Do you have sexual trauma?Do you think this influenced your sexuality and/or self perception?If so could you please explain.Thankyou!
>>42387590>Do you have sexual trauma?no>Do you think this influenced your sexuality and/or self perception?yes, I think being raped would've influenced my self perception so the absence of it had an effect.
>Do you have sexual trauma?Maybe? Probably not. I always had a firm no-no square. And I would have snitched.>Do you think this influenced your sexuality and/or self perception?Idk. If I'm a gay cuntboy, what would have molested me?
>Do you have sexual trauma?Yes I find sex with men to be very tricky and I require an abnormal amount of trust in a guy to manage it.>Do you think this influenced your sexuality and/or self perception?I am bi but functionally gay because I generally don't even consider men as an option. I guess that has influenced my self perception in that it influences who I hang out with and how I put myself across to others, which naturally shapes who you are to some degree.
my brother molested me when i was a child. i enjoyed it
>>42387907How was it enjoyable? This topic interests me
>>42387590yesyesno
>>42387942he would make me suck his dick and then usually he would suck my dick. even if he just fondled me i liked the attention
>>42387948That sounds pretty nice, anon. I was quite sexual as a child too, although not molested or groomed and I remember doing sexual roleplays over text a lot when I was barely old enough to understand sexuality.
>>42387957This has always fascinated me but it's taboo to talk about for good reason
>>42387966yes, i've never told anyone this irl and almost certainly never will
>>42387969You enjoying it might've been a coping mechanism, but i don't think child sexuality should be fully discared and ignored in general. That opens up the opportunity for sexual abuse much more than talking about it >never told anyone this irl and almost certainly never willI get it
>>42387975*discarded
>>42387975i do think things like this being the ultimate life ruining taboo that must be kept secret no matter what does play a part in how grim these situations often end upin minecraft
>>42387590>Do you have sexual trauma?No.>Do you think this influenced your sexuality and/or self perception?Perhaps the lack of sexual trauma contributed in part to me being comfortable with my sexuality.
>>42387590It's time for me to overshare. Even now I'm not sure if I would classify this as sexual trauma but it certainly changed me. I was a child with unrestricted internet access and naturally that led me to discovering porn at a young age, but the thing is that I ended up going down a rabbit hole where I got involved with zoophile communities (practicing and nonpracticing) and at times they were the only form of socialization I had. I've never done anything myself and I don't think I ever will, but I have incredibly complicated feelings about this and it feels like because I stumbled across certain spaces at 12 I'm doomed to keep these unprocessed feelings a secret for the rest of my life. I have a lot of self hate from it.>>42387990Obviously different topics but this is how I feel too. I really think a lot of things could be avoided if we could be just more open about discussing these. For example I still don't quite understand why zoophilia is wrong and I have no idea how much of that is influenced by what I experienced as a kid. I want to understand and to process this through a conversation with someone but its nature means I can't. I think it's just going to continue existing at the back of my head until I commit suicide someday unfortunately.
>>42388112i am gonna need some more details here. i mean i had my own fetish community to discover when i was 12 but it wasnt, ahem, that
YesI was an extremely sexual child and it haunts me every single day, I feel utterly disgusting for the things I did and the regret has driven me to the verge of suicide multiple times. I hope to be able to forgive myself one day, but it's hard.In relationships and such it only really manifests as me needing an immense level of trust to have sex with someone and having the occasional wailing crying mental breakdown every now and then.
>>42388147What details do you want
>>42388172to what degree were you involved in these communities? was it just talking or were there real pics/videos? are you still aroused by this sort of thing?
>>42388181I used a forum and Twitter. I was terrified of having anything traced back to me so I barely posted and instead lurked for hours. Early on I looked at real content often but then I had an incident where I accidentally called the cops after my phone got bricked from a virus. It's technically not illegal to consume content here but I didn't realize I called them so when the cops arrived I was shitting bricks. After that I kept it strictly limited to fiction and text discussions. My degree of arousal has varied over the years (at times I couldn't get off to humans at all) but it's never gone away despite my attempts to get rid of it. Sometimes I'll be out in public and a "handsome" dog catches my eye and then I usually want to kill myself afterwards kek
>>42388345so it was mostly dogs then or other animals too? and was this cruelty/abuse/gore stuff or just fucking? and how did you fall into this in the first place? do you feel you were groomed into it?
>>42388385Yeah it was mainly dogs. I can be attracted to other animals like goats but they hardly interest me. I'm also a necrophile but I never could stand the thought of being violent to dogs in any capacity. I think the difference is because I have less respect for humans. The zoophiles I was around stressed consent during sex and as a result hated zoosadists + pedophiles. I have mixed thoughts on that now.This started because I came across a fanfic and something about it really interested me. Then I started looking up ethical arguments for and against zoophilia, found the people arguing for it, and the rest is history. I'm not sure if it counts as grooming because most of it didn't involve people talking directly to me. I did make a "how to accept my zoosexuality" post but most of it was indirect. A big one I remember was a YouTuber named Hypnotist Sappho who 'came out' as one in a video. Overall I don't know. I haven't been able to properly sort out my thoughts and I'm not sure which beliefs are distorted and which aren't
My same sex attraction is the result of extensive childhood trauma
>>42387948Are u gay
