many artists are the most annoying jerks about this. im not saying sitting around gaming is a better hobby than art but the value attributed to creating SparkleDog#91283174134 on your tablet and uploading it online is vastly oversold.just be the token fitness dork or the book nerd or the comic book/tabletop games autist or something. surely you have some interests to be autistic about?
