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I'm a few days away from being 21 and I've felt dysphoria for the past 6 years slowly grow until the current moment where it rules every waking moment and is ruining my life: crying daily, completely and hopelessly depressed, filled with self loathing etc. It started when I unconsciously realized I wanted to be a woman and began presenting as one privately when I got into high school and had free time outside of the supervision of my parents for the first time. In the span of a month I already gave myself a new name and came out to my closest friends, and only later did I start recognizing dysphoria in myself and realize I could be trans. These years I don't even do that anymore, though I've stopped doing anything anymore and even going to classes which once brought me satisfaction and accomplishment has become a chore for me. Whenever I told people that I have gender dysphoria they were always shocked because I'm not a feminine person with my interests within the typical autistic male range (mil stuff being the primary outlier, but also CS, Paleozoic paleontology etc.). I feel like I'd be happier if I got on HRT and transitioned with most of my friends recommending that also if I think it would be best, but I'm concerned I'm not actually trans given the aforementioned lack of femininity that I currently display and that being a sign that I'm not actually trans. What should I do?