>>42384729
>QOTT
no, I'm not ancient
>QOTT2
no, I'm not a gigagooner
and even if I was I'm not stupid enough to pay for things on the internet that I could very easily get for free

being a very feminine gay man is not repression, it's who you really are underneath the lies and trauma

gincel gives me the ick

MAKE ME INTO A GIRL

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thinking of how taf believes transition isnt strictly necessary and how transition brings great hardship and negativity and that some people are probably happy living as either a man or a woman, and how that mirrors my own experience transitioning and why i detransitioned and I feel as though just being my birth sex is what is right for me in life even if i have a much better chance of passing than the average male

>>42384729
>Did you ever subscribe to or buy nudie mags?
Nope, but I remember when I was 10 my father basically tossed his entire collection of playboys at me because he was scared I might be gay. Same year my brother-in-law taught me about internet porn and I had a teacher yell at me for 'acting like a faggot' so apparently everyone had that fear. They failed in stopping me from being bisexual anyway.

>>42384729
Take your HRT, retards!

>>42384837
>taf
You mean that cute chubby gigapassoid who does porn? Bro don't take anything some complete passoid has to say about this shit seriously, they have absolutely no idea what a repper or a hon has to go through in life because this shit was always effortless for them. Her only concern is keeping ugly people out of her community, not your mental health or feelings.

Or you mean someone else entirely and I look like an ass.

>>42384863
it wouldn't work

>>42384729
>QOTT
Nope.
>QOTT2
No. I'm from the piracy era. Except I never left that era. I still pirate everything I want/need in terms of content and that, of course, includes porn.

>>42384764
>>42384876
It boggles my mind that anyone pays for porn online
Of course, I can spend a few minutes browsing r/transtimelines, and then just imagine myself in the loving embrace of a husband, so maybe I'm easier to please than most.

No and no
If i do my eyebrows ill become a passoid
Im not gonna because that will send my mom into another rant

>>42384867
I feel like I relate in that would never be comfortable transitioning regardless of passibility and that I would actually be happy if I looksmaxxed as a man. and that personally I would be happy as either gender

>>42384837
it makes me seethe incredibly hard when naïve youngshits who never actually experienced the alternative say shit like this, a week in repperhell would kill them
>i detransitioned and I feel as though just being my birth sex is what is right for me in life even if i have a much better chance of passing than the average male
if someone said this to me irl I would actually snap and quite probably blow my head off in front of them no joke
you had something I would sell my soul for and threw it away, you didn't deserve it

>>42384895
Exercising and trying to improve my looks just made me want to transition harder personally desu.

>>42384887
>r/transtimelines
That sub convinced me to try.
IDK if I'm gonna make it, but it was the final push to at least try.

>>42384895
>I would actually be happy if I looksmaxxed as a man. and that personally I would be happy as either gender
That's what I believed too. Then started doing it. Now I'm shooting E, lol.

I want this to be over

all of you need to get the fuck out of my thread right now

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>>42384927
yeah but ive grown more appreciation for hot guys. so it wouldn't be me trying to be ultra masculine. it would be trying to appeal to women's romantic fantasies. basically a pretty boy with a certain masuline edge.
>>42384948
ive shot up E in the past but it didn't make my life any better, and came with very real negatives

the repper urge to beat your massive man skull against your desk really hard

>>42385082
>and came with very real negatives
Such as?
>but it didn't make my life any better
Only a month in. The troony thoughts are no longer that intense. So far so good.

>>42385082
>>42385111

>>42384964

>>42385124
I'll fuck off when I'll be a girl.

>>42385175
YWNBAR

>>42384837
ironically only an agp youngshit with mild dysphoria would say something like this. Taf is the poster child for ugly nerd male -> twinkshit pipeline.

I was going to not drink for this whole weekend but actually fuck that

going to jerk off to trans porn to hurt my feelings

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>>42385225
the fucking store close to me is closed damnit
I'm scared to drive long distances since I haven't eaten anything for a couple days and feel weak with slow reaction time but fuck it I guess

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>>42385124

>>42385223
>Taf is the poster child for ugly nerd male -> twinkshit pipeline
gwitwm
If I passed like Taf, I'd never get anywhere near any queer space ever again lol

>>42384936
really? every time I look, it reassures me that repping is statistically the better option
it's 1% genuinely passing trannies, 20% mostly passing trannies, 75% most obvious trannies of all time (you will end up here), and 4% ftms whose timelines make me nauseous

>>42385383
So a 1 in 4 chance of making it? Likely higher since I'm not tall, already naturally low T, cute face and I'm not-poor so I can afford stuff.
Yeah, it doesn't sound that bad. I faced a lot worse odds in my life.
I'm fine even if I end up a hrtrepper if the troony thoughts become easier to manage.

good evening reppies ^w^
its always ok to wet rep

I hope increased exposure to twinkhons gives my gf a fetish

No, you don't get it. I just have to suffer a little bit more and everything will be okay. Engaging with my feelings and dreams? Dressing, speaking, or doing things the way I want to? Voicing when something makes me uncomfortable or unhappy? Taking risks that might improve my situation? Fuck all that, I just have to suffer little bit more and everything will be okay.

>>42385432
>already naturally low T
>going on E
FACT: most "trans women" just need appropriately balanced testosterone levels to cure their "gender dysphoria"

>>42385881
I'm sure you have a dozen studies that back this claim up.

>>42385881
Yes, yes, I should be shooting up T and age 20 years in 6 months, go bald and then I'll suddenly be okay with being a guy.
Go fuck yourself, anon.

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i don't understand what i feel 90% of the time. i had a bit of stomach pain this afternoon, and it took me half an hour to realize it was probably just my body signaling hunger (which was correct).
how the fuck am i supposed to know what to do with my life if i can't even know what i want? i can't be trusted with body altering hormones. maybe this void is better than agonizing over my body 24/7, but this isn't fun either.
even if i did troon out, i would likely always be quite clocky, being tall, with broad shoulders and no hips, i'd stand out everywhere i go, in the worst way possible. is this happiness? i don't think so. every time i post in these threads i'm hoping some pinkiller will show up, see my measurements and go "well, there's a way for you to pass, actually!", and then give me a detailed guide on what to do. but that never happens. the best you get is "that's rough nona, but with estrogen you'll feel better :)". they completely ignore your insecurities because they know they're true.
not sure where i'm going with this but whatever

>>42386019
>they completely ignore your insecurities because they know they're true
I ignore most people's insecurities because I know they're not true, actually.

I repperheart punching myself in the head

>>42386198
What does a repperheart look like?

>>42386237
broken

>>42385881
i did this and it made me dysphoric enough to start hrt

>>42385709
true, wet reppers are valid
the definition of wet repping is repping while being an alcoholic btw

>>42384837
yeah but taf has never looked like a man, she looked like a wimpy nerdy boy, thats the extent of how bad it has ever been for her

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reading this thread was prolly a mistake, gave me a pit in my stomach and a mid life crisis

I'm 35, bald, uggo, comsider myself ace/enby but just live as a quiet cis dude because I have no social life and live in a deep red state. Online I've presented as female since I was a teen playing WoW but doing that forces me to be extremely private with my internet pals who are probably my best froends and lately ive realized how lonely it makes me having my entire social life relegated to a fictional persona. looking at that trans timlines sub makes me feel like a coward

>>42385881
it must feel nice to write "FACT:" followed by whatever you were going to say regardless of if it is actually true or not
FACT: this will go away and i will become normal
>>42385709
call me asahi the way i'm super "dry"
>>42386373
real

ive always had a wide jaw but i think at 29 my jaw has gotten even bigger and wider, its almost comical how flat and wide my jaw is, i look like a cartoon character

if i isolate myself and never talk to anyone again and never open social media again i will forget and everything will be fine.

>>42384729
Hi!
I made this >>42377383
Can I get feedback or a description of the vaginal sensations?
Thank you!

>>42386461
already been doing that for 10 years i guess so i can go the rest of my life at this point

>>42386437
I hope John23 from the previous thread reads this.

>>42386533
huh?

in life your appearance is everything, it doesnt just control how good you feel about yourself, but literally the kind of person you are. if you are naturally a pretty twink, the idea of femininity will come easily and naturally to you. the path of least resistance into femininity screams out at you and so its probably more likely that someone like that ends up gay or trans not because their brain is wired that way but just because its easy and validates them.

The older I get the more I realise I need to just stop coping and accept that im not that person, I was a frail unmasculine unfeminine nerd with no appeal that has now been raped by testosterone.

>>42386550
John 23 from the previous thread >>42375033

>>42386437
We're all cowards here, so you're in good company with us.

>>42386581
oh, so like to let them be warned by my bad example? glad I could contribute, lol...

I would probably be trans if I had been aware in high school, I was such a gnc oddball but I didn't kmow trans people existed until I was a few years in the military

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>>42386437
I'm slightly older than you, balding and chubby. I am basically ace at this point (I'm out to a few people as bi, but I'm so quiet about my sexuality in general that everyone probably thinks I'm some lonely loser).
The worst part is I'm in a blue state and have no dependents.
So don't worry, there's always a bigger coward.

>>42386618
>so like to let them be warned by my bad example?
Yes.
Part of guidance is to the youth from oldfags does also imply advising them to avoid our mistakes.
Btw, in all seriousness, there are people who started at 35 and bald and at least partially made it.

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>>42384729
Only bought a furry dyke zine which I threw out in shame. Should of at least scanned and uploaded it to sadpanda before I did.
>>42384863
HRT won't take me to Equestria.
>>42386198
Please don't nonny.
>>42386533
Hope John23 is doing well.

At this point I think I'm ready to give up all feeling in my jaw if it meant they could fix this fucking thing.

short and sweet repfuel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2CZddbHK70

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>>42386705
ugh, okay so lemme entertain the thought... I'm 35 single no life and can't imagine coming out to the people around me. I use the VA for healthcare and there's no chance I'm risking a documented diagnosis in this political climate (I couldn't even get my fucking covid booster because of BS).

So I could do DIY HRT while hiding it? Feels like so much stress and confusion with no counter balance aside from happier gooning?

sorry if I seem hostile, had a weird moment of gender recently thats put me in a weird place mentally

>>42386960
>So I could do DIY HRT while hiding it?
Why not?
May unironically solve your hair issue, for starters. Yes, it takes a lot of time and may not fully work (depending on very specific physiological issues that you have), but what do you got to lose?
I look at this purely as a body modding issue.
I certainly didn't tell anyone that I started. But they're starting to notice that I'm more smiley, my hair looks better and that I have lost weight.
I started voice training with the new year. Fuck knows how far I'll go, but it's nice.
I probably won't be able to girlmode anytime soon (if ever) and I'm okay with manmoding at work. Hiding the breasts is a bit annoying but totally doable.
I started in February last year (I'm 29). Losing weight, getting a softer skin and having a lower libido (but not zero, mind you! not even by far) have made me a nicer person to be around; nice enough to pick up one new IRL friend and no longer be as lonely as I was exactly a year ago.
I have no idea where this ends. But I like it more than I expected.
I maintain very low expectations, but I do it anyway.

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>>42386960
>35 single no life
>DIY while hiding it
This is basically my plan for this year. I'm working on getting healthier for now, hopefully losing some weight, taking hair treatments seriously, working on the "party trick" of having a feminine voice.
I should come into some cash in a few months. One of the first things I want to do with that is look into a hair transplant, get thicker on top and a more androgynous hairline. Then maybe look into laser for my face and body.
And in the midst of all that, start DIY. And just assume that there's no one who cares enough to notice.

>>42387011
I'm glad it's working out for you! I dunno tho, the DIY side is confusing and scary and it seems silly to fuck around with my body when I'm such a loner, I'm not planning on dating so itd just be softer skin and a smaller dick? I'd also have to quit if I ever risked having visible breasts

>>42387101
Good luck! I lost a lot if weight last year and can't understate how much better I feel just being in my skin. Regardless of gender, I hope you do a good job getting in shape!

>>42387124
>the DIY side is confusing and scary
That's why I started in February 2025 instead of August 2024 lol. I autistically looked into every facet of this.

>it seems silly to fuck around with my body when I'm such a loner
Quite the opposite for me. Being a loner was the opportunity. Because it meant there was nobody to disappoint and nobody to criticize me intimately.

>a smaller dick
So far so good. I do jerk off routinely though.

>I'd also have to quit if I ever risked having visible breasts
You work in the military or something?
In any event, you would get growth that is a cup smaller than your mother or sisters (if applicable), roughly speaking. Mom has big breasts, though.

>>42387146
>You work in the military or something?
Used to be, but now I just live in a deep red state and probably half my family and coworkers are full on MAGA lunatics


idk im reading the diy wiki page, but its probably just too risky/inconvenient

>>42387265
>inconvenient
Self-actualization is never convenient. That's true with any personal improvement/change that feels good/right.
Wallowing in misery is always more convenient over the short run.

woman isn't a feeling a man can experience

tfw im 29 and women have been women for like 10 years at this point and now im about to be an old man

ropefuel

>>42386439
>call me asahi the way i'm super "dry"
based based based
I'm drinking a pack of Sapporo rn 弟

>>42386771
it feels cathartic

reading the symptoms of depersonalization from dysphoria and its painful how much it describes my entire life. I don't even care about the physical changes but god I'd love it to fix my brain

>>42386960
I do. HRT doesn't do much. I wear a binder in public but I've seen men my age with breasts from gyno and obesity anyway

I’m a fake repper I don’t have dysphoria and take hrt 3 times a month

im a fake repper too i dont deserve to be trans im just mentally ill and i have an ugly face

>>42387532
same apparently emdr therapy helps but its painful
since some of us wanna self harm anyway and wanna be bdsm painsluts may as well do something thats potentially likely to be positive