>be me>late 20s agp manmoder on hrt>virgin, only attracted to women but have fantasies about being men fucking me>download grindr>chat with guy similar age who looks normal>meet at a bar to make sure he's not a dangerous creep>go back to his place>put on lingerie>suck his dick for a bit>start riding his dick>cum within like 30 seconds>realise i'm a straight cis man on estrogen who just lost his virginity to a man while wearing lingerie>overcome with shame and embarrassment>get the fuck out of there>delete grindr>download it again a few days laterwhy can't i just be a straight guy? how do i stop wanting to be a straight woman?
>>42392293this is why I will stay a volcel manmoder
>>42392293internalized homo/transphobia. you'll be fine. it's orders of magnitude easier to change the shame you feel about it than it is to stop wanting it. go to therapy and i wish you the best of luck
>>42392293>cum within like 30 secondslmao. its OVER
>>42392310>easier to change the shame you feel about it than it is to stop wanting itabsolutely false unless you have a weak mind
>>42392293>download it again a few days laterSo you enjoyed it, huh?
that's the funny thing, it's impossible to stop wanting to be a straight woman because cock is irresistible.
>>42392293> straight cis man> on hrt> sex with a manyou might be bi or straight but you're not cis or a manalso idk if it's meta attraction if you're enjoying yourself have sex with men and seeking it out. it just seems like you're attracted to men.
>>42392319literally not thoughif you're already doing hrt and dressing up safe to say this is pretty deep-seated and i'm not about to tell OP this is a bad thing because i'm not a moralfagyour options are acceptance or self-hatred and i've never seen a convincing argument that self-hatred is betterbut by all means keep repping and shilling for conversion therapy. it'll probably work for you anon
>>42392351you underestimate the possibility of extreme identity confusion
>>42392362surely this uncertainty will be resolved by simply deciding on an answer and trying nothing new ever
>>42392357self hatred is better tho. self hatred means taking control of your mind and striving to be something better than you are naturally
>>42392376unironically yes that’s a better way to live
>>42392385you only think that because you haven't done it long enough yet. there is not a single psychological, therapeutic or self-improvement framework that considers hatred a good basis for change except for grifty manosphere ones because they want you reliant on them for validation of your masculinity. better not to wait, but by all means, see what lies at the end of that road. i could tell you but you wouldn't listen. also>betteris it? why?
>>42392393t. john50
>>42392293>>cum within like 30 secondslol ok m8
>>42392439>>42392318>>42392351yeah i'm disgusted with myself
>>42392417it is better because it is closer to the norm for our society. being too different obviously makes it harder to navigate through society with ease
>>42392502it really doesn't. not enough to matter compared to hefting around a ton of self-loathing, unless you live in nigeria or something. do you live in nigeria?
>>42392522no but even in the west gender roles are still super important to the vast majority of people and that feeling that you at least pass as a normal human is far better than any kind of self acceptance
>>42392565yeah again i just think you're super fucking wrong about this. you can deny it when other people tell you and refuse to let yourself try; it is scary, granted. but you might be wrong and you'd never know.p.s. everything about the experience described here sounds like it would have been great except you (assuming it's OP) borrowed disapproval from imaginary "normal" people and got scared. the truth is nobody actually gives a fuck what you do in the bedroom and there are a billion retirees posting hardcore sissy shit on fet as we speak. even if social approval is more important than self-acceptance, this has nothing to do with it
>>42392565also everyone can tell when you walk around ashamed of yourself and it's more offputting than trooning or being a faggot.
>>42392293i don't know, sounds like you actually really enjoyed it but have brainworms
>>42392293>>virgin, only attracted to women but have fantasies about being men fucking mehey me too op but I'm just a regular incel. don't make it a big deal, get the slut vaccines so at least you don't get aids hpv hep a b while you're experimenting, and if men aren't doing it for you even after getting a better fucker, just go for women and ones that aren't going to abuse you including along gender dysphoria lines
>>42392462why
>>42392293>attracted to womenyou only want to touch their bodies to better visualize skinwalking them, don't you?
>>42392293i am in a similar sitution and am considering finding a guy on grindr, would you recommend?
