I am .....a bad person. I have over the course of many years emotionally hurt people for unjust reasons, such as enjoyment, boredom, curiosity. Many people have been psychologically hurt because of me. I have said many times that I would be a better person but many times I have not been able to keep this promise to myself for long. Part of the reason for this is how dim witted I am, it leads to me very easily slipping into my old manipulative and cruel habits. Another part of the reason is that whenever im genuinely starting to get better someone comes into my life wanting to get closer to me, and whenever this happens it has always went wrong. The closer people get to me the more my old habits awaken, or rather the closer I get to people I suppose. The best advice I have been given here is to stay away from people because I am a danger to them and to that advice I will be doing my utmost best to hold myself to.
>>42621652i have faith in you and i know you are good deep down. i’m still here if you ever need something. even if ive moved on or whatever. sorry for hurting you
>>42621851>. i’m still here if you ever need something.Move on
>>42621914i did its just sad. she is very funny and sweet and ik capable of deep joy and intimacy with others. i don’t think she should isolate so much but should stop handling what should be private relationships on 4chan and other stuff idk anything. i dont think isolating is the answer. dont have cringe race opinions to get a rise out of others and dont be mean other than that shes a funny genius
stop thinking she is too smart for therapy lmao it’s all bits anyways idek actually
>>42621970You obviously haven't moved on. You need to understand how to greyrock a narcissist.
It’s funny how this type of npd/bpd type of tranny is so common. I know of at least 2 other transbians that sound and act very similar to office-chan
>>42622013I think she is just npd
>>42621981what’s greyrcok
>>42622037lmao babe you really need to not respond to this it’s likely to be some narcissist scheme to get you responding again. she needs therapy and help not you feeling bad for her. the most help you can give her is knowing you enable her by continuing to reach out.
>>42621652based isolationist japanese queen
>>42622037Its the only way to deal with a narcissist. Basically when you run into a npd, the only way you can "win" this event is by escaping/avoiding them all together. Everything they say is designed to lure you deeper into them like some kind of lovecraftian carnivorous plant. You being here means you haven't fully escaped yet. They are essentially like black holes that suck people in, often with charm.
>>42621652If you meant any of this you would be in therapy and not posting on the board. So this is obviously bait yet again.
>>42622013They have my condolences assuming they have it much worse than me. >>42622101Im not actually japanese....... i just like nippon culture so much...>>42622119Fair point. I cant afford therapy, and im not good at opening up. Plus most therapists are unhinged themselves.
Im in bed with a cold
>>42622168Office, I know where you live, you are employed, you have insurance, unless you have dept to pay off that I don't know about you can afford therapy.
>>42622168but I wanted to pretend to be japanese together with you officesama
>>42622200Today i ate spaghetti and tomato sauce. Does that answer your question. Ugh
My cat showed up to say hi
>>42622214Not really, no. I was able to afford therapy even when I barely had any money at all. You should stop making excuses and start therapy.
>>42622213If you are anything like me, which you probably are, then you will never truly experience even the slightest notion of togetherness, with anyone or thing. No matter with who or how many you surround yourself, you will always be alone. You and me will die alone, and any illusion you have right now about that not being the case you best cast aside.
Dont go to therapy that shit is fake, literally just make a couple real friends you talk to alot. Why would you want to pay someone to pretend to care about you and feed you drugs? Id listen to you complain about your childhood for free just cause its interesting and Id rec you to smoke weed for free too
>>42622251can you say that in japanese so I can feel the magic
>>42622251I remember one time when I was 19 i did a bunch of shrooms while watching dead man wonderland as it premiered and at that moment i was having some serious existential dread about how all the people i was in the room with had nothing in common with me and were all fake friends that id never talk to in a year or so
>>42622262Moshi anata ga watashi to sukoshi demo nite iru nara, osoraku sou deshou, anata wa dare to demo, arui wa nan to demo, honno wazuka no ittaikan sae mo hontou ni keiken suru koto wa nai deshou. Dare to issho ni iyou to, dore dake ooku no hitobito ni kakomarete iyou to, anata wa tsune ni hitori de iru no desu. Anata mo watashi mo kodoku ni shinimasu. Soshite ima anata ga motte iru sono gensou -- tsumari sou de wa nai to iu omoikomi wa, sugu ni suteta hou ga ii deshou.
>>42622292Google doesnt think thats real japanese..
>>42622292domo arigato mister roboto
>>42622251what about harlot?
>>42622308Thanks for helping me narrow down where you are?
>>42622355that wasnt me officesama im not an eskimo
>>42622189Is that the oblivion remaster?
>>42622375Mhm, some good clean old fashioned fun. My cat just got turned into a vampire >_<
>>42622438Clean your desk, office retard. I can't believe you look like the most average otaku boy imaginable.
>>42622438You're the biggest racist on the board and not even white? Classic
>>42622438Sorry but based of this pic you really give me the ick. Im sire ur personality is ok tho. You're not my type.Why is this thread even getting yous its just my confession its so weird. You all need to leave.
>>42622604No one asked butt head. I keep trying to pass on here as an ftm or a gay guy and I keep getting called out as an mtf transbian though.. >>>42622430 why do you think that is?
>>42622438You look like a nerdier jordan
>>42622691I mean, you pass as a manmoder! So that's something.
>>42622604officesama just say the word and I will slice this insolent monkey in two
>>42622755Okay that made me giggle. But do not call people monkey. Racism is bad...
>>42622767You look like a nerdier me, shut your brown ass up nigger
>>42622767she be learning see now will u admit hitler was actually bad and rape isn’t good and you are sorry gooning to what harlots uncle did to her
>>42622794But ... im not brown... and the n word is illegal...
>>42622818Your soul is brown spaghetti eater. Now why dont you go sup on some leftovers
>>42622817I like how you are trying to assert all those things are true even though they are just your headcannon...Its equally as weird as if i were to say "see do u admit now that soul eater is better than naruto"And you'd be like "what? *beep*"And id like "well u see in the past you said x, and from that i inferred y and therefore it must be true that you are y"And you'd be like "awww shit danggg she gotta point"And id be like "well thanks for bumping my thread i guess.. even if its with lies and weird assertions"And you'd be like "tf is an assertion bish i aint got a degree nuhuhh!"And id be like "its when you ask a question that is embedded with a falsehood"And you'd be like "daaaaang *beep* i dunno bout any of dat sheet bitch u be learnin! U be learnin i see!"And id be like "the fact you have to embed lies within your accusations, as in lie about who i am, would imply that the real me isnt worth hating enough. Its curious and leads one to the question, why would one hate on someone who's real self isnt worth hating enough, or rather, why would one bother hating on the idea of someone you created in your head rather than the actual person themselves. It subtlety suggests that the person who is the focus of your scorn is merely secondary to the scorn itself, rather a means to an end. The actual methodology here isnt someone hating someone else, its more likely that you hate yourself, and in order to distract yourself from that pain you create phantoms, images, ideas worth hating. It must be frustrating. But i can slightly relate, i hate myself too sometimes."
>>42622917yeah it was joke retard beside the part about harlots uncle i saw that one lmao disgusting
>>42622930The other parts were also kind of true. Office definitely is a racist, ask conejo. And office has been making tons of rape jokes too.
Didnt read, as I very lightly skim any of the cringe either of you write, but naruto is 10k x as good as slop eater. I cant even believe youd consider them in the same ballpark. Trash.
>>42622930I mean, the one about her uncle was also just an embedded falsehood. You know i didnt goon to that. I merely said something inappropriate as a form of unhinged rizz. And, i wouldnt take it back because i still think its funny, tbqh. Its weird you'd admit to asserting a bunch of falsehoods about my beliefs but then so obviously misconstrue the point of the most unhinged thing iv ever said. *beep*
>Erm, actually my least favorite 4channel poster is racist, just ask my favorite 4channel poster @brownvagina. Basically rape isnt funny.
>>42621652You are clearly mentally ill. I'll let you in on a secret, no matter of self awareness will free you from a shattered mind. Figure out whatever diagnosis you have and try to get therapy and or medication. Lest you trap yourself in this hell forever.
>>42623045Ill let you in on a secret. Im gay
>>42623065Obviously. Now go to therapy you rapist.
>>42623093Again with the embedded falsehood assertions........ sigh.... you people are so dull...Also if u knew anything about therapy youd know npds are beyond help. Even psychopaths are more liked in therapist circles. There are countless cases of therapists actually refusing npds from the get go.
>>42623122So you don't actually want to get better and all of this was just to bait harlot.
>>42623143I honestly didnt expect her to be stupid enough to enter a thread i made after being able to overcome me. I do want to get better. But i dont want to go to therapy. I just wanna chill in a taallllll tower as i grow my hair out...
>>42623176So you don't want to get better...
>>42623196I do........... im better when im away from people.
>>42623201Then that means you don't want to get better.
>>42623210What does it matter to you
>>42623228I just want you to get better. You need to actually try and put in effort.
>>42623242I think your interest in helping people might be pathological. I saw your frengen post saying you were depressed. Focus on yourself instead of random losers online
>>42623285I wouldn't call replying a couple of times to one of your 100 threads focusing on you. And besides, I used to be like this before becoming depressed too, so I don't think it's an issue. Don't try to distract.
i want to be in a tower too and let my hair grow too we could all be friends yk
>>42623398Obvious harlot post.
>>42623405that’s not a diagnosis just based on symptoms there is a love in this world that is true and beyond all of us and everywhere an ever pervading happiness that is in all that is around us
>>42623467Stop posting harlot.
>>42623405bc i happen to like carrots?
>>42623480Okay now I'm certain you're harlot.
okay i’ll stop but in another world we are all besties and im german too<3 sigh wish you a both well last interaction post with office or about this super directly gbye
>>42623330You're trying to distract. Id rather focus on helping you become not depressed because iv pretty much always been this way where as you must have had something that made you depressed, (though i rather you didnt tell me what, because when/if in the likely case i split id just use it against you probably)you should work on that... i know you like helping and thats fine but i do think you should maybe do 90% less helping others and focus that 90% on yourselfIm somewhat of a philosopher and what iv observed is that those who try to help others too often, often lose themselves. Its a sort of natural rule, a part of growing up, realizing you cant help everyone, and that, its not your responsibility to do so. God gave them their challenges for them to face, and you your challenges for you to face. Helping is fine but there is a point where it crosses over into the point where it damages oneself and at that very point you are actually, going against the very thing you set out to do. To be kind to others also means being kind to oneself. If you neglect yourself in favor of others you are being unkind to a person who deserves kindness. And who deserves kindness more than the person who wants to be kind to everyone else..Do the world a favor and love yourself
>>42623546Good. Go Away you toxic three letter acronym of bad influence.
>>42623594wait what this mean? pos?
>>42623606there are no wrong answers here
>>42621652>trans>bad personI already knew you were a bad person the moment you said those two things. No need for your stupid unimportant tl;dr paragraph of bullshit.
>>42623582we have seen gurren lagann but this is a good point
>>42623582I know all that. I am a philosopher too you know. And knowing all that I still decide to help others and be nice to them. I think getting hurt is just part of being human. And I don't think what I'm doing is a big investment at all. I think it's okay to rely on others sometimes and help each other. Isolating yourself and focusing only on yourself is not good for you.And don't worry, I know to keep my distance from you. Don't misunderstand, I still think what you did was horrible and cruel and should not be forgiven. But I still think you can get better if you try.
>>42623704we have gurren lagann but this is a better point
>>42623122I just call people rapists cause it's funny. You are not beyond help, on some level you don't want it. I recommend developing a psychological conviction to change before whatever tumultuous emotion experience would otherwise shift you comes about. Save yourself the self pity and heartache. Or do you want to grovel and self flagellate forever? A lot of people do you know. You won't change now, but keep this conversation in your head for me will ya? For the next time you do something horrible and beat yourself up like you're addicted it. One day you'll tire of walking the desert, know there's a path out.
