How do you muster up the courage to transition? > I hated trannies when I was repping, and would frequently paint hons in horrific scenarios where they get hatecrimed for being fake women with all the wrong body proportions> While that worked really really well when I was repping, after a tttt ban broke my fucking mind (I couldn't use pooners as emotional abuse sponges to treat my GD), I am seriously considering honning out> I am now terrified of trooning out, seeing myself as a freak who will soon take the form of a woman if they are lucky, the form of a hideous Susan's place sissy if unlucky> I am terrified of getting honpills from the local pharmacist / do bloodwork for the purpose of trooning out, as I don't look or act feminine enough to deserve taking them (I haven't voice trained, gotten laser, and am terrified of wearing makeup/girlmoding in public)
>>42571506>How do you muster up the courage to transition?I just had enough of repping. I couldn't do it anymore. I had a lot to lose but still not enough to outweigh the desire.Things turned out better than expected tho. Most people I thought would be disgusted shrugged or were even accepting. I didn't turn into a Susan's place sissy but I'm also not a 9/10 model or something. Just a regular woman.
>>42571506i just get my pills on amazon. getting bloodwork sucks though
>>42571544So does that mean that most people dgaf?
>>42571558Elaborate on the bloodworks?
>>42571560different anon but yes. maybe it depends on where you live at least partly but for the most part nobody really cares all that much. you might get misgendered or misunderstood by a lot of people who don't really get it, but at least in my experience incidents of outright hate or disgust are extremely few and far between.
>>42571506every day you don't start taking the meds, the pain gets worse. the pharmacist won't give a single shit, they probably already serve other trannies. you don't gotta be already passing as a woman to start the meds, that comes with time and practice and would be torture to force on people who haven't even started taking hrt. you can boymode for months or even years if it makes you feel safer. you don't have to be an out hon if you don't want to.
>>42571560>>42571592I live in a country with no "lgbt rights" and yes, most people dgaf.I didn't change my name because doing that would require me to get an official troon diagnosis and go through the humiliation ritual that is medical gatekeeping. I would've never trooned out if I had waited for that.It helps a lot that idgaf if I'm called "sir" (which rarely happens anyway). I wanted what I wanted and got what I wanted. That simple.
>>42571592So I was hating myself for nothing? Shit I wrote heaps of pastebin larps of hons getting owned/exposed by real wombyn s for being lying MEFs when I was hardcore repping, to scare both myself and other reppers into repping harder
>>42571618Which European country?
>>42571622yeah it's mostly a repper/chud psyop to scare trans people into not getting to live a life they don't hate. most bigots are too pathetic to actually try anything in public but a lot of allies are morons so it kinda evens out
>>42571506Only reason I transitioned was because I already had a fat ass and curves.
Should I get laser / voice training first before getting on informed consent? I can't take it anymore, but don't wanna embarrass myself
>>42571669I have the height and some parts of my face going for me, but I don't have an hourglass shape, in fact I cry over my barrel physiqueI know that I only have a few years of hip growth left, so I am trying to salvage some feminine characteristics before I lose my window forever
>>42571638Romania.Being a fag is legal. But no marriage, no civil partnership.Discrimination protections are weak but enforceable. Also mostly unneeded because genuinely most people don't give af. Just don't go out in fetish gear and you'll be fine.I also frequent an ultras group. The "worst" is that I get called a "girly fag" but they still use my preferred name and address me in the feminine.I probably would've fared worse if went by the angloid frame of "uhm, akchually, I'm a feminine-presenting transfeminine person" or some shit like that. That pisses people off here. "Hi! I'm Nona" brings no reaction. Nobody cares. Young or old.Heck, older people are more likely to not even bother with a second look and just accept outright my feminine identity.I'm a technician. I fix stuff in people's homes.I just got into girlmoding full time because it was so obvious that my chuddy boss was like "Nona, we all know. Lmk if you need a broader vest to accommodate your breasts."
>>42571677The order doesn't matter. Do whichever you can first. Just do them if you want.
>>42571677meds now, do it in boymode because the people at planned parenthood don't care and you are starting a years long journey. you don't gotta do it perfect, but it has to get started sooner rather than later.
>>42571690>Didn't start as a twink with an hourglassFuck im so sorry. If it makes you feel better I was bullied and harassed for my physique in middle and highschool.
>>42571720> High schoolShit I am so sorryI was a dumdum shut in who fell for the phytoestrogen psyop back when I was in highschool, tho
>>42571704Well that is hopefuelDid you hide your breasts at work when they first grew in?
>>42571772Yes. Obviously good enough for the clients not to notice but not good enough for the colleagues since the boss basically outed me, lul.I won't deny that I'm a giga luckshit. But I will say that a lot of the fear was unfounded.
>>42571506some people really just don't have it in them huh
>>42571506>How do you muster up the courage to transition? Earlier you do it the better results you get. That's all the motivation I needed when the alternative is just killing yourself anyway.
>>42571828Thanks for addressing my concerns anonette, I think it is time I leave the thread open for discussion for other troons / reppersGn
>>42571839Don't goad me, trannyWhy did you post that
>>42571843Huh ok, I do feel a little sad knowing that because of my GD there is really no point in repping long enough to set up a traditional family
>>42571880I mean if that really matters to you just freeze your cum before you go on HRT.I was strictly cocksexual before getting SRS so the idea of having biological kids isn't something that bothered me too much since it's not like it was possible before anyway.
>>42571506I got abused by other troons before I trooned out, maybe that made it easier for me idk. just work on your emotional crap and be aware that emotions hit harder once you get the girl juice. If transition is what you want you should do it without hating yourself for your past, your life experience is valid.
The answer is simple but the trick is learning to be kinder to yourself and to other trans women. One goes hand in hand with the other.
>>42571506>How do you muster up the courage to transition?if i dont transition i will hate myself, and the best time to transition is now. so just do it.>>42571506>I am terrified of getting honpills from the local pharmacist / do bloodwork for the purpose of trooning out, as I don't look or act feminine enough to deserve taking them (I haven't voice trained, gotten laser, and am terrified of wearing makeup/girlmoding in public)yes, the first experiences of requesting e are humilliating. no, theres no other option.
>>42571506i love how you made fun of hons then will become one, classic story. so deserved.
>>42571560NTA, most people have tons of their own bullshit to deal with and whatever is going on with you barely registers
>>42571622NTA, I did the same thing. Hated on trannys to keep myself from becoming one. Yes it was effective, also it was stupid. Rethink your position on MEFs. Out of all the transwomen I know and have met, the biggest passoid is a MEF, and I think it is because she enjoys the fuck out of being a woman. Everybody else is trying to be very socially acceptable about the reasons they are trans and they say things like "I'm still me, just a woman now". Compared to them, she absolutely ripped down her male personality and enjoyed every moment of it.
>>42572161>Out of all the transwomen I know and have met, the biggest passoid is a MEF, and I think it is because she enjoys the fuck out of being a womanNTA, but you're right.I get a ton of hatred on this board for being low-key MEF but the fact that I truly enjoy being a woman has prevented 90%+ of the problems trannies cite."Just have fun, girl" to me comes as a natural advice. Most trannies don't relate but it works. We only got one life, so why not have fun?
>>42571506I decided that I was going to transition in secret, that's how I did it. The main thing is hiding your breasts, which is easy thanks to layering clothing, sports bras and hoodiesWhen you're ready to get rid of what remaining facial hair you have, just dont tell anybody. literally nobody notices. Especially if your someone like me who always kept a clean shave.DIYing works if your even too scared to go to the doctors for this.>I don't look or act feminine enoughtransitioning is like going through a second puberty, this is normal. just diy while growing your hair out.
>>42572228I just don't get how the meme narrative around it took off. AGP = Like seeing your physicality as femaleMEF = Like seeing yourself mentally become femaleIf you are actually trans and want to be a woman, why have we demonized enjoying things going the direction you want them to? It's like if you beat cancer or heart disease, it's sinful to enjoy your health returning to your or something. Just absolute madness. Like I get AGP/MEF stuff can get offensive when taken too far, but the community has absolutely thrown the baby out with the bath water.
>>42572243>When you're ready to get rid of what remaining facial hair you have, just dont tell anybody. literally nobody notices. Especially if your someone like me who always kept a clean shave.Lmao, yeah so nobody noticed your face abruptly red the next day after laser or electro? They never noticed the very artificial way your beard shadow disappeared? Also hiding your breasts is easy if they are small and it is cold enough to wear layers. Good luck in the summer when it is already too hot to wear clothes.
im basicslly like you and my plan is just to never girlmode. i take my pills and thats it for the time being
>>42572357such a waste
I was basically forced to transition. I was always misgendered, being called she/her, before transitioning. Just do it or die.
>>42571506I was 15 and had failed a suicide attempt and tried castrating myself. From there transitioning was a no brainer, stealing moms credit card and starting voice training saved me
>>42571506Mammode on DIY hrt. There i just solved both of your resistance points, enjoy your tranny life :)
>>42572288>Like I get AGP/MEF stuff can get offensive when taken too farProbably the only trait that I kept from my male days was that I genuinely don't give af. It's just words on the screen.Went ahead and trooned out, got srs, endured the recovery (ugh!) and now I simply enjoy life. I get to see the world, travel without being afraid of being outed and really enjoying being feminine in rigid places. I'm a mef meme, ig. But who cares? It's fun.>the community has absolutely thrown the baby out with the bath waterYes. But not just on mefs. On one hand it's disdain for mefs and hrtwinks, but on the other hand every theyfab with a quirky haircut is "valid". And now those theyfabs sue and make millions out of "reparations" while actual trannies (including mefs, agps) get to be locked out of what they want and need. Way to go, "community"!Who the hell cares why someone decides to transition, really?
blogpostI didn't decide to start HRT until I had a gun in my mouth. Was the usual violent alt-right guy to cope with being a tranny, and I couldn't let go until I at the end of the rope.neverpasser. massive baldass head, burly, masc face, neanderthal brow, so I just decided to never transition publicly. Even my closest friends don't know. Manmode at work and with family, and girlmode at home. It sucks, but it is what it is. I understand your worry. I don't want to foist ugliness upon others, it's uncouth.The thing is that the mere presence of estrogen is, to me, worth it. It itself allows me to feel myself as female, my feelings and my body, irregardless of how ugly they are in reality. To me, when I look in the mirror, I now can see the woman behind the man. I went from constant anger and irritation, self-abuse, being chronically unemployed and housing insecure, to being relatively functional. In fact, I feel pretty calm compared to my life before.You don't have to do anything. You don't have to transition socially, or join a political party, or fucking anything. Try it for a month if you want. You might get very mild gyno in that timeframe, but you can stop anytime. I think that estrogen itself is necessarily the relieving factor of transitioning, not the social factor, so if you try it and it doesn't make you feel better, idk.
>>42573557>You don't have to transition socially, or join a political party, or fucking anything.based hrtwink
>>42571506>How do you muster up the courage to transition?I put a loaded gun in my mouth and pulled the trigger. The bullet didn't go off and I got on hrt the next day. You can ask people i was the biggest repressor of all time. I'm talking race car driving base jumping daredevil bad ass and all I wanted to be was a squishy girlfriend and suck cock, which thankfully came true
>>42571576nta but for me it's really not so bad; i go in, put my arm out and make a fist, get a tourniquet put on and a needle stuck in me and that part sucks a little but it's only acutely painful for a second or two. then i look the other direction and wait for the nurse to tell me it's over and everything's fine.first time i ever did it i passed out, though; drink lots of water beforehand and it will go more easily.i go to Planned Parenthood for my bloodwork and they are lovely and very kind to me; i also pass so that may positively affect my interpersonal experience but i suspect at a place like that it wouldn't make a difference, or at least i really hope not. the people who care for me there are the sweetest ever and really earnestly want to help. if you have a PP near you that does hormones i would strongly recommend going there. they used to suck but it's so much better now. i literally stopped diying bc of them (though i still have all my stuff, just in case)
>>42573699Glad you're still alive and you live as you want.We argued a bit on the srs thread but ultimately it's better to be alive and as ourselves than dead.Hugs.
