I found a pornstar who looks exactly like my HSTS twinkhon crush and I've been gooning to her old BDSM videos. I pretend it's my post-srs crush and me (fully clothed dom) in the video, but I would do those things to her pre-srs too if she'd be willing, I just want to ravage and sexually humiliate her.This is the only way I can have her. There's no way she'll ever view me as a real man, I've already given up on trying to court her because I know it's hopeless, not that she's likely to be into this shit anyway. I know she subconciously views me as her safe lesbian friend, and it's why she feels comfortable joking to me about how much she resents her attraction to men. I laugh along and support her but inside I feel broken.St4t is a myth. She has 0 reason to settle for me, she's so beautiful that she could have anyone she wants, but I'm a dickless dwarf, dating pool fodder. But I accept this. If I just keep jacking off then maybe I could get it out of my system.
>>42388144Fletcher should take the estrogen. The long midface works in her favour.
