should i tell my parents that i really do think i’m going to rope ? i know it’s a bad idea and will only end poorly but i truly don’t think i can stop myself . i got thisss close to attempting literally every day this past week, like i’d get up to get ready to do it but then i’d stop midway becus i was worried my family might walk in on me while i was in the midst of hanging myself . i’m terrified
please someone tell me what to do i don’t knoww i need help please
>>42563375yes you should and it'll probably be stressful but your life is valuable. when I was most suicidal I felt the same way, afraid that I wouldn't be able to stop myself
>>42563159Yeah you shouldYou need help and support that is the first stepYou're scared because you know they love you, they do, and they'll want to help youThink of it this way, even if it doesn't help nothing changes and you're back to where you are now after awhile - but a lot more likely is things change and you get on a better path and start feeling better. I've seen a lot of people be at this point before and they do get better, telling other people is the first stepI'm proud of you OP
yes, if you feel this out of control please tell someone who can help youlife is too precious to waste it like this
>>42563392maybe i will this weekend . i think i’ll be able to make it that far at least , since i have obligations tomorrow and the day after . but i know it can only end poorly . my dad will freak out and blame it all on trans people and who knows what he’ll do from there , and my mom is nicer but idk this is just too much for her . neither of them asked for this . if it’s alright to ask , how did you stop yourself from doing it ?
>>42563477but what if it only gets worse ? this is a really bad time for me to do this , right in the middle of a semester , and of med school of all things . and my dad has been dealing with a lot more than usual with like work lately so he’s been super stressed . plus what if my dad gets suspicious and demands to search my phone or room or whatever and finds out i’m on e again and confiscates it again , or he sends me to a ward and makes me get my levels tested and finds out i’m on e again like that ? idk maybe i shouldn’t
>>42563522you have to, I know it's scary. it got better when I told someone. spent a day in the ER, almost went inpatient. I got off social media. gay but it helped. it's still rough a lot of the time but it's better now. I still get sad sometimes thinking about what could have happened. I know telling your parents is shitty but they don't want you dead. they might have mixed feelings about trans stuff but they don't want a dead child
