I just don't see myself as being worthy of being loved for what I am. Im like fully prepared to die alone
I am full of this feel too, nona
>>42551802after i get ffs im hoping i can pick up a chaser or something. thankfully im into guys who are horrible to me :p
I don't, I just have an understanding of what my needs and wants are and dgaf if I'm doing the right thing or not. Transition isn't moral either, its done to survive.
>>42551802Dating isn't that serious. I'm worth fucking and using. Just not worth being in a relationship with. That's our lot in life so take advantage of it and charge money.
>>42552680How do I stop feeling like choosing to transition is a moral failure on my behalf >>42552699Yeah umm I don't even think im worth fucking the very thought disgusts me
i should rope rn
>>42551802be around decent people who show you that you are worth loving? also get on a dating app and talk to people who like you, it helped my confidence
>>42554054please dont
>>42551802i cope by blaming my bpd like it isnt a compounding issue to make me the most unlovable person possible
>>42554073Second this Nona. This site isn't helping any disorders you most likely have
>>42551802there's obviously gonna be people that say >"It's just your mindset hon!!"but if you're non-passing and ugly then it's just something you have to come to terms with, at least until you pass and then it's a matter of just spending time with people until you feel better about yourself if you already pass it's likely brainworms for any number of reasons
this is why i love trans girls. many of you don't know your worth so i'm able to date way above my class
>>42551802i dont either nona. sometimes i talk to people but i never want to send a picture. i know i'm disgusting, i know no man will ever love me like a woman. it hurts my heart so badly but it's best not to seek out what i cannot have. i experience enough humiliation on a daily basis already.
>>42554319trueee for a while after transitioning i think a 5 foot tall ogre couldve pulled me
>>42551802whats the worst is when you try over and over and over again on it and it just fails every single time because theres always something wrong with you or with him or whatever it really just gets on my nerves sometimes.
>>42554327you need friends and to meet people
>>42554340people are scary... and how do you even meet people? going to a social event is my worst nightmare i get very very anxious, so it'd have to be 1-on-1 i guess, and then idk how i'd meet anyone apart from dating apps. and i've done that before but i hate my appearance so much i dont even know if i could fill out a profile with photos of myself without quitting anymore. seeing how i look from other peoples perspective makes me cry. but maybe if i just browse this board enough i'll find my perfect chaser dream husband who doesn't mind how gross i am and loves me and takes care of me forever. think about it.
>>42554386my community has a local discord full of trans ppl but theres also dating apps and such
>>42551802Every straight trans woman deserves to be in a tall handsome man's arms.I hath spoken, hear me and despair.
