> be me> 14 year old mtf (back then)> finds agp vials online and somehow gets on hrt immediately> proceeds to make zero effort towards my transition expecting it to get handed to meGets frustrated when - shocker - nothing changes> takes that as a sign that ingmi.. cuts hair and represses at 15> hair grows out to shoulder length again.. continues to put literally zero effort> takes a picture of one bad angle and decides to cut it again at 16Literally everyone I know at my school being supportive for my transition and me semi passing.> cries afterward like an idiot punching themselves and saying it hurts.> starts to actually try, but always gendered male due to short hair> going bra shopping and shit, embarrassing as fuck getting asked “do you need anything sir?”God I could have enjoyed my high school life as female but now I’ll never get that chance. Maybe I should wig max it’s so embarrassing going out in public. Scratch that my transphobic mom won’t let me. Ironic that I listen to her for this but not for buying HRT. Consequences of being a jobless chud at 18.
>>42392703yeah that was stupid but start doing everything NOW, you're probably a 99th percentile passoid potential just by being 18 and stunting your puberty even slightly.
>>4239270314 on hrt things actually should happen unless you had an early/strong male puberty. If you got on hrt pre or early male puberty hrt should just make you a girl no effort required. Kinda just what happens.Yes makeup like being a cool girl and stuff like that helps as cis women need styling too
>>42392703I'm also confused, how long have you been on hrt total? Sounds sort of like off and on over the last 4 years?
>>42392750>>42392724I really did everything (female clothes, voice training, makeup, etc.) other than the hair part. Maybe it’s just unlucky but I was really masculine even before hrt so I’m more androgynous now. it is really weird tho to shop irl at women’s sections looking like a moid but it can’t get more awkward than this I guess. Makeup also feels really agp and stuff so there was some internalized transphobia I had to get over from being a Texas troon I’ll bet.
>>42392778This I’m kind of confused over too.. I took hrt consistently for 3.6 years and started blockers at 14 1/12. Despite that I have a lot of male features I’d need to get rid of in the future. I’m still really grateful for starting this age but there’s still a part of me that blames my military genetics.Somehow though I passed with medium-short length hair so I’m just hoping that once I pass irl then dysphoria from not being cis-exact will go away.
>>42392884hmm it's hard to tell if bdd or real male features without pics but if you did get an early/strong puberty then yes you could look fully male even starting at 14. Would be very rare tho.>>42392838just get like a pixie cut if hair is your issue and keep growing it out. Will grow back in no time.
>>42392724Oh my body’s also kind of disproportionate lol it kinda looks like an athletic skinny cis foids body transplanted onto a really masculine face. It’s kind of my hesitation with getting a wig. But honestly I’ll be a laughingstock for just one day and people will probably move on so… I’m lowkey considering sneaking and buying a quality wig and just wearing that until college.
>>42392927i kind of doubt it's as bad as you make it out to be, honestly this does just sound more like bdd. but sounds like you have a good plan regardless so godspeed>>42392927
>>42392838>Makeup also feels really agpYou're mentally ill for having said this, fr fr. AGP isn't a real think, like at all, and makeup has nothing to do with the lies told in furtherance of the AGP hoax. Every woman who's ever lived has used make up, probably even before the written word existed. They've also been dressing like sluts since the dawn of time. As soon as clothing was invented women made it slutty. AGP isn't real. Stop, take your HRT, and do but exercises until you get a boyfriend. BE MORE AGP!
>>42392923I post on /passgen/ infrequently and unfortunately it’s a consistent no pass. Quick question.. would you say a pixie cut would work for my frame?
>>42392995Well you're not super masc. You're right on the line between butch les and guy.What's your hrt routine like? Has your T been suppressed? I think you'll be fine with better styling and some surgeries I.e. BA, FFS, etc. 2nd from left suggests your body may be fine.
>>42392995Yuan Dynasty courtier phenotype.
>>42393412Idk what this means. Is this a good thing?
>>42393436huuuhhh idk, you could have been a great textile merchant in the 1400s
>>42393354Kind of expected that. Unfortunately I don’t think I’ll get any kind of ffs because I’m scared at this point there’s more risk than reward for my complexion. For HRT I just take cypionate once a week t is fully suppressed. I also take progesterone on workout days so like 3x a week. Kinda sucks I’m borderline butch tho even when going all out on styling but ykw I won’t doom again (´ ˘｀ )
>>42393484you're fully suppressing T without any E?
>>42393515Well no I just do injections once a week! Idk is it just the short hair holding me back atp?
>>42392971this desudesudesu>>42392995oh you're this girl. yeah pixie works. you're honestly going to be so okay. worry less.
>>42393569( ˶ˊᜊˋ˶) TYSM <3 this meant so much to me( ω ) I got so dysphoric for a bit there thinking I wouldn’t make it outty anon
