did you ever used to have fantasies about becoming really sick and people would finally treat you gently and with kindness for once?then a handsome boy would find your room in the hospital by accident and fall in love with you and take care of youand for the first time you finally had someone to talk to that enjoyed the way your brain worked?sometimes i still daydream about it
I daydream about it all the time. I just want to be cared for and have all my needs taken care of. Also, being so weak, fragile, and helpless seems really appealing to me. I cant really relate to the handsome boy part though, i just cant possibly imagine any guy liking me and falling in love with me. Im unloveable
>>42562912Yeah but then I look in the mirror and remember that I look like the guy from the southpark wow episode
>>42562949in my daydreams he always saw the good in mehe knew i wasnt that pretty but he still thought i was beautifuli dont think anyone will ever feel that way about me but it still feels nice to fantasize about when im lonely
>>42562912same.. i just want to be cared for and cherished
never about being sick but i want people to care about me very much yes i want to be held and accepted and lovedthere's a man i work with who's been talking to me lately because he heard from someone else that no-one talks to me (which isn't really true but it also isn't really false) and we had a long conversation last night about life and finding value and being happy and it felt like he really truly cared about me despite only really knowing me for a few weeks now. he's retired and probably triple my age and i am starting to feel really attached to him as a guiding or parental figure which is not good because i am an adult and that is pathetic but he's so nice to me. he kept calling me "young woman" and telling me i had so much potential. i talked to him about being suicidal and i don't even know why. he's just that kind of person, i guess. i want to talk to him again
>>42562912yes, rather frequently. this is both due to being treated like the most fragile thing in the world (probably due not weighting much) and because i mailfailed to four different nurses even after being he/him’d by my mother so i have an idealized view of being sick and hospitalized
>>42563105i like spending time in the hospitali dont like that i have to go occasionally but i like the workers
i feel like you're reading my mindthis has been a recurring fantasy of mine since forever
>>42562912I had one once, it ended like hotline miami 1's hospital scene
>>42563454do you also have an ed
>>42562912No I like to move and groove and thus wouldnt want to be ill
>>42563580ed?
>>42563672eating disorder
>>42563682oh no
